Really missing my real mother & other craziness

[Guest guest]

I posted before that my step mom died on April 11. It was sudden,

unexpected, and has really taken a toll on myself & my family.

She was only 49. Had surgery on her Achilles tendon about 2 weeks

prior. Threw a clot and had a PE (pulmonary embolism).

She & my dad married when I was 17. I was a senior in high school &

played the flute at their wedding. It took me 17 years to get a real

mother, and only had her for 17 years in my life.

I feel so sad and regret too. I live 200 miles away from them, and dad

& step mom came here for my graduation on Jan 20th. I always referred

to her by her name, we'll call her Jane. I told my hubby for weeks

before my graduation, " I want to ask Jane if I can call her mom " .

Well, they came... and I chickened out. I didn't do it. I thought it

seemed to cheesy at the time, but now I'm wondering if it's deeper

than that... perhaps fear of rejections as I consistently experienced

with nada?

All I know is that I have a biological mother and I had a real mother.

And now she's gone.

My dad is left with my amazing half siblings who are 15 & 12.

Everyone seems to be doing ok ... maybe even better than I am with

dealing with this. Then again, they have each other & Jane's massive

family who became my family & accepted me. For years I felt like the

black sheep but I think that's obviously due to nada's toxicity.

And now Jane... mom... she's gone. And I'm 200 miles away. I've

always been close to my siblings & love them so very much, and now for

the first time in my life I'm feeling what I think are " maternal "

instincts. I want to be with them, take care of them, protect them.

Better yet, would love to move the whole family here. So much of me

wants to move back to that area to be closer to them, yet, I'm happy

here. Healing began here when I moved here nearly 3 years ago (3

years on Saturday, to be exact.) I have a fantastic job, a wonderful

hubby & I am happy. And of course, my step kids. Hubby says he will

move there if I want to, but I can't ask him to move that far from his

kids who need him so very much.

His likely bpd ex has drained him. He's so tired of her BS that he

said he's half tempted to just stop seeing his kids. I have

encouraged him NOT to do that. He's just so sick of her crap

The latest drama consists of 2 things. One, we bought my step

daughter a nintendo DS for xmas. psycho ex... well, she pawned it.

She finally got it back and SD brought it over this past weekend, well

hubby told her it stays here. Of course SD is upset but it wasn't her

mother's right to pawn it in the first place.

Then, I guess step son (SS) was playing & did something weird. He

said something about his butt hurt & he wanted to play doctor. Psycho

wouldn't go much deeper into it in writing & wanted to speak to hubby

in person. Well, it turns out SS took a toy sword, poked himself in

the bottom & then pretended he was licking blood off of it. Ok, this

disturbs me but then again, nothing is filtered at psycho's house.

The kids watch anything & everything. But instead of her going where

we thought she was going to go (accusations of sexual abuse), she

basically accused my hubby & I of cutting one another & drinking each

other's blood in front of the kids. Yes... she accused us of

vamprism!

We had a consult with a lawyer the next day. He doesn't think now is

the time to go for custody, that we need something bigger. His

example was a DUI because psycho often drinks & drives.

I am just at my wit's end right now, as is my husband. I can say I've

been called a lot of things in my life but that's the first time I've

ever been accused of being a damn vampire! Honestly, it made me

LAUGH!!! It's frustrating as hell, but what the f**k?! How could I

NOT laugh at that when he told me?!

I just wish Jane... MOM... was here. I was going to call her the

weekend after she died (before she passed) to ask for some advice with

SD and then... she died.

This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane back.

Anyway, sorry for the long & totally crazy post, but yeah, this is my

life. Mourning the loss of my real mom, add to that that my work just

moved into a much nicer & bigger facility (badly needed) and all the

stress that comes with that... then to be told I'm a damn vampire.

I don't know if I should laugh or cry anymore.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

Mia

[Guest guest]

Mia:

No, it doesn't sound horrid. Not to me, anyway. Hardly a day goes by that I

don't wish that about getting my MIL back. And it's been almost 4 years. 

I have to say, about the vampire stuff? I'd laugh. Of all the things to come up

with ... Wow!

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To: WTOAdultChildren1

Sent: Wednesday, May 2, 2012 1:48 AM

Subject: Really missing my real mother & other craziness

 

This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane back.

