Guest guest Posted May 16, 2012 Report Share Posted May 16, 2012 My mother admitted to trying to keep me young. Not to let me grow and mature. Not to let me express sexuality or to be flirty and playful. When I had my first boyfriend, she immediately flipped out by saying that he only wanted one thing from me. When I told her that he said he would wait for me forever, she told me there was something wrong with a man who could wait for a woman. She told me I had to choose between him and her. We dated for 7 years...very in love...but always against my mother. She would fake having a heart attack when he would come to pick me up. The chest pains curiously came when he would knock on the door. She told me, after my father developed angina (chronic chest pain) that I was the cause of it and if anything ever happened to him, it would be my fault. She told me that as long as I stayed with the man I loved, that I was shortening her life and my dad's too. It was a horrible 7 years of my life til we eventually broke up due to extreme pressure. When the poor souls who jumped from the twin towers chose 5 more seconds of air over being burned on the spot, they made decisions that were not rational. I feel that I made rash decisions because I had no more air to breathe...I felt so suffocated...and I chose to breathe. That meant the lesser of the bad choices and I left him. I caved. She won. I live with this decision all my life and I don't think I will ever let myself forgive myself for being coerced to make a very important life choice. Amy barrycove@... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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