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can't sleep. 5 years ago this very evening is when I had my first heart

attack that about done me in. spent the whole month of August in the hospital

that year. maybe it is simply on my mind, even though I don't feel it is? well

wanted to let you guys know my weight is hanging around 285 the first day of

August. can get down to 282 and then back to 288. now hanging in at 285. sugars

are running steadily between 100 and 115 for more then six weeks now. only using

five units twice a day of the novalog flex pen mix that I got left to use up. in

maybe 2 weeks or less I will start the ten units of lantus once a day. still

riding my no where bike between 90 and 120 minutes a day. one problem this time

of the year is all the fresh fruit and veggies that I can lay my hands on at the

farmer's market and folks with gardens. love to eat fresh veggies and fruit this

time of the year. hate the heat though! one good thing about being retired is no

more working in the heat. 33 years of sucking saw dust down my throat every day

and sweating like a horse I do not miss at all! not even a small bit. do feel

sorry for those fellows that still are there, but they can retire any time they

get tired of it I guess. they say you get use to working in the heat and cold if

you do it long enough. well that wasn't true for me. froze my butt off in the

winter and burned up in the summer. here in OkC we are enjoying between 100 and

110 degrees for the past 3 weeks or so. last year we only had sixty days over

100. don't look like we will beat it this year and that isn't hurting my

feelings any. Go see the doc this Friday for more thyroid test to see what it is

or isn't doing. suppose then is when they will put me on some kind of medicine

to make it act right. maybe losing the pounds will be a bit easier then. it

really isn't one bit fair though for us who are diabetic with all the fresh

fruit that is around this time of the season. fruit is suppose to be better for

you then a candy bar, but it will send our sugar in to next week if we eat to

much at one time. I use to eat a whole cantaloupe at one time and could tare a

water melon up by my self and it wasn't one of those little melons either. love

to go to the farmer's market this time of the year. hate the heat, but can't

have good gardens with out the summer. well suppose I should back on out of here

and go on to bed. always in bed by 8 pm most nights, but just couldn't make my

self get sleepy to night no matter how hard I tried. kind of funny how we humans

can really work our selves up over a little thing. I think we are our own worse

emmenes most of the time. I heard as we age we don't need as much sleep as we

did when younger. could very well be true. how do you make your self sleep for a

solid eight hours a night if you can't stay a sleep? not that I know of is there

a drug that will keep you sleeping through the night. know of a few that will

cause you to relax, but you will continue to wake up through the night. the

harder you try to get to sleep, the harder it is to sleep. maybe I should try

harder to stay awake and this will fool my mind and I will go right to sleep? 4

a.m will come sooner then you think, but with 4 hours sleep or eight hours sleep

I will jump out of bed running and never lay down during the day for a nap. I

don't know about you guys, but naps always make me feel ten times worse when I

wake up. I do much better if I fight the sleeping's and go to bed when I mostly

do at the same time every night. ok, enough pig ramble for now. just wanted you

all to know I hadn't kicked off and still remain with the living. still fighting

the good fight and still traveling many miles on the no where bike. stuck in the

280's right now and have been for a month, but soon I will over come the

mountain that is blocking me and move on in to the 270's. all do try to have a

blessed day to morrow and I will be smelling you up the trail!