[Guest guest]

Mia:

No, it doesn't sound horrid. Not to me, anyway. Hardly a day goes by that I

don't wish that about getting my MIL back. And it's been almost 4 years. 

I have to say, about the vampire stuff? I'd laugh. Of all the things to come up

with ... Wow!

________________________________

To: WTOAdultChildren1

Sent: Wednesday, May 2, 2012 1:48 AM

Subject: Really missing my real mother & other craziness

 

This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane back.

[Guest guest]

Hi Mia, I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful woman.

And vampirism...just wow. The conclusions they draw! Just wow.

>

> I posted before that my step mom died on April 11. It was sudden,

> unexpected, and has really taken a toll on myself & my family.

>

> She was only 49. Had surgery on her Achilles tendon about 2 weeks

> prior. Threw a clot and had a PE (pulmonary embolism).

>

> She & my dad married when I was 17. I was a senior in high school &

> played the flute at their wedding. It took me 17 years to get a real

> mother, and only had her for 17 years in my life.

>

> I feel so sad and regret too. I live 200 miles away from them, and dad

> & step mom came here for my graduation on Jan 20th. I always referred

> to her by her name, we'll call her Jane. I told my hubby for weeks

> before my graduation, " I want to ask Jane if I can call her mom " .

> Well, they came... and I chickened out. I didn't do it. I thought it

> seemed to cheesy at the time, but now I'm wondering if it's deeper

> than that... perhaps fear of rejections as I consistently experienced

> with nada?

>

> All I know is that I have a biological mother and I had a real mother.

> And now she's gone.

>

> My dad is left with my amazing half siblings who are 15 & 12.

> Everyone seems to be doing ok ... maybe even better than I am with

> dealing with this. Then again, they have each other & Jane's massive

> family who became my family & accepted me. For years I felt like the

> black sheep but I think that's obviously due to nada's toxicity.

>

> And now Jane... mom... she's gone. And I'm 200 miles away. I've

> always been close to my siblings & love them so very much, and now for

> the first time in my life I'm feeling what I think are " maternal "

> instincts. I want to be with them, take care of them, protect them.

>

> Better yet, would love to move the whole family here. So much of me

> wants to move back to that area to be closer to them, yet, I'm happy

> here. Healing began here when I moved here nearly 3 years ago (3

> years on Saturday, to be exact.) I have a fantastic job, a wonderful

> hubby & I am happy. And of course, my step kids. Hubby says he will

> move there if I want to, but I can't ask him to move that far from his

> kids who need him so very much.

>

> His likely bpd ex has drained him. He's so tired of her BS that he

> said he's half tempted to just stop seeing his kids. I have

> encouraged him NOT to do that. He's just so sick of her crap

>

> The latest drama consists of 2 things. One, we bought my step

> daughter a nintendo DS for xmas. psycho ex... well, she pawned it.

> She finally got it back and SD brought it over this past weekend, well

> hubby told her it stays here. Of course SD is upset but it wasn't her

> mother's right to pawn it in the first place.

>

> Then, I guess step son (SS) was playing & did something weird. He

> said something about his butt hurt & he wanted to play doctor. Psycho

> wouldn't go much deeper into it in writing & wanted to speak to hubby

> in person. Well, it turns out SS took a toy sword, poked himself in

> the bottom & then pretended he was licking blood off of it. Ok, this

> disturbs me but then again, nothing is filtered at psycho's house.

> The kids watch anything & everything. But instead of her going where

> we thought she was going to go (accusations of sexual abuse), she

> basically accused my hubby & I of cutting one another & drinking each

> other's blood in front of the kids. Yes... she accused us of

> vamprism!

>

> We had a consult with a lawyer the next day. He doesn't think now is

> the time to go for custody, that we need something bigger. His

> example was a DUI because psycho often drinks & drives.

>

> I am just at my wit's end right now, as is my husband. I can say I've

> been called a lot of things in my life but that's the first time I've

> ever been accused of being a damn vampire! Honestly, it made me

> LAUGH!!! It's frustrating as hell, but what the f**k?! How could I

> NOT laugh at that when he told me?!

>

> I just wish Jane... MOM... was here. I was going to call her the

> weekend after she died (before she passed) to ask for some advice with

> SD and then... she died.

>

> This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane

back.

