Re: Recovering in an Unusual Way

[Guest guest]

Congratulations for being healthy for 2 years now!

You should be proud for keeping an open mind and trying something new! That's

great!

Last night, I broke down over my Nada because of a recent incident so naturally

I was depressed all day and ate tons of junk food. I've been so good too - and

it's just like I don't care. When I get like this I really don't care what I

eat, I just want junk food to make it better! Which of course really doesn't and

makes me feel horrible.

I totally understand where you're coming from.

What is the title of the Audio book and where did you find it, Amazon, iTunes?

Thanks!

>

> Hello Everyone,

>

> Ok...since I was a teenager, I've work on recovering from the family BPD. I'm

a really sensitive person. So I turned to religion, moved out of state, studied

family counseling, and did heavy duty therapy for years. I've read, researched,

journaled, talked, prayed and etc to become a more emotionally balanced person.

>

> Everything helped, but as you know, there are deep, deep roots from our

childhood that's nearly impossible to heal. So that

pain/insecurity/depression/anger comes out of us in some self-abusing way.

>

> For me it's been an eating disorder. The binge eating started at 11 years old

to cope with family drama/my pain. I resisted for as long as I could, but

finally became bulimic in my mid-20s. After 18 months of really tough, intense

therapy (revolving around my mom's BPD), I kicked the bulimia...now 2 years

free!

>

> But overcoming emotional eating...has been impossible, even after doing all of

this work. When I'm triggered, I'm like a huge freight train going down hill. I

just can't stop myself.

>

> So out of desperation, I was willing to try anything! And I stumbled onto this

audio book...to heal your subconscious through hypnosis. I always thought

hypnosis was total baloney. So sheepishly I bought the book. I'd play it at

night as I fell asleep and waking up in the morning, for the recommended 21

days.

>

> " Just keep an open mind, " the author said. Well I immediately started having

more positive dreams and feeling a little more upbeat, so I thought " it's

certainly not hurting.... " But I was still skeptical it would overcome my

eating. Until day 19.

>

> I woke up that day and just felt unusual. It was a very stressful week, so I

totally expected myself to binge. But I was feeling peaceful...so strange. I had

to shop at a place where I get my binge food. At this level of stress, I'm

always COMPULSIVE about getting junk food. But I walked into that store, slowly

went down the junk food aisles eyeing every candy bar and chip bag, and felt no

desire to buy anything. This has NEVER happened to me before.

>

> It's like my drive for emotional eating is gone. I've lost the will to binge.

So I've now joined Weight Watchers for the ongoing support. I doubt the hypnosis

cured my bingeing, but it's provided the greatest springboard for me to develop

healthier habits.

>

> Here's the bottom line: Adult children of abuse who are naturally more

sensitive, I think just doing the mainstream methods of cognitive work isn't

enough. Why do our siblings deal with the pain so much better than us? Because

we need a different, deeper level of support.

>

> I'm starting to think for sensitive people, we need to include techniques for

healing our unconsciousness. It's tough...there's little scientific

understanding of the subconscious. But it affects 90% of our decision-making!

>

> So whatever kind of spiritual/religious views you may have, perhaps you can

find some kind of hypnotic prayer/meditation support focusing on the Higher

Power helping you. Or try some professional hypnosis. You may be surprised by

how it helps....

>

> Don't give up finding the right help for you!

>

[Guest guest]

It's called Subattraction (there's a series). On Audible.com

> >

> > Hello Everyone,

> >

> > Ok...since I was a teenager, I've work on recovering from the family BPD.

I'm a really sensitive person. So I turned to religion, moved out of state,

studied family counseling, and did heavy duty therapy for years. I've read,

researched, journaled, talked, prayed and etc to become a more emotionally

balanced person.

> >

> > Everything helped, but as you know, there are deep, deep roots from our

childhood that's nearly impossible to heal. So that

pain/insecurity/depression/anger comes out of us in some self-abusing way.

> >

> > For me it's been an eating disorder. The binge eating started at 11 years

old to cope with family drama/my pain. I resisted for as long as I could, but

finally became bulimic in my mid-20s. After 18 months of really tough, intense

therapy (revolving around my mom's BPD), I kicked the bulimia...now 2 years

free!

> >

> > But overcoming emotional eating...has been impossible, even after doing all

of this work. When I'm triggered, I'm like a huge freight train going down hill.

I just can't stop myself.

> >

> > So out of desperation, I was willing to try anything! And I stumbled onto

this audio book...to heal your subconscious through hypnosis. I always thought

hypnosis was total baloney. So sheepishly I bought the book. I'd play it at

night as I fell asleep and waking up in the morning, for the recommended 21

days.

> >

> > " Just keep an open mind, " the author said. Well I immediately started having

more positive dreams and feeling a little more upbeat, so I thought " it's

certainly not hurting.... " But I was still skeptical it would overcome my

eating. Until day 19.

> >

> > I woke up that day and just felt unusual. It was a very stressful week, so I

totally expected myself to binge. But I was feeling peaceful...so strange. I had

to shop at a place where I get my binge food. At this level of stress, I'm

always COMPULSIVE about getting junk food. But I walked into that store, slowly

went down the junk food aisles eyeing every candy bar and chip bag, and felt no

desire to buy anything. This has NEVER happened to me before.

> >

> > It's like my drive for emotional eating is gone. I've lost the will to

binge. So I've now joined Weight Watchers for the ongoing support. I doubt the

hypnosis cured my bingeing, but it's provided the greatest springboard for me to

develop healthier habits.

> >

> > Here's the bottom line: Adult children of abuse who are naturally more

sensitive, I think just doing the mainstream methods of cognitive work isn't

enough. Why do our siblings deal with the pain so much better than us? Because

we need a different, deeper level of support.

> >

> > I'm starting to think for sensitive people, we need to include techniques

for healing our unconsciousness. It's tough...there's little scientific

understanding of the subconscious. But it affects 90% of our decision-making!

> >

> > So whatever kind of spiritual/religious views you may have, perhaps you can

find some kind of hypnotic prayer/meditation support focusing on the Higher

Power helping you. Or try some professional hypnosis. You may be surprised by

how it helps....

> >

> > Don't give up finding the right help for you!

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I think an element of being raised by a bpd is brainwashing. Sometimes you just

need to re-brainwash yourself in more positive ways. I found writing out

affirmations every day for 10 or 15 minutes a day in the mornings very helpful

at one point as well.

Nada/fada gave you significant messages at vulnerable moments (when you were

developmentally immature and emotionally intense times). You sometimes need to

counter that with opposing messages at vulnerable moments (like when you are

sleeping or near sleep).

Healing sometimes takes every tool we can find.

Take care,

Ashana