Peace and Release of Tension

[Guest guest]

Good morning, All.

Today, I woke up after sleeping the most peacefully I have in years. I have

begun to notice the ever present tension in my shoulders is diminishing. I have

had tension in my shoulders and body for so long that it has become a part of my

normal. Initially, I did not notice the tension fading, then I realize I was

more flexible than I usually am, and that is when it hit me, my shoulders felt

more relaxed.

Lately, I have been sleeping 5 to 6 hours straight and I am better for it. I

attribute all of this to my new found and desperately needed awareness. Since

being told my NADA probably has BPD to coming to terms with it, in large part

because of this community, and accepting that she is who she is and I should

expect no change, I have gotten my breath back. Can anyone other that KOs ever

truly understand what it's like not to be unable to breathe naturally around

your own mother? Fathers are included but since children are born of the

mother, it would seem that she should be the one person you could breathe

comfortably around.

While I still don't like or look forward to contact with my mother, I neither

have the anxiety before and during our contact, nor the frustration during or

after our contact. LIBERATION is WONDERFUL!

I know this is but one part of my journey but I feel this has been a long time

coming. I feel like I am finding my way back to being me!

To all, take good care! I wish each of us awareness and understanding that

brings healing which leads to peace and joy!

MyReality67

[Guest guest]

Hi MyReality67,

I am SO HAPPY for you, that is so wonderful that you have been able to release

the life-long tension you held and you are able to sleep better, too. That is

awesome. Its not easy to unburden yourself from such chronic anxiety,

especially when choosing to remain in contact with nada, and I'm glad that this

Group played a part and helped you. Thanks for sharing that with us! I agree:

LIBERATION ROCKS!

Brava!!

-Annie

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> Good morning, All.

>

> Today, I woke up after sleeping the most peacefully I have in years. I have

begun to notice the ever present tension in my shoulders is diminishing. I have

had tension in my shoulders and body for so long that it has become a part of my

normal. Initially, I did not notice the tension fading, then I realize I was

more flexible than I usually am, and that is when it hit me, my shoulders felt

more relaxed.

>

> Lately, I have been sleeping 5 to 6 hours straight and I am better for it. I

attribute all of this to my new found and desperately needed awareness. Since

being told my NADA probably has BPD to coming to terms with it, in large part

because of this community, and accepting that she is who she is and I should

expect no change, I have gotten my breath back. Can anyone other that KOs ever

truly understand what it's like not to be unable to breathe naturally around

your own mother? Fathers are included but since children are born of the

mother, it would seem that she should be the one person you could breathe

comfortably around.

>

> While I still don't like or look forward to contact with my mother, I neither

have the anxiety before and during our contact, nor the frustration during or

after our contact. LIBERATION is WONDERFUL!

>

> I know this is but one part of my journey but I feel this has been a long time

coming. I feel like I am finding my way back to being me!

>

> To all, take good care! I wish each of us awareness and understanding that

brings healing which leads to peace and joy!

>

> MyReality67

>

[Guest guest]

That's great! I think that for a lot of people (myself included), anxiety and

tension largely stem from uncertainty and not understanding. Before I knew nada

had BPD I could not even begin to understand her insane behavior, and trying to

rationalize it all and fit into her crazy mold made me a nervous wreck. Knowing

she is mentally ill and accepting it won't change is a HUGE step in healing. I'm

so happy for you that you have done this! =)

>

> Good morning, All.

>

> Today, I woke up after sleeping the most peacefully I have in years. I have

begun to notice the ever present tension in my shoulders is diminishing. I have

had tension in my shoulders and body for so long that it has become a part of my

normal. Initially, I did not notice the tension fading, then I realize I was

more flexible than I usually am, and that is when it hit me, my shoulders felt

more relaxed.

>

> Lately, I have been sleeping 5 to 6 hours straight and I am better for it. I

attribute all of this to my new found and desperately needed awareness. Since

being told my NADA probably has BPD to coming to terms with it, in large part

because of this community, and accepting that she is who she is and I should

expect no change, I have gotten my breath back. Can anyone other that KOs ever

truly understand what it's like not to be unable to breathe naturally around

your own mother? Fathers are included but since children are born of the

mother, it would seem that she should be the one person you could breathe

comfortably around.

