Recovering in an Unusual Way

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Hello Everyone,

Ok...since I was a teenager, I've work on recovering from the family BPD. I'm a

really sensitive person. So I turned to religion, moved out of state, studied

family counseling, and did heavy duty therapy for years. I've read, researched,

journaled, talked, prayed and etc to become a more emotionally balanced person.

Everything helped, but as you know, there are deep, deep roots from our

childhood that's nearly impossible to heal. So that

pain/insecurity/depression/anger comes out of us in some self-abusing way.

For me it's been an eating disorder. The binge eating started at 11 years old to

cope with family drama/my pain. I resisted for as long as I could, but finally

became bulimic in my mid-20s. After 18 months of really tough, intense therapy

(revolving around my mom's BPD), I kicked the bulimia...now 2 years free!

But overcoming emotional eating...has been impossible, even after doing all of

this work. When I'm triggered, I'm like a huge freight train going down hill. I

just can't stop myself.

So out of desperation, I was willing to try anything! And I stumbled onto this

audio book...to heal your subconscious through hypnosis. I always thought

hypnosis was total baloney. So sheepishly I bought the book. I'd play it at

night as I fell asleep and waking up in the morning, for the recommended 21

days.

" Just keep an open mind, " the author said. Well I immediately started having

more positive dreams and feeling a little more upbeat, so I thought " it's

certainly not hurting.... " But I was still skeptical it would overcome my

eating. Until day 19.

I woke up that day and just felt unusual. It was a very stressful week, so I

totally expected myself to binge. But I was feeling peaceful...so strange. I had

to shop at a place where I get my binge food. At this level of stress, I'm

always COMPULSIVE about getting junk food. But I walked into that store, slowly

went down the junk food aisles eyeing every candy bar and chip bag, and felt no

desire to buy anything. This has NEVER happened to me before.

It's like my drive for emotional eating is gone. I've lost the will to binge. So

I've now joined Weight Watchers for the ongoing support. I doubt the hypnosis

cured my bingeing, but it's provided the greatest springboard for me to develop

healthier habits.

Here's the bottom line: Adult children of abuse who are naturally more

sensitive, I think just doing the mainstream methods of cognitive work isn't

enough. Why do our siblings deal with the pain so much better than us? Because

we need a different, deeper level of support.

I'm starting to think for sensitive people, we need to include techniques for

healing our unconsciousness. It's tough...there's little scientific

understanding of the subconscious. But it affects 90% of our decision-making!

So whatever kind of spiritual/religious views you may have, perhaps you can find

some kind of hypnotic prayer/meditation support focusing on the Higher Power

helping you. Or try some professional hypnosis. You may be surprised by how it

helps....

Don't give up finding the right help for you!