What If Creature Is Awake - Warning - Depresing Content

[Guest guest]

My wife has gone out of town 70 miles away from the city, the baby has

had a flemmy cough for the past two days, and I don't have any

surviving family members or friends here locally now that the " What

If " creature is awake inside of my head.

I've taken a Xannex in an attempt to calm down the thoughts, but of

course I might as well try and stop a speeding freight train loaded to

the teeth.

Generally my " What If " cycles occur when I know like today I really am

going to be alone the entire day with no way to get any help if I need

it. I took the precaution of placing our two portable phones in easy

to reach areas in case I should fall and need to make an emergency call.

Some of my more popular " What If's " are:

1. What if my wife goes out of town and is killed in an auto accident,

did I just see her for the last time today and how am I supposed to

raise our daughter alone. We don't have any family to help out, I

can't work because of my disability.

2. What if we don't get the property tax in this month, are we going

to loose the house, where we live?

3. What if I don't find a doctor that doesn't have his head up his

*bleep*, and get some relief from this disorder.

4. What if my daughter gets really sick during the day, how am I

supposed to take her to a doctor, my wife is out of town, we haven't

met her insurance deductible this year, and were recently turned away

from 3 different doctors the last time she was ill.

This stuff adds up after awhile and even the strongest mentality will

crack under the burden.

Fibromyalgia bites big time.

[Guest guest]

, take a deep breath...all will be well. wow, 7 month old...fun age. Too

bad you don'tlive closer, I could be on your panic list...I love those babies!!

Guess that's why I'm a nanny....

Hang in there,

/Mi

What If Creature Is Awake - Warning - Depresing Content

My wife has gone out of town 70 miles away from the city, the baby has

had a flemmy cough for the past two days, and I don't have any

surviving family members or friends here locally now that the " What

If " creature is awake inside of my head.

I've taken a Xannex in an attempt to calm down the thoughts, but of

course I might as well try and stop a speeding freight train loaded to

the teeth.

Generally my " What If " cycles occur when I know like today I really am

going to be alone the entire day with no way to get any help if I need

it. I took the precaution of placing our two portable phones in easy

to reach areas in case I should fall and need to make an emergency call.

Some of my more popular " What If's " are:

1. What if my wife goes out of town and is killed in an auto accident,

did I just see her for the last time today and how am I supposed to

raise our daughter alone. We don't have any family to help out, I

can't work because of my disability.

2. What if we don't get the property tax in this month, are we going

to loose the house, where we live?

3. What if I don't find a doctor that doesn't have his head up his

*bleep*, and get some relief from this disorder.

4. What if my daughter gets really sick during the day, how am I

supposed to take her to a doctor, my wife is out of town, we haven't

met her insurance deductible this year, and were recently turned away

from 3 different doctors the last time she was ill.

This stuff adds up after awhile and even the strongest mentality will

crack under the burden.

Fibromyalgia bites big time.

[Guest guest]

Well I can say that I have been right where you are now, that Creature you spoke

of nearly scared me out of a few nights sleep reciently and as time went on I

realized that the Creature was just trying to frighten me for nothing. I do

understand that insurance issues can be more than stressful and that in itself

is the best fuel to flame up the Creature! I cannot tell you that Faith is the

best way to douse those flames, because it hardly works for me much of the time,

but I do know that over time I have been able to harness that Creature a bit and

tame it down. I have to remember every time I have stessed over some horrible

thing that could happen, and then remember how relieved I was to come to the

joyous realization that the horrible thing did not happen! It gives me power

over the creature, and I add that power to the little bits here and there that I

have gathered over the years. That power you get from even a tiny victory does

not go away, it stays strong in some sort of mental battery, and with every new

victory I get a tiny bit more voltage for my own battery! I just have to dig it

out of mothballs from time to time to let the juice flow back into me and

destroy that nasty " What If " Creature!

As to the Faith thing, it does work, ya know! and as to the other things, I

work a few miles from home and winters can be pretty bad. Anything can happen

at any time, so the best thing is to love each moment you have together, just as

if it might be the last, and to feel that way at least until you have been

married for 50 something years and you are nearing your 80th birthday! Also

love your children the same way and you will have no trouble raising them!

Property taxes? Yuck, I have been on the forclosure list a few times! Trust me

there is a very long and drawn out process before they can kick you out! I

think it takes over a year! You will get caught up by then! And if you don't

get a couple of leins on your property and no one will want to buy it out from

under you for the taxes! uhhhh, I am not a lawyer, just been there, so check it

out before you go on my say so!

