Medical Issues NOW bc of years of verbal & emotional abuse, both past & present

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Hello, I'm a newbie who's found your forum/posts to be very informative and

enlightening. Both my grandmother and mother have this malady. I've been

subjected to their respective wraths since birth; emotionally torturing me on a

daily basis now without seeing anything they do as wrong or hurtful.

I've had to move in with my grandmother for health and financial reasons. To

make it worse, my mother lives just 5 doors down. (I used to support both of

them, financially and emotionally.) They have a terrible relationship. I'm often

put in the middle (always have been) or else they gang up on me. Well, I used to

be able to " deal " with them bc I kept everything in but I can no longer take it.

The stress has gotten to be wayyyyy too much. My body physically crumbles.

Intense pain and horrible tingling/squeezing pressure overcome me to the point

where I pass out from it or can't even get out of bed for weeks on end

(depending on intensity) bc of the overall pain. I can't even function like a

normal human being doing the very basics like washing clothes, making food, etc.

They don't see how badly they hurt me no matter how many times I have tried to

talk with them. Even several doctors have tried to reason with them that they

need to calm down in order to help limit my stress. Just today, my mother all of

a sudden got up and stormed out in tears on my doctor and I. She claimed

afterward, after me having to pull it out of her and her getting heated, that

the doctor was putting her down and that I was lying to him about things she's

done- things which she jokes about with the neighbors or even prides herself on

having done. She then told me that I forget a lot of stuff (everything's my

fault) and that she's thru with being put down by everyone and trying to have a

relationship with me; that I can't let go of the past (even if it was just

yesterday that she did it) and she's tired of being the victim. She warned me to

stop talking about it before she " really started going off on me " . Then said she

is not going to be the victim for anyone any longer and that she is now the

Victor bc she won't tolerate the abuse. Anyway, back at the office after she

left, the doctor hugged me and told me she/they are not AT ALL good for my

health, are contributing to the problems, and that I'll never get better whilst

being around them. He advised that I should find a new place to live as soon as

possible if I want to get better. (Funny, many others have told me to leave them

behind for many, many years even before I became ill.)

I ask you, am I crazy for thinking they're normal and I'm the problem? I've been

told for years by them that I'm wrong, been called names, and that I need to

change bc I'm too hard to get along with. What can I do to handle them better?

How can I ease my stress while being there for however long? My health Really

depends on this!!

Thank you,

GFG