I survived the night/trigger maybe

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Morning,

Thanks everyone for your prayers and support. It means so much to me. I

survived the night. Not much sleep as the pain kept waking me up and of course

last night's stress did not help.

It is not up to me to try and change this man or for me to change to please

him. He needs to do this for himself. I refuse to be his punching bag any longer

verbally, mentally or otherwise. Now, what to do about it? that is my next step.

I am going to remove myself from the situation everytime it arises. I cannot

handle it and my disease cannot handle it either. So where does that leave me?

Not sure yet.

I wish someone would tell this man a thing or two about what a real husband

is. How I deserve to be treated. His Mom dod not raise him this way and if

alive, would not support it. So where does it come from? I am not taking the

blame or trying to smooth thing over to suit him. He is an abuser. Plain and

simple.

After all he put me through last night, he finally coughed up the money for

pet food. I knew he had some.

My pain level is quite high still. I do not know what is gonna solve it at

this point. I do know I cannot stand much more.

Hope everyone is doing well. I could not do this without all of you. awesome

friends is what I have. A true blessing.

Hugs,