Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 Dear All, I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. I have translated it into English for you. I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it with you for its content. It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my childhood. Maybe it could help some of you. Take all very good care of yourselves ! Many blessings to each of you ! Natacha Child of a Borderline Child of a Borderline Bitter destiny Missing tenderness False markers Fear of not pleasing Desire of beeing transparent Willing of doing well Rarely accepted Dotted existence With a held breath Inexpressed desires Unrevealed personnality Mocked talents Broken confidence Feelings of nullity Gaged blessing Fear of moving Constant melancoly True happiness of living missing Beauty of a soul assassinated. Natacha DASZKEL Le 26 Juin 2012. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 Thank you for sharing, it sure is a good description!! > > Dear All, > > I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. > I have translated it into English for you. > > I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it with you for its content. > > It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my childhood. > > Maybe it could help some of you. > > > Take all very good care of yourselves ! > Many blessings to each of you ! > > Natacha > > Child > of a Borderline > > Child of a Borderline > Bitter destiny > Missing tenderness > False markers > > Fear of not pleasing > Desire of beeing > transparent > Willing of doing well > Rarely accepted > > Dotted existence > With a held breath > Inexpressed desires > Unrevealed personnality > > Mocked talents > Broken confidence > Feelings of nullity > Gaged blessing > > Fear of moving > Constant melancoly > True happiness of living > missing > Beauty of a soul > assassinated. > > Natacha > DASZKEL > Le > 26 Juin 2012. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 That captures feelings I felt as a child, very well. The bleakness, and the forever unanswered question that if asked, sparked more rage: " Why? " Its so cruel to turn a living child into a mute, inanimate object, which is what it felt like to me. Thanks for sharing. -Annie > > Dear All, > > I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. > I have translated it into English for you. > > I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it with you for its content. > > It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my childhood. > > Maybe it could help some of you. > > > Take all very good care of yourselves ! > Many blessings to each of you ! > > Natacha > > Child > of a Borderline > > Child of a Borderline > Bitter destiny > Missing tenderness > False markers > > Fear of not pleasing > Desire of beeing > transparent > Willing of doing well > Rarely accepted > > Dotted existence > With a held breath > Inexpressed desires > Unrevealed personnality > > Mocked talents > Broken confidence > Feelings of nullity > Gaged blessing > > Fear of moving > Constant melancoly > True happiness of living > missing > Beauty of a soul > assassinated. > > Natacha > DASZKEL > Le > 26 Juin 2012. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 That's a powerful poem. It really catches the emotions of growing up with a parent who has BPD. At 08:01 AM 06/28/2012 Daszkel Natacha wrote: >Dear All, > >I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. >I have translated it into English for you. > >I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so >the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it >with you for its content. > >It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my >childhood. > >Maybe it could help some of you. > > >Take all very good care of yourselves ! >Many blessings to each of you ! > >Natacha > >Child >of a Borderline > >Child of a Borderline >Bitter destiny >Missing tenderness >False markers > >Fear of not pleasing >Desire of beeing >transparent >Willing of doing well >Rarely accepted > >Dotted existence >With a held breath >Inexpressed desires >Unrevealed personnality > >Mocked talents >Broken confidence >Feelings of nullity >Gaged blessing > >Fear of moving >Constant melancoly >True happiness of living >missing >Beauty of a soul >assassinated. > >Natacha >DASZKEL >Le >26 Juin 2012. -- Katrina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 Dear Annie, Thank you for your kind words. I did my best to reflect the feelings I had at this time, and I'm happy to see that even if it is only a translation to English with no rimes, I managed to transmit in another language the words of the feelings :-) I am so happy to feel understood here on this site, and to think that maybe my poems can help some other people too. This afternoon, I was just thinking that maybe I should publish a poems book consecrated specially to the subject of how it has been to be a child of a borderline. So I have checked all my previous poems books and assemblate together all the poems about this topic, and I couldn't believe it, I have more than 50 poems ! First I would publish it in French, but I would really really love then to publish it into English language, especially because I would love to share all this with the members of our group. It would be a long work of translation, but I think I can do it :-) I think I will have to struggle here against my lack of confidence in myself but it could be a very good challenge to me to break these invisible walls which empeach me also today to dare to show my true level and personnal gifts (I actually live in a low level life not at all at the level I should be in because nada has spent her life to empeach me to be higher than her, I've gone NC for one year but the invisible walls she has put arround me are still here unbroken.) It is a every day struggle not to think constantly that I am not good enough and I am not worth for anything.... Yes, it was the same for me, I was not really allowed to move. Last week I had a terrible flash back, I have remembered something I had forgotten for about 36-38 years ! I remembered suddendly that when I was about two years old, nada was attaching me in my bed with a belt ! I couldn't move and had to become asleep on my back, which I absolutely hated. Today I spoke with a woman of my age and asked her if it was fashion in our young time, to attach 2 years old in their beds, and she opened big eyes and said that she never ever heard about that ! I am curious about all the other hard memories I potentially have kept hidden inside me and forgotten in my very young age to protect myself ! Take very good care of yourself. Natacha ________________________________ De : anuria67854 anuria-67854@...