RE: Do I have to leave the group.

July 23, 2012

I wanted to express my gratitude to everyone who responded to my post. I needed

all those different points of view. I didn't feel like I was thinking clearly

about the situation.

My therapist is young (not very experienced), and part-time. We are doing

individual talk therapy, which if I am BPD, is not going to help much. I have

only been seeing the T for a few months. I don't believe BPD is her specialty so

I don't think she understands all the ways it manifests in daily life. Since I

started therapy this time, I have been letting it ALL hang out and it can get

very emotional. I'm thinking she just may now know how to handle me. And on some

level, I can understand why my T thinks I'm paranoid when I talk about the

manipulative *reasons* my mother says or does certain things. She doesn't know

all that I've been through.

So I'm back in that boat where I feel under pressure to prove that I'm not the

crazy one, and that is a BIG trigger because of my history with nada. I am 60,

soon to be 61 and I've been stuffing my emotions my whole life. Most times I

don't even know what my feelings are, but I genuinely want to know what is wrong

with me so I can work on my issues. I have a daughter and two grand-daughters

that I adore and I want to be as healthy as possible for them, and me. I think

I'll probably begin looking for someone who has more experience in BPD and see

where that leads me.

In a year of searching, this group is the only place I have been able to find,

that can help me realize how specific behaviors are related to BPD. I try to get

my hands on just about ever book that people recommend. It has been very helpful

and a lot of the puzzle pieces of my childhood life and my mother's behavior

have fallen into place. Thank you all so much.

July 23, 2012

Mimi,

I'm glad to hear you're looking for someone else to do therapy with.

The thought that kept running through my mind when I was reading your question

and the responses was " oh, no, she's got a XXXXXX. "

What I mean by that is....I know a young PSYD, and he has absolutely no business

counseling anyone nor should he be in the business of psychology. In fact, he

needs to have his license yanked and I have no doubt that at some point

(probably when one of his patients overhears him yakking about them in public in

absolute violation of the law and their sacred trust) he will. Meanwhile he

RUINS PEOPLE!!! And if you were to just continue on trying to prove you're not

the crazy one....well, it wouldn't be very good for you, eh?

Em

> I wanted to express my gratitude to everyone who responded to my post. I

needed all those different points of view. I didn't feel like I was thinking

clearly about the situation.

> My therapist is young (not very experienced), and part-time. We are doing