panic attack again last night

[Guest guest]

So again last night I started to have a panic attack after I laid down to go to

bed. I haven't had these in a long time, and I don't understand why I'm having

them again. First the bad work dream then the panic attack last night. I managed

to talk myself down from it, and I turned on the TV for a minute to change the

subject in my brain, and eventually I was able to get back to sleep.

I am trying to recognize that I have been through a lot of stress lately, and I

am still feeling the stress of wanting to perform well in my new job (as well as

losing a lot of individuals lately to unforeseen deaths). So I'm trying to not

feel bad that I am feeling this stress. I think I'm trying to ignore it or

something and that's manifesting in the bad dreams or panic attacks.

Clearly I'm feeling some anxiety and I need to figure out how to address it.

[Guest guest]

The techniques of cognitive behavioral therapy and dialectical behavioral

therapy are supposed to help with anxiety, I think.

I haven't studied them much, (so those who have, please correct me if I'm wrong

here) but I think these two therapies involve ways of re-directing your thoughts

and feelings to become more anchored in the moment, and help you deal with the

anxiety consciously in productive ways, so as not to let your anxieties run away

with you. I think its when we try to ignore our anxieties and squelch them and

bury them, that they come out in dreams and in other ways like physical symptoms

(inability to concentrate, insomnia, etc.)

Its there a therapist in your area who is familiar with cognitive therapy, or

dialectical behavioral therapy? Or maybe there are some books that are

self-help versions of those therapies.

-Annie

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> So again last night I started to have a panic attack after I laid down to go

to bed. I haven't had these in a long time, and I don't understand why I'm

having them again. First the bad work dream then the panic attack last night. I

managed to talk myself down from it, and I turned on the TV for a minute to

change the subject in my brain, and eventually I was able to get back to sleep.

>

> I am trying to recognize that I have been through a lot of stress lately, and

I am still feeling the stress of wanting to perform well in my new job (as well

as losing a lot of individuals lately to unforeseen deaths). So I'm trying to

not feel bad that I am feeling this stress. I think I'm trying to ignore it or

something and that's manifesting in the bad dreams or panic attacks.

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> Clearly I'm feeling some anxiety and I need to figure out how to address it.

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[Guest guest]

Well, I was seeing a therapist until I moved, and now it's been like two months.

My health benefits are not as good here, and I'm not sure I can afford to see a

therapist the way I used to.

I think it's the stress of my new job and wanting to do it well. I notice that

sometimes I catch myself with some fleas, wanting to be able to control how

people will respond to me, and I have to keep reminding myself that I can't

control other people, I can only control myself. And if someone does respond

negatively, that doesn't have to be a reflection on me. As I repeat that mantra

over and over, it definitely helps.

I just have to slow myself down and allow myself to feel these things: sadness

over lost friends, stress over new job--I have to keep reminding myself it's

okay to feel that way.

It was just surprising because I had a really great day, then had a panic attack

at night, out of nowhere, really.

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> > So again last night I started to have a panic attack after I laid down to go

to bed. I haven't had these in a long time, and I don't understand why I'm

having them again. First the bad work dream then the panic attack last night. I

managed to talk myself down from it, and I turned on the TV for a minute to

change the subject in my brain, and eventually I was able to get back to sleep.

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> > I am trying to recognize that I have been through a lot of stress lately,

and I am still feeling the stress of wanting to perform well in my new job (as

well as losing a lot of individuals lately to unforeseen deaths). So I'm trying

to not feel bad that I am feeling this stress. I think I'm trying to ignore it

or something and that's manifesting in the bad dreams or panic attacks.

> >

> > Clearly I'm feeling some anxiety and I need to figure out how to address it.

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[Guest guest]

Oh, I hate it when that happens to me. I hope you can get ahead of it soon. I've

used soothing baths, lavender/chamomile tea, and still sometimes I have a

problem.

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> So again last night I started to have a panic attack after I laid down to go

to bed. I haven't had these in a long time, and I don't understand why I'm

having them again. First the bad work dream then the panic attack last night. I

managed to talk myself down from it, and I turned on the TV for a minute to

change the subject in my brain, and eventually I was able to get back to sleep.

>

> I am trying to recognize that I have been through a lot of stress lately, and

I am still feeling the stress of wanting to perform well in my new job (as well

as losing a lot of individuals lately to unforeseen deaths). So I'm trying to

not feel bad that I am feeling this stress. I think I'm trying to ignore it or

something and that's manifesting in the bad dreams or panic attacks.

>

> Clearly I'm feeling some anxiety and I need to figure out how to address it.

