Re: Casie...Re: your questions (Welcome & Story, long)

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Casie~~ I know you probably havent seen me post

recently, but usually I post a lot. I have been

battling hemorrhagic cystitis and just got results

from and US that I have a mass on my left ovary and

tube, so I have been real quiet.

First, my name is and I am the mom to 6 angels.

My first daugther, Sammi-Gayle died due to a ruptured

ectopic in the right tube at 9 weeks. I had NO

previous symptoms. The first day I saw my ob I began

lightly spotting only when I used the bathroom. I had

been examined only by the FNP and she put me on

bedrest. Every day I was required to call in twice

and went for a recheck every two days where the

checked my blood HCG and urine pregnancy, which were

always positive. About 4 weeks after being on bedrest

they let me go back to work, because the spotting had

not gotten any worse. I had had 3 US's and they saw

nothing but never told me my tests were abnormal. My

first evening back to work (a Monday) I went in and

began vomiting about two hours later and did not stop.

I chalked it up to finally having morning sickness.

When I got home at 1130 p.m. I sat down and felt a

dull " pop " in my right lower pelvic area (which I now

know was my tube rupturing). I called the doctor

because when I used the bathroom my blood got much

darker, almost black. The doctor on call told me to

get a good nights rest and come in for my regular

check up in the morning at 8. I had a fitful sleep

and got ready and left to pick up my husband at the

base on my way to the dr. The only symptoms I was

having was black bloody discharge and fullness in my

abdomen. The nurse did more blood and urine and one

more ultrasound. NO baby was found. AT about 1220 I

was told to go home and back on bedrest. On our way

out the door we were stopped by a nurse, who said the

Dr. wanted to see me. I had not yet seen the Dr. He

did another ultrasound and said he wanted to do an

inoffice procedure called a culdocentesis. Mind you

he did this twice and it was extremely painful.

After the first one needless to say I was in

hysterical tears and so was my husband. He then

informed me that he wanted to do surgery immediately.

I was in shock. I was in surgery for 3 hours. My

hospital stay was pretty bad to start because my

doctor did not document that my baby had died, so with

my incision all the staff thought I have had a baby.So

they were constantly coming in my room asking me if

the baby was nursing, what I had and if the baby was

rooming with us. Once my mother told the Charge nurse

what happened they did everything they could to make

it up to me. But I really didn't get any grief

counseling. If I did it didn't matter because I had

totally withdrawn and was in shock.

I do have a regular ceserean scar, which in some parts

is still numb. I was at home for about 5 weeks after

wards and a pillow became my best friend. I walked

with it pressed against my abdomen everywhere I went.

They took my blood all the time. There are a lot of

reasons they do this. I work in an MD office and most

patients in the hospital have their blood drawn

sometimes 3-4 times a day but usually only once. They

check for blood loss, infection and HCG levels. Also

they must check more usually if your RH - which I was.

But mostly to check for blood loss (which could mean

your bleeding internally) and infection. I was told

since my incision has been opened once since then to

repair my left tube that I would definately need a

ceserean because your uterus can tear away and cause

hemorrhaging. But I would have probably had one

anyways because they said my labor would be too long.

For several months after I had pains off and on, and

of course was in denial but no one in my family really

discussed it much after that. I have only had one

doctor comment on the scars by saying he was sorry I

had to go through that, most of the other docs look at

it and say they did a good job, because you can barely

see it. I have extensive scar tissue and have been

told I can not have surgery to repair it. I had IVF

in 98 and had 5 embryos. We implanted 3 and I lost

them 4 weeks later.

I hope sharing my story has helped you some. I am

sorry you had to go through this. I wouldn't wish it

on my worst enemy. Please email me if you need to

talk.

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Mommy to 6 angels Sammi-Gayle, Hannah Faye,Christian McKenna,

Adam and Carly Mee

and my angel on Earth

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