As to the Bleeping doctors, I was under the impression that they all had their

heads up.......uh, excuse me, I was ranting again, I do think that there might

be a couple out there that are pretty good, just as long as they are not

connected with the VA or an HMO! Of course the good ones are hard to get to

see, but they are out there, I am told! I think that the best therapy you have

for stuff such as that is right here in the support group!

An by the way, the doc offices that turn you away for insurance reasons will get

theirs in the long run! OOOO there I go again, rude again, but I am fighting

the same thing right now, hubby cannot get his good C-PAP machine with oxygen

because the insurance is giving me grief! I don't know where you live, but here

in Alaska the hospital has to see you no matter what, and they have to treat

you, no matter what, even if you can never ever pay for it! You make payments

for a few months and if you are unable to continue and your insurance will not

pay, they have to write it off! And our little hospital up here is one of the

best!

I know that the little things add up fast, but with a little help you might be

able to knock some of the little things down to size, just take it one issue at

a time and " table " the rest for later!

Hope that helps!

Connie

[Guest guest]

>

> , take a deep breath...all will be well. wow, 7 month old...fun

age. Too bad you don'tlive closer, I could be on your panic list...I

love those babies!! Guess that's why I'm a nanny....

> Hang in there,

> /Mi

My daughter is 3 years old, we did end up having to take her to the

emergency room late last night with a viral infection. Finally got

home at 4am.

The creature from " What If " lake has submerged for now.

[Guest guest]

,

The " what if " monster lives inside each and every one of us. What I

had to do to shut her up was realize that I was " building a worry

town complete with people and lives and stuff " and that most of those

things that I worried about never ever came to pass, yet I wasted a

lot of time worrying about them!

So, here's my suggestion for what you are worried about today:

1. God forbid, should something happen to your wife, your daughter

would get SS survivor benefits until she was 21 unless she's in

college and your wife likely has a life insurance policy thru her

employer.

2. If you don't pay your property tax when it's due, you'll pay late

fees. I think every state is different, but I know that my friend (we

live in Georgia) has to pay the property taxes on her mom's house

(she is the executrix of the estate) and she cannot pay them in

November when they are due, so she files as soon as possible so she

can pay them with her income tax and she always pays a late fee.

3. Utilize your phone book and call physicians' offices to find one

that deals with fibro. Check to see if there are any pain management

clinics in your area and call them to see who they would recommend as

far as rheumys go....

4. Should your daughter get really sick, call a cab and take her to

the emergency room. By law, unless they are privately owned and

operated, they cannot refuse to treat her. Give them your insurance

card; you'll get a bill (eventually) if your insurance company puts

it toward the deductible. While at the ER, ask them about possible

pediatricians in the area (or use the phone book and call around

again; you'll find one that is interested in the child and/or will

work with you at the beginning of the year when deductibles have to

be met) and even ask about rheumys!

I agree that this disease bites big time, but sometimes, we have

to " bite back " . You'll be fine while your wife is out of town. You

didn't mention how old your daughter is or if she has allergies. If

her nose gunk is clear, it's likely allergies and benedryl for

children will help that (they have precise measurement ones for the

little bits now); if its not clear, well, she likely has a cold going

on and you should look for the stuff that will help that for her age.

Darlene

>

> My wife has gone out of town 70 miles away from the city, the baby

has

> had a flemmy cough for the past two days, and I don't have any

> surviving family members or friends here locally now that the " What

> If " creature is awake inside of my head.

> I've taken a Xannex in an attempt to calm down the thoughts, but of

> course I might as well try and stop a speeding freight train loaded

to

> the teeth.

> Generally my " What If " cycles occur when I know like today I really

am

> going to be alone the entire day with no way to get any help if I

need

> it. I took the precaution of placing our two portable phones in easy

> to reach areas in case I should fall and need to make an emergency

call.

> Some of my more popular " What If's " are:

>

> 1. What if my wife goes out of town and is killed in an auto

accident,

> did I just see her for the last time today and how am I supposed to

> raise our daughter alone. We don't have any family to help out, I

> can't work because of my disability.

>

> 2. What if we don't get the property tax in this month, are we going

> to loose the house, where we live?

>

> 3. What if I don't find a doctor that doesn't have his head up his

> *bleep*, and get some relief from this disorder.

>

> 4. What if my daughter gets really sick during the day, how am I

> supposed to take her to a doctor, my wife is out of town, we haven't

> met her insurance deductible this year, and were recently turned

away

> from 3 different doctors the last time she was ill.