>

> Anyway, sorry for the long & totally crazy post, but yeah, this is my

> life. Mourning the loss of my real mom, add to that that my work just

> moved into a much nicer & bigger facility (badly needed) and all the

> stress that comes with that... then to be told I'm a damn vampire.

>

> I don't know if I should laugh or cry anymore.

>

> Anyway, thanks for reading.

>

> Mia

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Mia, I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful woman.

And vampirism...just wow. The conclusions they draw! Just wow.

>

> I posted before that my step mom died on April 11. It was sudden,

> unexpected, and has really taken a toll on myself & my family.

>

> She was only 49. Had surgery on her Achilles tendon about 2 weeks

> prior. Threw a clot and had a PE (pulmonary embolism).

>

> She & my dad married when I was 17. I was a senior in high school &

> played the flute at their wedding. It took me 17 years to get a real

> mother, and only had her for 17 years in my life.

>

> I feel so sad and regret too. I live 200 miles away from them, and dad

> & step mom came here for my graduation on Jan 20th. I always referred

> to her by her name, we'll call her Jane. I told my hubby for weeks

> before my graduation, " I want to ask Jane if I can call her mom " .

> Well, they came... and I chickened out. I didn't do it. I thought it

> seemed to cheesy at the time, but now I'm wondering if it's deeper

> than that... perhaps fear of rejections as I consistently experienced

> with nada?

>

> All I know is that I have a biological mother and I had a real mother.

> And now she's gone.

>

> My dad is left with my amazing half siblings who are 15 & 12.

> Everyone seems to be doing ok ... maybe even better than I am with

> dealing with this. Then again, they have each other & Jane's massive

> family who became my family & accepted me. For years I felt like the

> black sheep but I think that's obviously due to nada's toxicity.

>

> And now Jane... mom... she's gone. And I'm 200 miles away. I've

> always been close to my siblings & love them so very much, and now for

> the first time in my life I'm feeling what I think are " maternal "

> instincts. I want to be with them, take care of them, protect them.

>

> Better yet, would love to move the whole family here. So much of me

> wants to move back to that area to be closer to them, yet, I'm happy

> here. Healing began here when I moved here nearly 3 years ago (3

> years on Saturday, to be exact.) I have a fantastic job, a wonderful

> hubby & I am happy. And of course, my step kids. Hubby says he will

> move there if I want to, but I can't ask him to move that far from his

> kids who need him so very much.

>

> His likely bpd ex has drained him. He's so tired of her BS that he

> said he's half tempted to just stop seeing his kids. I have

> encouraged him NOT to do that. He's just so sick of her crap

>

> The latest drama consists of 2 things. One, we bought my step

> daughter a nintendo DS for xmas. psycho ex... well, she pawned it.

> She finally got it back and SD brought it over this past weekend, well

> hubby told her it stays here. Of course SD is upset but it wasn't her

> mother's right to pawn it in the first place.

>

> Then, I guess step son (SS) was playing & did something weird. He

> said something about his butt hurt & he wanted to play doctor. Psycho

> wouldn't go much deeper into it in writing & wanted to speak to hubby

> in person. Well, it turns out SS took a toy sword, poked himself in

> the bottom & then pretended he was licking blood off of it. Ok, this

> disturbs me but then again, nothing is filtered at psycho's house.

> The kids watch anything & everything. But instead of her going where

> we thought she was going to go (accusations of sexual abuse), she

> basically accused my hubby & I of cutting one another & drinking each

> other's blood in front of the kids. Yes... she accused us of

> vamprism!

>

> We had a consult with a lawyer the next day. He doesn't think now is

> the time to go for custody, that we need something bigger. His

> example was a DUI because psycho often drinks & drives.

>

> I am just at my wit's end right now, as is my husband. I can say I've

> been called a lot of things in my life but that's the first time I've

> ever been accused of being a damn vampire! Honestly, it made me

> LAUGH!!! It's frustrating as hell, but what the f**k?! How could I

> NOT laugh at that when he told me?!

>

> I just wish Jane... MOM... was here. I was going to call her the

> weekend after she died (before she passed) to ask for some advice with

> SD and then... she died.

>

> This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane

back.

>

> Anyway, sorry for the long & totally crazy post, but yeah, this is my

> life. Mourning the loss of my real mom, add to that that my work just

> moved into a much nicer & bigger facility (badly needed) and all the

> stress that comes with that... then to be told I'm a damn vampire.

