Re: To Judy

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Judy I am sure to hear that things have been so hard. I feel for u watching

your mom, I had my g.father I cared for with the disease, it was so sad as he

was always so loving, fun, and the life of the gatherings. I also worked alot

with private duty cases, when I could work, and I loved it, though it is so sad

to watch them go deeper and deeper inside that unknown place. I wish you did

not have to watch this. I hope you don't take offense to this, but I chuckled

when you told the whirlpool strory, and the neighbor sign being up. Believe it

or not it brought me back to when I was more able to get out and because I get

so pale I don't know why as I darken quickly in sun, but went to a tanning booth

I know it's a no no to alot of people but I sometimes take the chance on things

like dying my hair a new color, when I am feeling real low, anyway I a little

skeptical to begin with got all undressed got in the tanning bed, and few mins.

I thought I saw flames at the

bottom of the bed, well I thought no just my flashes I get of seeing things

once in awhile, waited a min, and sure enough the bed was on fire! Well I could

not get my clothes on and wasn't go out in my underclothes no matter what, I

did get out and the girl would not believe me, Scarey, but went into another

room, and low and behold got in that bed and it would not start!, had to dress

again go out and tell her. I look back now and laugh. I hope you continue to

find good times with your mother in law, and DH I wish he would let up, and your

son, I don't know what to say, but if he won't get help as hard as it be try and

not think about it, I have a bro with temp custody of 2 sm. children and he is

an alcoholic, and has gotten so bad he has not worked in over a yr and my other

bro has been paying his rent. but can't continue for ever and it is causing alot

of anguish, worry, stress, between the rest of us. I get sick to my stomach

thinking about it, as in worry, but I

have gotten to were, I can't help anymore he won't help himself, and can't even

go see him anymore, and if I get caught up thinking of him to much and how he is

heading for homelessness. I have to do everything I can at this time to try and

ward of this illness, and these things only feed it, sometimes we have to be

selfish I guess people would look at it as, to try and feel better, we are

important to. Take Care of yourself and glad to see your post.

Shaorn

Judy Thurow wrote: Hello My Friends,

I try so hard to keep up reading posts, and I just can't. I feel awful when I

get so far behind that I have to delete. And posting, that's another story. If I

respond to one, I make myself feel like I should respond to all. Therefore, I

don't post very often. I don't want anyone to feel left out. You all deserve a

reply. I guess I have issues. lol

This pass week, we had a whirlpool put in. I was so excited to finally use it. I

filled it, put some nice dead sea salts in with a lavendar scent. Got undressed

and slid into the nice warm water. Turned it on and NOTHING!! Got out, most of

you know how hard that is, got dried and put on my robe. I went down to the

circuit breaker box and tried to reset. Went back up, crawled back into the tub,

turned it on and NOTHING!!! Our condo is a side by side and our neighbors now

have a for sale sign out in front. I wonder if it had anything to do with my

whirlpool not working and my screaming??? lol

Other than that, my life is always the same and always a struggle. It gets

harder everyday caring for my 85/alzheimers mother. More in a emotional way.

Sometime I look at her and her face is so empty. My insides just sob. She was my

best friend. Her old self does pop out now and then. I hope none of you have to

lose a parent in this manner.

My dh is still being is normal 95% a@@. My son is still drinking and drugging.

My Mother-in-law is a complete sweetheart!!! And even tho' she also needs my

help now and then it's a pleasure to be with her. How in the world did she have

such an a@@ as a son. Hmmm! Must be the window God opened when the door was

slammed shut on having a wonderful marriage.

Marti, I hope you read this. You have been in my thoughts so much, hon.

I hope you're not feeling too bad with the chemo. I read some of the posts when

the Storm was passing through the posts. Hon, I can't believe anyone could say

things like that to you. You're so sweet and caring, and I'm glad that the mod.

have put an end to it. Please take care Marti.

To everyone else, I'm sorry I have not posted, I have a hard time sitting so

long. Another thing I have noticed is I have been transposing letters so much

when I type. Is that something any of you have noticed with this disease.

Espescially when the fatique hits hard. My mind and my fingers don't seem to

work hand and hand the way they use to.

My hugs to all of you feeling badly.

Judy/Wi

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