RE: My tigger about sleep

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Tigger I am sorry your sick to? like with that flu bug or respitory? guess

I haven't caught that, I have been in a non comprehension phase, read, see,

hear, but didn't get the main point. I hope you don't get worse like others. I

understand the brother thing, as I had 5 no sister's, the only one who fully

understood me and we were very close, 1 yr apart, and same friends same places

alot etc he died in 01. Even though the others except one are younger have

always felt they NEEDED to protect me, think sometimes I don't know how to make

mature decisions and I guess I am female so they feel they should tell me when,

how, why. I have written them off several times, and don't feel bad when it has

happened, some of there so called protective, supportive, helpfull, statements,

moves have been quite hurtfull, I am with you,on you have to do what you have to

do, to protect yourself now, I have always been pretty self sufficent,

independent, and okay doing for myself, that

is why sometimes my hubby gets mad, hurt, and feels not needed, as I don't let

him do for me all he wants to I when able and even when really not able don't

ask for his help. But for the sleep thing your having I am so glad you said

that! Not that I am glad you can't sleep, But that is it on the nose how I get,

it comes in cycles for me to I will go for a week or two like that and know I

want to sleep, but can't , then it gets to another day and another day and I

know I am trouble because I am now still NO sleep, and start getting nervous by

then as we Half to sleep it will eventually do you in! I get desperate to

sleep, but I really am not feeling sleepy, and may start to doze and because it

has been so long I wake in a jolt as I either am having a falling feeling , loud

snore or just wake, and then I am awake for another 24. Frustrating and scary..

here we go with the med thing again to, as I know and most Doc's will agree you

need to sleep eventually, so got every

kind of sleeping pill, and last one ambien 10mgs who others say zonk them out

don't touch me???? frustrating, I hope you get better and sleep.

Sharon

Tigger wrote: I have a brother that I

have not talked to since my mother died in 1988.

Blood is NOT necessarily thicker than water. In the end, we have to do what

is best for us. I was a " late " child. My brothers were 12 and 10. My

brother who is 12 years older than me is the one I am close to (even though

he pisses me off). He has protected me most of my life. From family and

strangers. That is why it hurts so much when he gives me one of his

" lectures " .

Right now all I want is some sleep. I was awake most of the night watching

" Without a Trace " and then whatever came on after that. All together I got

about an hours sleep and I really need it right now. I'm so tired I can't

even see straight, but I'm still not tired enough to sleep. It's a weird

feeling.

Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island

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From: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

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studley

Sent: Tuesday, March 18, 2008 12:32 PM

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

Subject: RE: My tigger

HEY THERE, WOW U HAVE BEEN THROUGH IT! I HOPE U DON'T EVER GO BACK THERE?