>

> I don't know if I should laugh or cry anymore.

>

> Anyway, thanks for reading.

>

> Mia

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Mia, I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful woman.

And vampirism...just wow. The conclusions they draw! Just wow.

>

> I posted before that my step mom died on April 11. It was sudden,

> unexpected, and has really taken a toll on myself & my family.

>

> She was only 49. Had surgery on her Achilles tendon about 2 weeks

> prior. Threw a clot and had a PE (pulmonary embolism).

>

> She & my dad married when I was 17. I was a senior in high school &

> played the flute at their wedding. It took me 17 years to get a real

> mother, and only had her for 17 years in my life.

>

> I feel so sad and regret too. I live 200 miles away from them, and dad

> & step mom came here for my graduation on Jan 20th. I always referred

> to her by her name, we'll call her Jane. I told my hubby for weeks

> before my graduation, " I want to ask Jane if I can call her mom " .

> Well, they came... and I chickened out. I didn't do it. I thought it

> seemed to cheesy at the time, but now I'm wondering if it's deeper

> than that... perhaps fear of rejections as I consistently experienced

> with nada?

>

> All I know is that I have a biological mother and I had a real mother.

> And now she's gone.

>

> My dad is left with my amazing half siblings who are 15 & 12.

> Everyone seems to be doing ok ... maybe even better than I am with

> dealing with this. Then again, they have each other & Jane's massive

> family who became my family & accepted me. For years I felt like the

> black sheep but I think that's obviously due to nada's toxicity.

>

> And now Jane... mom... she's gone. And I'm 200 miles away. I've

> always been close to my siblings & love them so very much, and now for

> the first time in my life I'm feeling what I think are " maternal "

> instincts. I want to be with them, take care of them, protect them.

>

> Better yet, would love to move the whole family here. So much of me

> wants to move back to that area to be closer to them, yet, I'm happy

> here. Healing began here when I moved here nearly 3 years ago (3

> years on Saturday, to be exact.) I have a fantastic job, a wonderful

> hubby & I am happy. And of course, my step kids. Hubby says he will

> move there if I want to, but I can't ask him to move that far from his

> kids who need him so very much.

>

> His likely bpd ex has drained him. He's so tired of her BS that he

> said he's half tempted to just stop seeing his kids. I have

> encouraged him NOT to do that. He's just so sick of her crap

>

> The latest drama consists of 2 things. One, we bought my step

> daughter a nintendo DS for xmas. psycho ex... well, she pawned it.

> She finally got it back and SD brought it over this past weekend, well

> hubby told her it stays here. Of course SD is upset but it wasn't her

> mother's right to pawn it in the first place.

>

> Then, I guess step son (SS) was playing & did something weird. He

> said something about his butt hurt & he wanted to play doctor. Psycho

> wouldn't go much deeper into it in writing & wanted to speak to hubby

> in person. Well, it turns out SS took a toy sword, poked himself in

> the bottom & then pretended he was licking blood off of it. Ok, this

> disturbs me but then again, nothing is filtered at psycho's house.

> The kids watch anything & everything. But instead of her going where

> we thought she was going to go (accusations of sexual abuse), she

> basically accused my hubby & I of cutting one another & drinking each

> other's blood in front of the kids. Yes... she accused us of

> vamprism!

>

> We had a consult with a lawyer the next day. He doesn't think now is

> the time to go for custody, that we need something bigger. His

> example was a DUI because psycho often drinks & drives.

>

> I am just at my wit's end right now, as is my husband. I can say I've

> been called a lot of things in my life but that's the first time I've

> ever been accused of being a damn vampire! Honestly, it made me

> LAUGH!!! It's frustrating as hell, but what the f**k?! How could I

> NOT laugh at that when he told me?!

>

> I just wish Jane... MOM... was here. I was going to call her the

> weekend after she died (before she passed) to ask for some advice with

> SD and then... she died.

>

> This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane

back.

>

> Anyway, sorry for the long & totally crazy post, but yeah, this is my

> life. Mourning the loss of my real mom, add to that that my work just

> moved into a much nicer & bigger facility (badly needed) and all the

> stress that comes with that... then to be told I'm a damn vampire.

>

> I don't know if I should laugh or cry anymore.

>

> Anyway, thanks for reading.

