Guest guest Posted March 14, 2012 Report Share Posted March 14, 2012 For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 14, 2012 Report Share Posted March 14, 2012 I'm so sorry you are having to deal with such chronic illnesses and conditions due to stress, that has to be so frustrating for you. I agree: growing up in a chronically stressful environment does things to the child's body, continuing into adulthood. I think I read that the adult children of unstable, emotionally labile, angry, volatile, abusive parents (in other words, bpd parents) are more prone to stress-related illnesses and conditions. All I can share is how I coped with it, back when I was undergoing a period of extreme stress at work. I went on an anti-anxiety med. I became so anxious that I wasn't sleeping much at night, and I started having chest pains. I've always had " acid indigestion " or a stomach ulcer or something, and that kicked into high gear as well. The chest pains scared me and sent me to the doctor, who told me that my blood pressure was through the roof. I explained my situation: horrid new boss seemingly trying to make me quit my job, etc. So, he put me on an anti-anxiety med. It took a few days for it to kick in fully, and when it did, at first it felt like I was walking around underwater, like reality was kind of slowed down: weird (!) but pleasant. The med allowed me to sleep again, good sleep, and it allowed me to focus on my work and function adequately at my job. It gave me a window of opportunity to get myself the hell away from that nightmare of a new boss, and into a different department where I was wanted and appreciated. After a very short time in the new department, I found I didn't need the anti-anxiety med any more. So, I hope you will find something that works to help you with your anxiety and stress. You've suffered enough! -Annie > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 14, 2012 Report Share Posted March 14, 2012 On top of everything, that too, I'm so sorry. I had all that GI misery for years too, which of course my parents always said was psychosomatic, because I'm, you know, crazy. As if it isn't hard enough to stay present in the outside world without your internal organs demanding attention. If your nada isn't around to rage at you, your stomach will do it for her! Without quite understanding that chronic lifelong stress was the root of everything, I've still managed to get a lot better. You mentioned the specific carbohydrate diet and I think you're on to something. The constant hypervigilance we learned in childhood spills over into the GI system too, so we may overreact to a lot of foods. Have you looked into Paleo style diets? They're meant to reduce inflammation, which is of course a stress response. I'm astonished at how much better I feel physically and mentally since removing gluten from my diet. An elimination diet would be good for you to identify any hidden food sensitivities (dairy, nightshades, etc), which can help emotionally as well. I also have noticed that medication has helped a lot. In my case it's a cocktail of low dose mood stabilizers. They make me more resilient to mental stress, but I was surprised to find also that a lot of my random stomachaches, nausea, and blood sugar drops got better. My body can rest now that my emotional system is being restrained a bit. There's really no mind or body, just a person, and a person will suffer from abuse and stress somewhere. I'm willing to bet that if you go NC you'll see some improvement in your symptoms. Hang in there. > > > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 14, 2012 Report Share Posted March 14, 2012 Hi Echobabe, I hear you. This one really is not fair. I wish I had the answer. I've had some of these same issues. My doctor explained to me that a certain type of muscle group (smooth round ?; I forget now) of which are our GI tracts are comprised (and throats too) contract in response to stress. I don't know about you, but whenever I am stressed my throat tightens up. I've had limited success dealing with my body's stress reactions. One thing, that has helped me, believe it or not is to actually try to focus in on the unpleasant sensations rather than trying to tune them out. I know that sounds counter intuitive, but the more you do it, if you can be in a calm state while you do it, and see the sensations through to their resolution and try to relax once they have passed, they seem to get better, for me at least. I don't know why it works for me. I imagine that it is somehow like I am giving the sensations (part of me) their due (after all they are trying to tell me something), but I am also greater than just the sensations, since I am watching them from a bit of a distance. HC > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 14, 2012 Report Share Posted March 14, 2012 http://www.amazon.com/Paradoxical-Relaxation-Practice-Dissolving-Accepting/dp/09\ 72775587 this book agrees with you. I am learning this relaxation method right now to help my pelvic floor dysfunction. it was developed to help people with lots of muscle related stress issues. Meikjn > > > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 15, 2012 Report Share Posted March 15, 2012 Thank you for telling me that and posting the link, Meikin. That is so interesting. Are you finding it helpful? > > > > > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > > > > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > > > > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > > > > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > > > > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > > > > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 15, 2012 Report Share Posted March 15, 2012 I have not been doing it long, but I am really excited about it. It makes no overinflated claims. It is the self proclaimed " slow fix " the author is a neurologist/psychologist and has the same condition as me, and has used this (in conjunction with other symptom specific treatments) to heal himself. I sleep better, and have more energy, and less symptoms when I am consistent. It also has many practical suggestions for dealing with stress in general. my urologist told me about this. defiantly worth a valiant try. for me at least. Meikjn > > > > > > > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > > > > > > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > > > > > > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > > > > > > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > > > > > > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > > > > > > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 15, 2012 Report Share Posted March 15, 2012 It is funny how this technique is so contradictory to what is instinctive, i.e., to pay MORE attention to what is painful. I started doing this (not having read this book to which you refer) because I have dissociative tendencies. The thing with dissociation is that I did it historically to avoid pain because I had no other choice, but if I keep doing it in the present it causes pain (like me tuning out my kids simply because they remind me of my own childhood when they want my attention and me feeling guilty for not providing it). So I just started applying this counter intuitive focus on the pain logic all over the place. > > > > > > > > > > For the past 25+ years I've suffered from various digestive problems. Candida overgrowth, LGS, gallstones, hiatal hernia, GERD, colitis. > > > > > > > > > > I spent 6 years getting the candida and LGS under control. Then the gallbladder removed. Then the Specific Carbohydrate Diet to treat candida, LGS and colitis. Then 3 years ago the GERD was constant. I found out I wasn't making any stomach acid, so now I take HCL supplements. Like I said, 25+ years of fighting this! > > > > > > > > > > In November I started taking cortisone for chronic fatigue, insomnia. I think my stomach acid may be starting to work again, but in the meantime I am bloating from the cortisone and yeast, again. This past week I have been miserable with hiatal hernia, GERD and colitis. Sometimes I just want to cry. I go one step forward and then get slammed back again. I feel like 'why even try?' It is clear at this point I am never going to get free and clear of any of this crap. > > > > > > > > > > Many of you are wondering WHY I am posting this here--what this has to do with BPD. Although I am a big person with lots of therapy behind me, I simply cannot shut off my body's stress reaction that I learned at my BPD mother's knee. God knows I've tried! And I know many, many of you also have digestion problems from being raised by PD nutjobs! > > > > > > > > > > I found myself in the Dr's office yesterday, totally PO'd at my mother and father--if only I had been raised by anyone else, my body would be healthy. I would not break down like this with a little bit of stress. Even though I may go NC with them, I still experience this legacy of trauma that is my digestive system. > > > > > > > > > > I'd also like to hear if any one of you have ever beaten your digestive stress reactions? Is there any way to deal with daily stress that does not involve (unknowingly) chewing up my insides? > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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