new here, just testing the water

March 3, 2008

Hi I'm from Ca. sierra mountains. I've had the Fibro disease for 21

years. I've dealt with it on my own for the last 19 years. After 3

years of it, every-one I loved started to disappear, except my

children. It was too hard for them. I have trouble making new friends

because I can't commit to anything. I don't know from day to day how

I will feel. I tried joining a couple of dating services for the

disabled but everyone I liked was on the other side of the country.

Then I found you, and thought it would be nice if for the first time

in 21 years I was surrounded by people that are living with the same

monster as me. So here I am, hi. The one thing I can give you is

something a doctor gave me 11 years ago. I hated him for it and even

stopped seeing doctors for a while because his advice made me so

angry. He said that I needed to separate my pain from my emotions.

What a crock, right, wrong. Over 3 years of trying, it just happened.

My body and all it's pain and fatigue became nothing more than a

package I was limited by, but my emotions became freed. I can, for

the past 8 years, be happy to hold a new born chick or watch the sun

go down, no matter how messed up my body is that day. My spirit is

finally free from the emotional roller coast that my body use to

dictate to my spirit. I know that you are most likely thinking what a

crock, and that's okay, but I am hoping that at least one of you will

find your happiness again, at least 80% of the time. As for me I am

mostly struggling with the loneliness that comes with our society and

their view of a person with an imperfect body, forgetting that there

is a person inside. I wish to have some-one special in my life but

can not seem to find him, because he can not get past my limitations.

To be honest if I do find some-one special, I will most likely devote

all of my energy to him and my family, but for now I would like to

just have some non-prejudice friends around to chat with and maybe

build a couple of lifelong friendships.

March 3, 2008

Hi there,

I'm on the other side of the Sierras. Welcome to a very friendly and busy

group. I think you'll find plenty of understanding.

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing,

camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers

member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

" It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

" While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow

part of us to die - whether it is our spirit,our creativity, or our glorious

uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

http://www.mybloglog.com/buzz/members/AGBlog/

http://360.yahoo.com/lovinglifeinnv

http://www.myspace.com/amkg

http://doripost.agrato.info/

http://wine-and-chocolate.blogspot.com/

http://weblog.xanga.com/purplepassionate

http://www.revolutionhealth.com/blogs/angiemg

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=592316375

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/LupusSurvivorsU/

new here, just testing the water

Hi I'm from Ca. sierra mountains. I've had the Fibro disease

for 21