>

> Mia

>

[Guest guest]

(((((Mia)))))

My heart goes out to you. The loss of your real mother is all the more

difficult and poignant due to be so unexpected. So, as Doug says, be gentle

with yourself, and let yourself experience the grieving.

I agree, this latest idiocy (accusing you and your husband of being vampires)

by your husbands ex is just another peg on the board indicating (to me, anyway)

that she is too unstable, delusional, paranoid, financially irresponsible and

physically dangerous to be raising children. Here's hoping that your husband

can gain full physical custody of them, and then you could all move closer to

your dad and your step-siblings and your real mother's side of the family.

That would be a win-win for all of you.

-Annie

>

> I posted before that my step mom died on April 11. It was sudden,

> unexpected, and has really taken a toll on myself & my family.

>

> She was only 49. Had surgery on her Achilles tendon about 2 weeks

> prior. Threw a clot and had a PE (pulmonary embolism).

>

> She & my dad married when I was 17. I was a senior in high school &

> played the flute at their wedding. It took me 17 years to get a real

> mother, and only had her for 17 years in my life.

>

> I feel so sad and regret too. I live 200 miles away from them, and dad

> & step mom came here for my graduation on Jan 20th. I always referred

> to her by her name, we'll call her Jane. I told my hubby for weeks

> before my graduation, " I want to ask Jane if I can call her mom " .

> Well, they came... and I chickened out. I didn't do it. I thought it

> seemed to cheesy at the time, but now I'm wondering if it's deeper

> than that... perhaps fear of rejections as I consistently experienced

> with nada?

>

> All I know is that I have a biological mother and I had a real mother.

> And now she's gone.

>

> My dad is left with my amazing half siblings who are 15 & 12.

> Everyone seems to be doing ok ... maybe even better than I am with

> dealing with this. Then again, they have each other & Jane's massive

> family who became my family & accepted me. For years I felt like the

> black sheep but I think that's obviously due to nada's toxicity.

>

> And now Jane... mom... she's gone. And I'm 200 miles away. I've

> always been close to my siblings & love them so very much, and now for

> the first time in my life I'm feeling what I think are " maternal "

> instincts. I want to be with them, take care of them, protect them.

>

> Better yet, would love to move the whole family here. So much of me

> wants to move back to that area to be closer to them, yet, I'm happy

> here. Healing began here when I moved here nearly 3 years ago (3

> years on Saturday, to be exact.) I have a fantastic job, a wonderful

> hubby & I am happy. And of course, my step kids. Hubby says he will

> move there if I want to, but I can't ask him to move that far from his

> kids who need him so very much.

>

> His likely bpd ex has drained him. He's so tired of her BS that he

> said he's half tempted to just stop seeing his kids. I have

> encouraged him NOT to do that. He's just so sick of her crap

>

> The latest drama consists of 2 things. One, we bought my step

> daughter a nintendo DS for xmas. psycho ex... well, she pawned it.

> She finally got it back and SD brought it over this past weekend, well

> hubby told her it stays here. Of course SD is upset but it wasn't her

> mother's right to pawn it in the first place.

>

> Then, I guess step son (SS) was playing & did something weird. He

> said something about his butt hurt & he wanted to play doctor. Psycho

> wouldn't go much deeper into it in writing & wanted to speak to hubby

> in person. Well, it turns out SS took a toy sword, poked himself in

> the bottom & then pretended he was licking blood off of it. Ok, this

> disturbs me but then again, nothing is filtered at psycho's house.

> The kids watch anything & everything. But instead of her going where

> we thought she was going to go (accusations of sexual abuse), she

> basically accused my hubby & I of cutting one another & drinking each

> other's blood in front of the kids. Yes... she accused us of

> vamprism!

>

> We had a consult with a lawyer the next day. He doesn't think now is

> the time to go for custody, that we need something bigger. His

> example was a DUI because psycho often drinks & drives.

>

> I am just at my wit's end right now, as is my husband. I can say I've

> been called a lot of things in my life but that's the first time I've

> ever been accused of being a damn vampire! Honestly, it made me

> LAUGH!!! It's frustrating as hell, but what the f**k?! How could I

> NOT laugh at that when he told me?!

>

> I just wish Jane... MOM... was here. I was going to call her the

> weekend after she died (before she passed) to ask for some advice with

> SD and then... she died.

>

> This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane

back.