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[Guest guest]

I have been feeling a LOT of stress lately and most of it is work-related. I

moved to MT and took a position to head a Development program that was brand

new, and I have to build the program from the ground up, and I have no staff

right now.

I think my anxiety is coming from my wish to succeed but the overwork and stress

of having to do 3 people's jobs at once is wearing on me. I know I can do this,

but staying on top of everything right now is difficult. And I feel occasionally

that others maybe do not understand (or maybe I just think they don't

understand). I think what I need to do is be vocal about what the expectations

on me can be right now with no support staff.

I just know if I can identify the cause of the anxiety then I can deal with it.

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> > So again last night I started to have a panic attack after I laid down to go

to bed. I haven't had these in a long time, and I don't understand why I'm

having them again. First the bad work dream then the panic attack last night. I

managed to talk myself down from it, and I turned on the TV for a minute to

change the subject in my brain, and eventually I was able to get back to sleep.

> >

> > I am trying to recognize that I have been through a lot of stress lately,

and I am still feeling the stress of wanting to perform well in my new job (as

well as losing a lot of individuals lately to unforeseen deaths). So I'm trying

to not feel bad that I am feeling this stress. I think I'm trying to ignore it

or something and that's manifesting in the bad dreams or panic attacks.

> >

> > Clearly I'm feeling some anxiety and I need to figure out how to address it.

> >

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[Guest guest]

, I think its great that you are aware of it - I have had symptoms and

not been aware of them so great job!

I would be willing to bet that your employer does not understand! I work

with new clients almost every day and the process of educating them to 1)

pay attention to their own goals and biz plan 2) to do their part (for

instance show up on time and deliver an interview, or respond quickly with

edits) and 3) not bore the living hell out of the audience is SOOOOOO

difficult. i think people hire someone and then just assume that everything

will be taken care of them for them and they put it out of their minds. The

other thing I have seen when people need a team and a staff is that if you

bring it up too much, they will start to roll their eyes at you. But if you

don't bring it up you are also screwed!!

In addition, at my job now they tend to kind of " haze " new people. They

treat people like they are totally and utterly stupid for up to the 1st year

of their employment, unless the person really busts a move and amazes them.

I think its crappy. They also refuse to train on things like budgets and

time management (I have 7 different clients right now who I bill hourly and

at the end of the month I have to come in right on budget for every single

one, both hard costs and time costs. It is kind of a tricky skill to master

and I had no hope of getting it until I realized that waif boss didn't know

how to do it and couldn't teach me). Basically I think they try to set

people up to fail. I don't know why - but I try to tip off the new peeps to

watch for it and not to make mistakes at first - which is also hard because

I have no privacy where I could give the new guys tips.

Its a very delicate situation and I can relate and just sending you a hug. I

used to have terrible job related anxiety, esp when the resession began.

Then I realized that fada had taught me that job security was 100%

everything. And its not. And he lived in a different time. Being able to be

yourself is more important. And once you have an amazing skill set (and you

do), your skills and education become your bank account. A job is a job is a

job - they change, have ups and downs and you move on. But your world, your

skills, your dreams - that's real life.

Hope that helps!

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> I have been feeling a LOT of stress lately and most of it is work-related.

> I moved to MT and took a position to head a Development program that was

> brand new, and I have to build the program from the ground up, and I have no

> staff right now.

>

> I think my anxiety is coming from my wish to succeed but the overwork and

> stress of having to do 3 people's jobs at once is wearing on me. I know I

> can do this, but staying on top of everything right now is difficult. And I

> feel occasionally that others maybe do not understand (or maybe I just think

> they don't understand). I think what I need to do is be vocal about what the

> expectations on me can be right now with no support staff.

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> I just know if I can identify the cause of the anxiety then I can deal with

> it.

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> > > So again last night I started to have a panic attack after I laid down

> to go to bed. I haven't had these in a long time, and I don't understand why

> I'm having them again. First the bad work dream then the panic attack last

> night. I managed to talk myself down from it, and I turned on the TV for a

> minute to change the subject in my brain, and eventually I was able to get

> back to sleep.

> > >

> > > I am trying to recognize that I have been through a lot of stress

> lately, and I am still feeling the stress of wanting to perform well in my

> new job (as well as losing a lot of individuals lately to unforeseen

> deaths). So I'm trying to not feel bad that I am feeling this stress. I

> think I'm trying to ignore it or something and that's manifesting in the bad

> dreams or panic attacks.

> > >

> > > Clearly I'm feeling some anxiety and I need to figure out how to

> address it.

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