>

> While I still don't like or look forward to contact with my mother, I neither

have the anxiety before and during our contact, nor the frustration during or

after our contact. LIBERATION is WONDERFUL!

>

> I know this is but one part of my journey but I feel this has been a long time

coming. I feel like I am finding my way back to being me!

>

> To all, take good care! I wish each of us awareness and understanding that

brings healing which leads to peace and joy!

>

> MyReality67

>

[Guest guest]

I love your post! It really does help to know what you're dealing with, even if

you know they aren't going to improve! It's an amazing feeling to know that

maybe, just maybe, you can lead a normal, happy life, and keep your nada in

proper perspective! Hopefully I'll be there soon too! Thanks for sharing your

revelation!!

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> > Good morning, All.

> >

> > Today, I woke up after sleeping the most peacefully I have in years. I have

begun to notice the ever present tension in my shoulders is diminishing. I have

had tension in my shoulders and body for so long that it has become a part of my

normal. Initially, I did not notice the tension fading, then I realize I was

more flexible than I usually am, and that is when it hit me, my shoulders felt

more relaxed.

> >

> > Lately, I have been sleeping 5 to 6 hours straight and I am better for it.

I attribute all of this to my new found and desperately needed awareness. Since

being told my NADA probably has BPD to coming to terms with it, in large part

because of this community, and accepting that she is who she is and I should

expect no change, I have gotten my breath back. Can anyone other that KOs ever

truly understand what it's like not to be unable to breathe naturally around

your own mother? Fathers are included but since children are born of the

mother, it would seem that she should be the one person you could breathe

comfortably around.

> >

> > While I still don't like or look forward to contact with my mother, I

neither have the anxiety before and during our contact, nor the frustration

during or after our contact. LIBERATION is WONDERFUL!

> >

> > I know this is but one part of my journey but I feel this has been a long

time coming. I feel like I am finding my way back to being me!

> >

> > To all, take good care! I wish each of us awareness and understanding that

brings healing which leads to peace and joy!

> >

> > MyReality67

> >

>

[Guest guest]

JTADCOCK-

I think it helped to remove the ever present " WHY? " . Knowing and understanding

she has a personality disorder helped me as it gave me the WHY. I always

wondered Why do I have her as a mother, Why does my mother do_________, Why me,

WHY?

Understanding my mother through the lens of BPD not only answered the questions

regarding her, but has helped me to finally comprehend and accept it was never

about me. It explained why I have always felt like an accessory to her. When

she says she loves me, I hear " I love you on the condition of this moment,

etc " .

Knowledge of her BPD has also helped me to objectively look at my own triggers

and how some people unconsciously /emotionally remind me of my adolescence with

my mother. I am still not 100% healed but I believe I am well on my way.

Take good care!

MyReality67

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> > > Good morning, All.

> > >

> > > Today, I woke up after sleeping the most peacefully I have in years. I

have begun to notice the ever present tension in my shoulders is diminishing. I

have had tension in my shoulders and body for so long that it has become a part

of my normal. Initially, I did not notice the tension fading, then I realize I

was more flexible than I usually am, and that is when it hit me, my shoulders

felt more relaxed.

> > >

> > > Lately, I have been sleeping 5 to 6 hours straight and I am better for

it. I attribute all of this to my new found and desperately needed awareness.

Since being told my NADA probably has BPD to coming to terms with it, in large

part because of this community, and accepting that she is who she is and I

should expect no change, I have gotten my breath back. Can anyone other that

KOs ever truly understand what it's like not to be unable to breathe naturally

around your own mother? Fathers are included but since children are born of

the mother, it would seem that she should be the one person you could breathe

comfortably around.

> > >

> > > While I still don't like or look forward to contact with my mother, I

neither have the anxiety before and during our contact, nor the frustration

during or after our contact. LIBERATION is WONDERFUL!

> > >

> > > I know this is but one part of my journey but I feel this has been a long

time coming. I feel like I am finding my way back to being me!

> > >

> > > To all, take good care! I wish each of us awareness and understanding

that brings healing which leads to peace and joy!

> > >

> > > MyReality67

> > >

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