>

> Anyway, sorry for the long & totally crazy post, but yeah, this is my

> life. Mourning the loss of my real mom, add to that that my work just

> moved into a much nicer & bigger facility (badly needed) and all the

> stress that comes with that... then to be told I'm a damn vampire.

>

> I don't know if I should laugh or cry anymore.

>

> Anyway, thanks for reading.

>

> Mia

>

[Guest guest]

(((((Mia)))))

My heart goes out to you. The loss of your real mother is all the more

difficult and poignant due to be so unexpected. So, as Doug says, be gentle

with yourself, and let yourself experience the grieving.

I agree, this latest idiocy (accusing you and your husband of being vampires)

by your husbands ex is just another peg on the board indicating (to me, anyway)

that she is too unstable, delusional, paranoid, financially irresponsible and

physically dangerous to be raising children. Here's hoping that your husband

can gain full physical custody of them, and then you could all move closer to

your dad and your step-siblings and your real mother's side of the family.

That would be a win-win for all of you.

-Annie

>

> I posted before that my step mom died on April 11. It was sudden,

> unexpected, and has really taken a toll on myself & my family.

>

> She was only 49. Had surgery on her Achilles tendon about 2 weeks

> prior. Threw a clot and had a PE (pulmonary embolism).

>

> She & my dad married when I was 17. I was a senior in high school &

> played the flute at their wedding. It took me 17 years to get a real

> mother, and only had her for 17 years in my life.

>

> I feel so sad and regret too. I live 200 miles away from them, and dad

> & step mom came here for my graduation on Jan 20th. I always referred

> to her by her name, we'll call her Jane. I told my hubby for weeks

> before my graduation, " I want to ask Jane if I can call her mom " .

> Well, they came... and I chickened out. I didn't do it. I thought it

> seemed to cheesy at the time, but now I'm wondering if it's deeper

> than that... perhaps fear of rejections as I consistently experienced

> with nada?

>

> All I know is that I have a biological mother and I had a real mother.

> And now she's gone.

>

> My dad is left with my amazing half siblings who are 15 & 12.

> Everyone seems to be doing ok ... maybe even better than I am with

> dealing with this. Then again, they have each other & Jane's massive

> family who became my family & accepted me. For years I felt like the

> black sheep but I think that's obviously due to nada's toxicity.

>

> And now Jane... mom... she's gone. And I'm 200 miles away. I've

> always been close to my siblings & love them so very much, and now for

> the first time in my life I'm feeling what I think are " maternal "

> instincts. I want to be with them, take care of them, protect them.

>

> Better yet, would love to move the whole family here. So much of me

> wants to move back to that area to be closer to them, yet, I'm happy

> here. Healing began here when I moved here nearly 3 years ago (3

> years on Saturday, to be exact.) I have a fantastic job, a wonderful

> hubby & I am happy. And of course, my step kids. Hubby says he will

> move there if I want to, but I can't ask him to move that far from his

> kids who need him so very much.

>

> His likely bpd ex has drained him. He's so tired of her BS that he

> said he's half tempted to just stop seeing his kids. I have

> encouraged him NOT to do that. He's just so sick of her crap

>

> The latest drama consists of 2 things. One, we bought my step

> daughter a nintendo DS for xmas. psycho ex... well, she pawned it.

> She finally got it back and SD brought it over this past weekend, well

> hubby told her it stays here. Of course SD is upset but it wasn't her

> mother's right to pawn it in the first place.

>

> Then, I guess step son (SS) was playing & did something weird. He

> said something about his butt hurt & he wanted to play doctor. Psycho

> wouldn't go much deeper into it in writing & wanted to speak to hubby

> in person. Well, it turns out SS took a toy sword, poked himself in

> the bottom & then pretended he was licking blood off of it. Ok, this

> disturbs me but then again, nothing is filtered at psycho's house.

> The kids watch anything & everything. But instead of her going where

> we thought she was going to go (accusations of sexual abuse), she

> basically accused my hubby & I of cutting one another & drinking each

> other's blood in front of the kids. Yes... she accused us of

> vamprism!

>

> We had a consult with a lawyer the next day. He doesn't think now is

> the time to go for custody, that we need something bigger. His

> example was a DUI because psycho often drinks & drives.

