life, the universe.. :P Lol..

March 27, 2008

a smarty topic line but.. something along that..

Ive been going along, and you ever wake up and wonder how your life

got to this point?

Ive been in that place alot. The whole contemplating... life.. the

universe. the meaning of this and that. I have a generally good life,

as far as family, home.. my husband is a wonderful man and very

understanding of my health, good kids, everything i had wanted growing

up. the unforseen twist was.. Bad health. And i feel like ive woken up

one day and somehow ended up at this point, even though I remember the

journey here, its all thsi big.. fog. And i know in four years ill

probably 'wake up' then and remember another four years as a fog too..

I do this on occasion. Get a couple of good days and go " ahhh what

happened to my life.. " ...

Im having trouble accepting that which i cnnot change.. And

recognizing the difference, between what i can change, and what i

cant.. so I can change that which i can!!! Lol hows that for a sentence.

Im in the " I jus want it all to be better!!!! " mindframe today. i go

through phases like this. I think its probably normal. Sigh.

I had a series of really good, productive days. and my bodys taken it

out on me the last three days. You had your good days, im takin my

toll now, time to sleep.. Tit for tat i suppose?

I remember when it didnt used to be this way. Seems a long time ago.

Sigh.....

-Nina

March 28, 2008

I hear ya sister...

I have days like that all the time. I think it's absolutely normal! In

the short time (2 years) I've been dealing with this, I've come to

think of it as grieving. You have to grieve for the person you used to

be. Just like any grief, it takes time... & sometimes never fully goes

away. We have to just keep working on the " accepting things we cannot

change " part...which isn't easy. Sometimes I just wanna throw myself

on the floor & have a good old-fashioned tantrum & scream " why, why,

why???!!! " But I usually come to my senses before I make a fool of

myself. Glad to hear you had a good couple of days though! Be

thankful for those... & know there will be more!

~Kandi

> a smarty topic line but.. something along that..

> Ive been going along, and you ever wake up and wonder how your life

> got to this point?

> Ive been in that place alot. The whole contemplating... life.. the

> universe. the meaning of this and that. I have a generally good life,

> as far as family, home.. my husband is a wonderful man and very

> understanding of my health, good kids, everything i had wanted growing

> up. the unforseen twist was.. Bad health. And i feel like ive woken up

> one day and somehow ended up at this point, even though I remember the

> journey here, its all thsi big.. fog. And i know in four years ill

> probably 'wake up' then and remember another four years as a fog too..

> I do this on occasion. Get a couple of good days and go " ahhh what

> happened to my life.. " ...

>

> Im having trouble accepting that which i cnnot change.. And

> recognizing the difference, between what i can change, and what i

> cant.. so I can change that which i can!!! Lol hows that for a sentence.

> Im in the " I jus want it all to be better!!!! " mindframe today. i go

> through phases like this. I think its probably normal. Sigh.

> I had a series of really good, productive days. and my bodys taken it

> out on me the last three days. You had your good days, im takin my

> toll now, time to sleep.. Tit for tat i suppose?

>

> I remember when it didnt used to be this way. Seems a long time ago.

> Sigh.....

>

> -Nina

>

March 28, 2008

Nina, sigh....that's about it......

/Mi

life, the universe.. Lol..