Re: A thank you, and some thoughts (ttc and Hsg mentioned)

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A thank you, and some thoughts (ttc and Hsg

mentioned)

Thank you to everyone to who sent me their thoughts and words of

support when I wrote the first time. I have thought about each of

you who wrote me. I so much appreciated it. All your replies came

during some very dark days for me. While there are times when I feel

like I'm losing my mind... I am able to recogize that it's normal

grieving.(Most of the time, anyway) But at the same time, I would

just rather be done with it. I just don't want o hurt anymore. Being

a rather pragmatic person, it is challenging for me to feel so

exposed emotionally around other people and I'm just not sure what to

do with that sometimes. I never want to forget what happened, but I

just wish it hurt a little less so I'm not preoccupied.... I would

like to move on, but it's so hard as you all know. Time is a great

perspective-bringer.

I've been feeling ok the past couple weeks. I had been struggling

with anaemia after losing so much blood with the rupture and just got

a glowing report that my hemoglobin is not only normal --it's now

higher than it was before I became preganant... that made me feel

really good for some reason, I felt like I had gained a piece of

me back.

I've been reading many posts , sites and medical literature related

to Hsg testing. Some woman I know have said " make SURE you have it

done " Given the invasive nature of the test (it isn't like geting aa

haircit as those who had it done know) I've decided (I think) at this

time to not have the test. I'm not sure what more information it

could really provide me. I had no risk factors prior to the ep, no

endometriosis, no PID, adhesions, and all looked Normal via

laporoscopy. I still have some time to ttc naturally, and have had

no evidence of conception problems *yet* After discussing with my Dr,

my husband (also a doctor), I think that maybe the risks for HSg

outweigh the benefits for someone like me?? The test might tell me if

my tube is clear (but I suspect it is for what ever reason), but it

won't prevent another ep in my remaining tube (I lost the other

because of the rupture), nor will it indicate if there are problems

withe cilia inside the tube, etc.... Do you think I am wrong? Am I

missing something? What might be another reason to consider having an

Hsg.

i think I am becoming more ready to ttc, although I am still

trepidatious. But I know what we must do if we become pg again in

terms of early management. I imagine that will be stressful time.

I miss that closeness with my husband, ww had when we were having sex

more regularly, let alone ttc. I still worry about what cards life

will deal me in the future, but I suppose facing every challenge

starts with taking one more step.

Proud of myself today....I was travelling through my province of Nova

Scotia today on a shopping trip with some girlfriends, and was

rewarded with a view of the largest, brightest, triple full rainbow.

I'd (we'd) never seen anything like it. I think rainbows represent

hope...don't they? It reminded me that I must have more to look

forward to, & that I do have much to rejoice about. For a brief

moment today, I was able to think of the loss of my baby without

overhelming sadness, but with a sense of reflection and peace. I

felt a wee bit stronger, just for a moment...

Anyway, thanks to each of you. Stay strong, renew your spirit, and I

wish each of you could have been ther to see that rainbow today.

Truly incredible.

Hugs

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Just to add some info, I too, had no previous risk factors, no PID, no

endometriosis, nothing, as a matter of fact I had 2 succesful pgs prior to the

ep There is/was no reson " why " it happened, and after the ep I tryed to get pg

and succeeded in having another pg loss with not one risk factor.....the hsg

gave me peice of mind knowing my one remaining tube is ok and not blocked, and

made me feel so much more relaxed about ttc again. As for the risk faactors of

a hsg, I have a heart condition, and worriing about things makes that act up as

well, yes it is an invasive procedure but the knowledge it gives you thaat yes

the tube is ok has a very calming effect and it is no more invasive than getting

your teeth cleaned (ok wrong end) All I am saying is if it will help you have

peice of mind to do it it was definatley worth it to me! Well I have babbled

enough!

I am very glad to hear your hemoglobin is up! that is great news!!

A triple rainbow.........wow I have seen doubles but never a triple, that must

have been like a really spiritual moment.......or something?????????

Well take care and I hope whatever you decide about the hsg and all that it goes

to your benefit!!!

T

A thank you, and some thoughts (ttc and Hsg

mentioned)

Thank you to everyone to who sent me their thoughts and words of

support when I wrote the first time. I have thought about each of

you who wrote me. I so much appreciated it. All your replies came

during some very dark days for me. While there are times when I feel

like I'm losing my mind... I am able to recogize that it's normal

grieving.(Most of the time, anyway) But at the same time, I would

just rather be done with it. I just don't want o hurt anymore. Being

a rather pragmatic person, it is challenging for me to feel so

exposed emotionally around other people and I'm just not sure what to

do with that sometimes. I never want to forget what happened, but I

just wish it hurt a little less so I'm not preoccupied.... I would

like to move on, but it's so hard as you all know. Time is a great

perspective-bringer.

I've been feeling ok the past couple weeks. I had been struggling

with anaemia after losing so much blood with the rupture and just got

a glowing report that my hemoglobin is not only normal --it's now

higher than it was before I became preganant... that made me feel

really good for some reason, I felt like I had gained a piece of

me back.