>

> I am just at my wit's end right now, as is my husband. I can say I've

> been called a lot of things in my life but that's the first time I've

> ever been accused of being a damn vampire! Honestly, it made me

> LAUGH!!! It's frustrating as hell, but what the f**k?! How could I

> NOT laugh at that when he told me?!

>

> I just wish Jane... MOM... was here. I was going to call her the

> weekend after she died (before she passed) to ask for some advice with

> SD and then... she died.

>

> This will probably sound horrid, but I wish I could trade nada & get Jane

back.

>

> Anyway, sorry for the long & totally crazy post, but yeah, this is my

> life. Mourning the loss of my real mom, add to that that my work just

> moved into a much nicer & bigger facility (badly needed) and all the

> stress that comes with that... then to be told I'm a damn vampire.

>

> I don't know if I should laugh or cry anymore.

>

> Anyway, thanks for reading.

>

> Mia

>

[Guest guest]

Yes Mia the vampire is pure projection on her part - the emotional vampire

offloads. I completely understand wishing nada and Jane traded places. I have

thought that too about my grandmother and ngf. Big hug. Sr

Sent from my iPhone

[Guest guest]

Yes Mia the vampire is pure projection on her part - the emotional vampire

offloads. I completely understand wishing nada and Jane traded places. I have

thought that too about my grandmother and ngf. Big hug. Sr

Sent from my iPhone

[Guest guest]

Yes Mia the vampire is pure projection on her part - the emotional vampire

offloads. I completely understand wishing nada and Jane traded places. I have

thought that too about my grandmother and ngf. Big hug. Sr

Sent from my iPhone

[Guest guest]

Thanks all.

As for getting custody of the kids, that's a long shot. We spoke to a

lawyer last week and he says we don't have enough yet, even though he

thinks things are VERY screwy and basically reinforced (sadly) how useless

CPS is. He described some cases he saw where kids weren't taken out of

homes they should have been... I mean, seriously frightening stuff &

nothing got done.

This state HIGHLY favors keeping kids with mom, so he advised that we wait

for something big, such as her getting a DUI or something.

But yeah, the vampire stuff... oy! She didn't use that word, her words

were " cutting yourselves & drinking each other's blood in front of the

kids " . We of course immediately thought of vampires! And yeah, she is a

psychological vampire. She's draining both of us.

As for Jane... mom... going to take a very long time for that grief & pain

to go away. Not sure if it ever will fully, but it's still a very fresh

wound. And I so badly want to be back " home " to be with my dad & sibs.

Though, working for the government has it's perks... one is paid

government holidays off. So I'm hoping to go up at the end of the month

for Memorial Day. Pending my vehicle cooperates.

Anyway, ty again for listening and all of your support now and over the

years. This group has done so much to help me in my healing. I just wish

I had more time to participate more like I used to.

*HUGS* to all from Mia the Vampire (lol)

>

>

> Yes Mia the vampire is pure projection on her part - the emotional vampire

> offloads. I completely understand wishing nada and Jane traded places. I

> have thought that too about my grandmother and ngf. Big hug. Sr

>

> Sent from my iPhone

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks all.

As for getting custody of the kids, that's a long shot. We spoke to a

lawyer last week and he says we don't have enough yet, even though he

thinks things are VERY screwy and basically reinforced (sadly) how useless

CPS is. He described some cases he saw where kids weren't taken out of

homes they should have been... I mean, seriously frightening stuff &

nothing got done.

This state HIGHLY favors keeping kids with mom, so he advised that we wait

for something big, such as her getting a DUI or something.

But yeah, the vampire stuff... oy! She didn't use that word, her words

were " cutting yourselves & drinking each other's blood in front of the

kids " . We of course immediately thought of vampires! And yeah, she is a

psychological vampire. She's draining both of us.

As for Jane... mom... going to take a very long time for that grief & pain

to go away. Not sure if it ever will fully, but it's still a very fresh

wound. And I so badly want to be back " home " to be with my dad & sibs.

Though, working for the government has it's perks... one is paid

government holidays off. So I'm hoping to go up at the end of the month

for Memorial Day. Pending my vehicle cooperates.

Anyway, ty again for listening and all of your support now and over the

years. This group has done so much to help me in my healing. I just wish

I had more time to participate more like I used to.

*HUGS* to all from Mia the Vampire (lol)

>

>

> Yes Mia the vampire is pure projection on her part - the emotional vampire

> offloads. I completely understand wishing nada and Jane traded places. I

> have thought that too about my grandmother and ngf. Big hug. Sr

>

> Sent from my iPhone

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks all.

