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Dear Amy,

What you write is so cute !!!! It is very touching for me !!!!

I think we are all closed because we have been through kind of similar

suffurings during childhood. I think we could become good friends and kind of

" mothering " each other.

For me it was more like when I was a teenager, if I stayed at a family for few

weeks, for example I went two weeks in England in a family with four children,

well I just dreamt never to leave ! I was feeling so good with them !

During nearly all my life, I used to tell : " I want a family for me ! " Today I

don't feel that. I have realized two years ago, by someone who told me " But you

have YOUR family ! " , that yes, today I am the Mum and I don't fancy any mother

any more for me.

But it is true that I had the grace during most of my childhood, that I had my

Grand-Mother who absolutely loved me, and she has been in my heart my true

Mummy. As she died two years ago, for me it is like if I have no living Mummy

now. My nada lives not far away from here but I have managed to cut from last

june and I wish this one it will work and I will be strong enough never to allow

her back.

For me, sorry, but the " husband department " has been a total disaster :-)

I am alone today for four years. I have never been married yet (French men don't

marry), I have been in three couple stories, the two first men were violents and

the third one ran away with a b....

In the Kids' department, everything is quite fine, I have three children, one

from each of my ex (but my Daddy did worst, he had four children from four

different wives :-) )

The two little ones are quite easy and very cute. The first one is more

difficult, I am actually discovering that he has BDP too ....

My life changed at different periods in my life. First in 1991, when I

discovered the book : " From prison to praise " from Merlin Carothers. Before, I

was always sad and used to cry if I was at a party or at friends meatings. I was

" the sad one " , and since, I became " the smily one " . Then from 1990 until today

by reading the Bible (for me Isayah Book and the Psalms are really curing), then

I discovered EFT few years ago and it helped. Then I read Louise Hay and used to

listen to some of her CDs when I feel down and after two weeks, " Im back on the

tracks " of positive thinkings ! :-) I have also a friends group on internet and

we use to send to each others every day " positive quotes " for four years.

And since last year, my life has changed again : I am writing my two first

books, about my childhood memories, and for me it is really curing. I try to

find anecdots, funny things I lived, and I tell them, I don't know how to

explain in English, but by focalizing on smiling things from my past I feel

better about it.

I don't know if this could help you Amy. For me really Louise Hay has changed my

life.

I wish you to feel always positive and to be always smily :-)

Have a Beautiful Weekend !!!! :-)

Natacha

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De : " barrycove@... "

À : WTOAdultChildren1

Envoyé le : Vendredi 9 mars 2012 13h49

Objet : Re: Re : Re: sick and tired

 

Natacha and Annie...I WANT YOU BOTH TO BE MY MOM!!!!!

Do you ever meet people now that are great moms and wish you could have had a

do-over with that person as your mom?

I do.

Natacha, I too feel the way you do...like I do all the things for my kids that I

wish I had been given...and it does make me feel better to know that I am the

kind of mom that is unconditional and appreciates my kids' existences.

And when I compare myself on occasion to others, I get very upset...so now I try

to stay away from comparing with the world.

I keep saying to myself, " I have been very unlucky in the Mom Department. "

Then I break it up with, " I am very lucky in the Husband & Kids Department. "

I always try to make myself feel better...always a struggle. I hope, one day, to

be free of this cycle.

Amy

barrycove@...