I've been reading many posts , sites and medical literature related

to Hsg testing. Some woman I know have said " make SURE you have it

done " Given the invasive nature of the test (it isn't like geting aa

haircit as those who had it done know) I've decided (I think) at this

time to not have the test. I'm not sure what more information it

could really provide me. I had no risk factors prior to the ep, no

endometriosis, no PID, adhesions, and all looked Normal via

laporoscopy. I still have some time to ttc naturally, and have had

no evidence of conception problems *yet* After discussing with my Dr,

my husband (also a doctor), I think that maybe the risks for HSg

outweigh the benefits for someone like me?? The test might tell me if

my tube is clear (but I suspect it is for what ever reason), but it

won't prevent another ep in my remaining tube (I lost the other

because of the rupture), nor will it indicate if there are problems

withe cilia inside the tube, etc.... Do you think I am wrong? Am I

missing something? What might be another reason to consider having an

Hsg.

i think I am becoming more ready to ttc, although I am still

trepidatious. But I know what we must do if we become pg again in

terms of early management. I imagine that will be stressful time.

I miss that closeness with my husband, ww had when we were having sex

more regularly, let alone ttc. I still worry about what cards life

will deal me in the future, but I suppose facing every challenge

starts with taking one more step.

Proud of myself today....I was travelling through my province of Nova

Scotia today on a shopping trip with some girlfriends, and was

rewarded with a view of the largest, brightest, triple full rainbow.

I'd (we'd) never seen anything like it. I think rainbows represent

hope...don't they? It reminded me that I must have more to look

forward to, & that I do have much to rejoice about. For a brief

moment today, I was able to think of the loss of my baby without

overhelming sadness, but with a sense of reflection and peace. I

felt a wee bit stronger, just for a moment...

Anyway, thanks to each of you. Stay strong, renew your spirit, and I

wish each of you could have been ther to see that rainbow today.

Truly incredible.

Hugs

[Guest guest]

Hi ,,

I was wondering what were some of the risks you mentioned about the HSG? I

wasn't aware of any, besides the chance of infection...

take care,

Cheryl

A thank you, and some thoughts (ttc and Hsg

mentioned)

> Thank you to everyone to who sent me their thoughts and words of

> support when I wrote the first time. I have thought about each of

> you who wrote me. I so much appreciated it. All your replies came

> during some very dark days for me. While there are times when I feel

> like I'm losing my mind... I am able to recogize that it's normal

> grieving.(Most of the time, anyway) But at the same time, I would

> just rather be done with it. I just don't want o hurt anymore. Being

> a rather pragmatic person, it is challenging for me to feel so

> exposed emotionally around other people and I'm just not sure what to

> do with that sometimes. I never want to forget what happened, but I

> just wish it hurt a little less so I'm not preoccupied.... I would

> like to move on, but it's so hard as you all know. Time is a great

> perspective-bringer.

>

> I've been feeling ok the past couple weeks. I had been struggling

> with anaemia after losing so much blood with the rupture and just got

> a glowing report that my hemoglobin is not only normal --it's now

> higher than it was before I became preganant... that made me feel

> really good for some reason, I felt like I had gained a piece of

> me back.

>

> I've been reading many posts , sites and medical literature related

> to Hsg testing. Some woman I know have said " make SURE you have it

> done " Given the invasive nature of the test (it isn't like geting aa

> haircit as those who had it done know) I've decided (I think) at this

> time to not have the test. I'm not sure what more information it

> could really provide me. I had no risk factors prior to the ep, no

> endometriosis, no PID, adhesions, and all looked Normal via

> laporoscopy. I still have some time to ttc naturally, and have had

> no evidence of conception problems *yet* After discussing with my Dr,

> my husband (also a doctor), I think that maybe the risks for HSg

> outweigh the benefits for someone like me?? The test might tell me if

> my tube is clear (but I suspect it is for what ever reason), but it

> won't prevent another ep in my remaining tube (I lost the other

> because of the rupture), nor will it indicate if there are problems

> withe cilia inside the tube, etc.... Do you think I am wrong? Am I

> missing something? What might be another reason to consider having an

> Hsg.

>

> i think I am becoming more ready to ttc, although I am still

> trepidatious. But I know what we must do if we become pg again in

> terms of early management. I imagine that will be stressful time.

>

> I miss that closeness with my husband, ww had when we were having sex

> more regularly, let alone ttc. I still worry about what cards life

> will deal me in the future, but I suppose facing every challenge

> starts with taking one more step.

>

> Proud of myself today....I was travelling through my province of Nova

> Scotia today on a shopping trip with some girlfriends, and was

> rewarded with a view of the largest, brightest, triple full rainbow.

> I'd (we'd) never seen anything like it. I think rainbows represent

> hope...don't they? It reminded me that I must have more to look

> forward to, & that I do have much to rejoice about. For a brief

> moment today, I was able to think of the loss of my baby without

> overhelming sadness, but with a sense of reflection and peace. I

> felt a wee bit stronger, just for a moment...

>

> Anyway, thanks to each of you. Stay strong, renew your spirit, and I

> wish each of you could have been ther to see that rainbow today.

> Truly incredible.

>

> Hugs

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