As for getting custody of the kids, that's a long shot. We spoke to a

lawyer last week and he says we don't have enough yet, even though he

thinks things are VERY screwy and basically reinforced (sadly) how useless

CPS is. He described some cases he saw where kids weren't taken out of

homes they should have been... I mean, seriously frightening stuff &

nothing got done.

This state HIGHLY favors keeping kids with mom, so he advised that we wait

for something big, such as her getting a DUI or something.

But yeah, the vampire stuff... oy! She didn't use that word, her words

were " cutting yourselves & drinking each other's blood in front of the

kids " . We of course immediately thought of vampires! And yeah, she is a

psychological vampire. She's draining both of us.

As for Jane... mom... going to take a very long time for that grief & pain

to go away. Not sure if it ever will fully, but it's still a very fresh

wound. And I so badly want to be back " home " to be with my dad & sibs.

Though, working for the government has it's perks... one is paid

government holidays off. So I'm hoping to go up at the end of the month

for Memorial Day. Pending my vehicle cooperates.

Anyway, ty again for listening and all of your support now and over the

years. This group has done so much to help me in my healing. I just wish

I had more time to participate more like I used to.

*HUGS* to all from Mia the Vampire (lol)

>

>

> Yes Mia the vampire is pure projection on her part - the emotional vampire

> offloads. I completely understand wishing nada and Jane traded places. I

> have thought that too about my grandmother and ngf. Big hug. Sr

>

> Sent from my iPhone

>

>

[Guest guest]

a vampire, really? I just had to chuckle about THAT one. Really weird.

I get what you are saying about trading nada for you step mom. my crazy BPD

neighbor lost his partner, that used to be a really good friend of mine until

the BPD partner started harrassing me and eventually after 18 mos of ongoing

harrassment had to file a restraining order. Kind of put a damper on our

friendship. I couldn't hold it against him too much. my friend was a completely

enmeshed alcoholic that was on disability and financially dependent on his

crazy, BPD partner. My friend did reach out to me and we had started talking

again after my Darling husbands death. The restraining order wasn't against him

so that was possible. I missed him terribly, even if he was an alcoholic drama

queen. I wish I could trade my friend for the BPD partner. and yes I know it is

a terrible thing to say, but it is also a human thing to say.

Why yes I WOULD like to trade the caged, snarling mountain lion for the cute

fluffy kitten! That's a no brainer.

C

[Guest guest]

a vampire, really? I just had to chuckle about THAT one. Really weird.

I get what you are saying about trading nada for you step mom. my crazy BPD

neighbor lost his partner, that used to be a really good friend of mine until

the BPD partner started harrassing me and eventually after 18 mos of ongoing

harrassment had to file a restraining order. Kind of put a damper on our

friendship. I couldn't hold it against him too much. my friend was a completely

enmeshed alcoholic that was on disability and financially dependent on his

crazy, BPD partner. My friend did reach out to me and we had started talking

again after my Darling husbands death. The restraining order wasn't against him

so that was possible. I missed him terribly, even if he was an alcoholic drama

queen. I wish I could trade my friend for the BPD partner. and yes I know it is

a terrible thing to say, but it is also a human thing to say.

Why yes I WOULD like to trade the caged, snarling mountain lion for the cute

fluffy kitten! That's a no brainer.

C

[Guest guest]

a vampire, really? I just had to chuckle about THAT one. Really weird.

I get what you are saying about trading nada for you step mom. my crazy BPD

neighbor lost his partner, that used to be a really good friend of mine until

the BPD partner started harrassing me and eventually after 18 mos of ongoing

harrassment had to file a restraining order. Kind of put a damper on our

friendship. I couldn't hold it against him too much. my friend was a completely

enmeshed alcoholic that was on disability and financially dependent on his

crazy, BPD partner. My friend did reach out to me and we had started talking

again after my Darling husbands death. The restraining order wasn't against him

so that was possible. I missed him terribly, even if he was an alcoholic drama

queen. I wish I could trade my friend for the BPD partner. and yes I know it is

a terrible thing to say, but it is also a human thing to say.

Why yes I WOULD like to trade the caged, snarling mountain lion for the cute

fluffy kitten! That's a no brainer.

C