>

> This stuff adds up after awhile and even the strongest mentality

will

> crack under the burden.

>

> Fibromyalgia bites big time.

>

[Guest guest]

---Oh , What i call what your doing is taking a trip to scenario

city. I have done that all my life. I have a good friend that i talk

with when I'm feeling that way & vis versa. She reminds me that I'm

going down the road to scenario city again then we talk about reality

and what is real not what is a " what if " . Not to say those things

can't happen but the likely hood of them happening is not so good.

I'd say to call a friend and just talk it out. I'm sure you can find

some member of your family or a friend that understands your

condition???? At least Ihope there is.....Hinky

In Fibromyalgia_Support_Group , " Loest "

wrote:

>

> My wife has gone out of town 70 miles away from the city, the baby

has

> had a flemmy cough for the past two days, and I don't have any

> surviving family members or friends here locally now that the " What

> If " creature is awake inside of my head.

> I've taken a Xannex in an attempt to calm down the thoughts, but of

> course I might as well try and stop a speeding freight train loaded

to

> the teeth.

> Generally my " What If " cycles occur when I know like today I really

am

> going to be alone the entire day with no way to get any help if I

need

> it. I took the precaution of placing our two portable phones in easy

> to reach areas in case I should fall and need to make an emergency

call.

> Some of my more popular " What If's " are:

>

> 1. What if my wife goes out of town and is killed in an auto

accident,

> did I just see her for the last time today and how am I supposed to

> raise our daughter alone. We don't have any family to help out, I

> can't work because of my disability.

>

> 2. What if we don't get the property tax in this month, are we going

> to loose the house, where we live?

>

> 3. What if I don't find a doctor that doesn't have his head up his

> *bleep*, and get some relief from this disorder.

>

> 4. What if my daughter gets really sick during the day, how am I

> supposed to take her to a doctor, my wife is out of town, we haven't

> met her insurance deductible this year, and were recently turned

away

> from 3 different doctors the last time she was ill.

>

> This stuff adds up after awhile and even the strongest mentality

will

> crack under the burden.

>

> Fibromyalgia bites big time.

>

[Guest guest]

, I find myself asking the " what If's " everyday. Some days worse than

others. I am so sorry that you have this damn disease.

My what if's are similar to yours sometimes. What if one of my children get

fatally ill? What if I can't work anymore in the near future? What if I have

some horrible disease other than fibro and it takes my life? What if I were

left to raise my kids with no one except the fibro beast? What if I could not

do it?

I hope things look brighter soon. I sure do understand what you must be going

through. And having a baby to care for on top of having fibro to hound the life

out of you..... it must be so difficult. I don't know what I would do if my

kids were infants right now.

hugs,

Debra V.

Loest wrote: My wife

has gone out of town 70 miles away from the city, the baby has

had a flemmy cough for the past two days, and I don't have any

surviving family members or friends here locally now that the " What

If " creature is awake inside of my head.

I've taken a Xannex in an attempt to calm down the thoughts, but of

course I might as well try and stop a speeding freight train loaded to

the teeth.

Generally my " What If " cycles occur when I know like today I really am

going to be alone the entire day with no way to get any help if I need

it. I took the precaution of placing our two portable phones in easy

to reach areas in case I should fall and need to make an emergency call.

Some of my more popular " What If's " are:

1. What if my wife goes out of town and is killed in an auto accident,

did I just see her for the last time today and how am I supposed to

raise our daughter alone. We don't have any family to help out, I

can't work because of my disability.

2. What if we don't get the property tax in this month, are we going

to loose the house, where we live?

3. What if I don't find a doctor that doesn't have his head up his

*bleep*, and get some relief from this disorder.

4. What if my daughter gets really sick during the day, how am I

supposed to take her to a doctor, my wife is out of town, we haven't

met her insurance deductible this year, and were recently turned away

from 3 different doctors the last time she was ill.

This stuff adds up after awhile and even the strongest mentality will

crack under the burden.

Fibromyalgia bites big time.

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[Guest guest]

Oh poor baby, I hope she feels better soon, daddy too!

/Mi

Re: What If Creature Is Awake - Warning - Depresing Content

>

> , take a deep breath...all will be well. wow, 7 month old...fun

age. Too bad you don'tlive closer, I could be on your panic list...I

love those babies!! Guess that's why I'm a nanny....

> Hang in there,

> /Mi

My daughter is 3 years old, we did end up having to take her to the

emergency room late last night with a viral infection. Finally got

home at 4am.

The creature from " What If " lake has submerged for now.