YEA LETTING GO IS A GOOD THING, I MYSELF HAVE TO WORK ON THAT ONE, VERY HARD

FOR ME, AS MY MOM KEEPS TELLING ME TO TRY IT AND I WILL BE IN A BETTER

PLACE. I HAVE 4 BRO'S, LOST ONE, AND AM WATCHING ANOTHER DESTROY HIMSELF, I

HAVE ALSO HAD BIG ARGUMENT'S WITH 3 OF THEM ALL YOUNGER, BUT WE ARE ALL VERY

HEAD STRONG, AND ME BEING SO INDEPENENT, MAKES IT WORSE, I HAVE LOVED THEM,

HATED WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO ME, AND NOT TALKED TO SOME IN MORE THEN 2YRS.,

I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT IS CRAZY, HE IS YOUR BROTHER ETC. BUT I LOOK AT IT

THIS WAY YES WE ARE BLOOD, BUT I WILL NOT BE MISTREATED, TOLD WHAT IS THE

RIGHT WAY AND WHAT ISN'T, AND ON AND ON. I REALLY DO HAVE LOVING, CARING,

MOST OF THE TIME UNDERSTANDING FAMILY, BUT THEY HAVE PUSHED MY BUTTONS, AND

THAT LEADS ME TO JUST WALK AWAY, AND IN MY MIND FEEL, IF SOMEONE BROTHER OR

NOT CAN SAY OR DO SOMETHING THAT HARMFULL TO ME AS GET ME REAL UPSET, THEN I

DON'T

NEED TO BE AROUND THEM, TALK TO THEM OR VISIT, I RIGHT NOW AM IN TOUCH WITH

ALL OF THEM, EXCEPT THE ONE DESTROYING HIS LIFE WITH A BOTTLE, HE OTHERWISE

WAS A BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING, BUT I HAVE TALKED MY TALK TO HIM TAKEN HIM AND

2 CHILDEREN IN FOR 2 YRS AND JUST WATCHED HIM GET DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO IT

AND DEPRESSION. I JUST HAVE TO STAY AWAY AS IT EATS AT ME. WE ARE NOT MEANT

TO BE MISTREATED WHETHER FAMILY OR NOT, JUST BECAUSE RELATED DON'T MEAN WE

SHOULD NOT SHUT THEM OUT IF THEY CAN'T STOP HURTING US. HOPE U A LIGHTER DAY

AND GET WELL. WE ARE EXPECTING SNOW HERE AGAIN TONIGHT IN ME! HUBBY NEVER

GOING TO GET TO NEW BEDFORD TO START HIS SEASON. SHARON

Tigger <tigger.pinkraincoat <mailto:tigger.pinkraincoat%40gmail.com>

@gmail.com> wrote: Angie knows a lot of what I've been through for the past

year and a half. I

had to learn to walk all over again because I got so malnourished my body

was eating it's own muscle. I was passing out left and right and hit my

head so many times it will be a miracle that I don't have permanent brain

damage.

I'll work through it. and unfortunately for me the usually means learning to

let go. I will and tomorrow will be another day.

Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island

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Support_Group

[mailto:Fibromyalgia_ <mailto:Fibromyalgia_Support_Group%40yahoogroups.com>

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studley

Sent: Tuesday, March 18, 2008 10:03 AM

To: Fibromyalgia_ <mailto:Fibromyalgia_Support_Group%40yahoogroups.com>

Support_Group

Subject: Re: My tigger Angie's idea

Hi Tigger this is my thought can you crush and take. Hope this can work.

thinking of u. sharon

Angie <lovinglifeinnv@ <mailto:lovinglifeinnv%40yahoo.com> yahoo.com> wrote:

Tigger/Ruth,

Sweetie I wish I could do something to help. You are a very strong woman and

you've survived a lot. Don't let your brother bring you down. He's selfish

and basically a grown up brat. He's abusive. I know it might seem like a

stretch but he is. I got a real awakening at one of the shrinks last week;

my 'friend' is abusive. The doc asked me a bunch of questions about him and

I said yes to way too many of them.

I'm not trying to shrink you; but I know you've had abusive relationships

before and learned how to deal with them. So you probably need to shake

yourself up and treat him like you did the others. Just let go of the

emotional control he has over you.

Aside from that I know you have a lot of issues with meds. Can't you simply

crush most of them? I wish you could find something that would help. My

Lyrica and tramadol together have helped me so much. I can't get out of bed

without them.

By the way, I'm proud of myself. This afternoon I sent a letter to all my

legislature people; the assembly, senate, representative, and senators.

Funny thing is I actually met half of them when I worked at the state, but I

don't think they will remember me. If they do its not bad. One of the

senators has a staff of caseworkers and he does a lot of social security

stuff. Cross your fingers for me!!

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow

skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra

Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken,

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My tigger

Hugs my friend. I so understand. I cannot talk about it to my family either

[Mr Wonderful and Mel} without eye rolling, shrugging me off or making a

rude comment. I don't look sick, thus I must not be. I was called a pain

pill seeker tonight. Is he for real? I am here if you need to talk. Email me

anytime.

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