Nada lives rent free in my head

[Guest guest]

I'm an all good child with a Queen Nada with hints of witch. I live in

anicipation of the next rage attack. It's really hard for me to live quietly in

peace. If I'm busy, I get out of that zone. But when I'm just doing things

like quietly making breakfast, or waking up, it's just an impending sense of

doom. Anticipatory anxiety. I'm working my way through the books and making

progress. " She does not control me " is my new mantra.

[Guest guest]

That's a good mantra! I use the technique of " re-recording " over the

nada-tapes, such as, when I spill something, I used to call myself every harsh,

ugly name my nada would call me, like " stupid, clumsy idiot. " Now I say to

myself something like, " Wow, that was a big one! All over the floor! Well, I

can have that swept up in no time, and that's what paper towels are for, right?

There, its done! " Its taken years, but I don't automatically hear the ugly,

shrieking criticism first, I hear the " Oops! " first. It just takes time and

being consistent, so, you'll get there sooner or later!

-Annie

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> I'm an all good child with a Queen Nada with hints of witch. I live in

anicipation of the next rage attack. It's really hard for me to live quietly in

peace. If I'm busy, I get out of that zone. But when I'm just doing things

like quietly making breakfast, or waking up, it's just an impending sense of

doom. Anticipatory anxiety. I'm working my way through the books and making

progress. " She does not control me " is my new mantra.

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[Guest guest]

Charge the bitch rent.

Doug

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> I'm an all good child with a Queen Nada with hints of witch. I live in

anicipation of the next rage attack. It's really hard for me to live

quietly in peace. If I'm busy, I get out of that zone. But when I'm just

doing things like quietly making breakfast, or waking up, it's just an

impending sense of doom. Anticipatory anxiety. I'm working my way

through the books and making progress. " She does not control me " is my

new mantra.

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[Guest guest]

I like that Annie - oopsy - I spilled. It's ok this is my house and I can

spill if I want!!!

As long as my computer doesn't get wet, its all good. . . .

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> anicipation of the next rage attack. It's really hard for me to live

> quietly in peace. If I'm busy, I get out of that zone. But when I'm just

> doing things like quietly making breakfast, or waking up, it's just an

> impending sense of doom. Anticipatory anxiety. I'm working my way

> through the books and making progress. " She does not control me " is my

> new mantra.

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[Guest guest]

Kimither, I can relate.

I've realized recently how my mother has been a prosecutor in my life, my

accuser. Conversations were interrogations and yelled-out questions demanding

answers. I realized that's why I would feel sick to my stomach when she would

call or visit. Even now it makes my chest constrict.

Good for you for having a mantra! Mine has been, " she doesn't need to get it. "

It helps me to keep telling myself this, esp when I visit her waify self and she

puts me on the witness stand.

Be strong! You deserve to be happy.

Fiona

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> I'm an all good child with a Queen Nada with hints of witch. I live in

anicipation of the next rage attack. It's really hard for me to live quietly in

peace. If I'm busy, I get out of that zone. But when I'm just doing things

like quietly making breakfast, or waking up, it's just an impending sense of

doom. Anticipatory anxiety. I'm working my way through the books and making

progress. " She does not control me " is my new mantra.

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