> À : WTOAdultChildren1 Envoyé le : Jeudi 28 juin 2012 16h21 Objet : Re: Poem Child of Borderline  That captures feelings I felt as a child, very well. The bleakness, and the forever unanswered question that if asked, sparked more rage: " Why? " Its so cruel to turn a living child into a mute, inanimate object, which is what it felt like to me. Thanks for sharing. -Annie > > Dear All, > > I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. > I have translated it into English for you. > > I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it with you for its content. > > It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my childhood. > > Maybe it could help some of you. > > > Take all very good care of yourselves ! > Many blessings to each of you ! > > Natacha > > Child > of a Borderline > > Child of a Borderline > Bitter destiny > Missing tenderness > False markers > > Fear of not pleasing > Desire of beeing > transparent > Willing of doing well > Rarely accepted > > Dotted existence > With a held breath > Inexpressed desires > Unrevealed personnality > > Mocked talents > Broken confidence > Feelings of nullity > Gaged blessing > > Fear of moving > Constant melancoly > True happiness of living > missing > Beauty of a soul > assassinated. > > Natacha > DASZKEL > Le > 26 Juin 2012. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 Dear Katrina, Thank you very much for your kind e-mail. You are helping me a lot with it to trust better myself in my ability to express and to transmit this atmosphere I grew up in. I think it can help other adult children of Borderline to realize that yes, it was really like that, and to know that they are not alone and that they are understood in their sufferings. I have already written more than 50 poems on this special topic, I seriously think about translating them into English. Take very good care of yourself. Natacha ________________________________ De : Katrina kk1raven@...> À : WTOAdultChildren1 Envoyé le : Jeudi 28 juin 2012 16h21 Objet : Re: Poem Child of Borderline  That's a powerful poem. It really catches the emotions of growing up with a parent who has BPD. At 08:01 AM 06/28/2012 Daszkel Natacha wrote: >Dear All, > >I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. >I have translated it into English for you. > >I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so >the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it >with you for its content. > >It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my >childhood. > >Maybe it could help some of you. > > >Take all very good care of yourselves ! >Many blessings to each of you ! > >Natacha > >Child >of a Borderline > >Child of a Borderline >Bitter destiny >Missing tenderness >False markers > >Fear of not pleasing >Desire of beeing >transparent >Willing of doing well >Rarely accepted > >Dotted existence >With a held breath >Inexpressed desires >Unrevealed personnality > >Mocked talents >Broken confidence >Feelings of nullity >Gaged blessing > >Fear of moving >Constant melancoly >True happiness of living >missing >Beauty of a soul >assassinated. > >Natacha >DASZKEL >Le >26 Juin 2012. -- Katrina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2012 Report Share Posted June 28, 2012 Dear Tina, Thank you for your kind message :-) This afternoon, I have written two other ones, this is one of them : Mother's Day Mother's Day From my childhood Bitter rememberings Hard suffering Beautiful gift So well prepared And wrapped In a paper Lifeless face A vague Thank you Indifference And then neglect Frustrated child Humiliated Put away gift Never exposed Hidden sorrow Betrayed love Tormented heart In agony. Natacha DASZKEL Le 28 Juin 2012. Take very good care of yourself. Natacha ________________________________ De : tina b tina_72us@...> À : WTOAdultChildren1 Envoyé le : Jeudi 28 juin 2012 15h38 Objet : Re: Poem Child of Borderline  Thank you for sharing, it sure is a good description!! > > Dear All, > > I want to share with you another poem I have written recently. > I have translated it into English for you. > > I am so sorry that there is no rime in my English version, so the melody of the text is not really translated. But I share it with you for its content. > > It describes what I experienced az nada's daughter during my childhood. > > Maybe it could help some of you. > > > Take all very good care of yourselves ! > Many blessings to each of you ! > > Natacha > > Child > of a Borderline > > Child of a Borderline > Bitter destiny > Missing tenderness > False markers > > Fear of not pleasing > Desire of beeing > transparent > Willing of doing well > Rarely accepted > > Dotted existence > With a held breath > Inexpressed desires > Unrevealed personnality > > Mocked talents > Broken confidence > Feelings of nullity > Gaged blessing > > Fear of moving > Constant melancoly > True happiness of living > missing > Beauty of a soul > assassinated. > > Natacha > DASZKEL > Le > 26 Juin 2012. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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