Nada Messages on Facebook

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Well, it's been a long time since I've posted.

I've been NC from my nada for about 4 years now. In the past she tried emailing

me but I was able to direct her emails straight to the trash. Then she freaked

me out one time by showing up at my front door. I was so terrified at seeing

her standing there I started shaking and felt like I was going to throw up. I

locked myself in the bathroom until she went away. Of course she had to leave a

note along with a " gift " -- some stupid book about some artist I never heard of.

I've since moved from the state and have felt safer as there's been no more

attempts at contact from her -- or so I thought.

Anyhow, I had long ago gone through Facebook and blocked everyone who had her

(fairly common) name. Yesterday, I was checking my messages and accidentially

hit the " other " tab -- which is generally where all my spam goes to.

And there it was. Two messages from her, dated this summer. I didn't read

them, but the physical sense of shock charging through my body at just SEEING

THEM THERE was palpable.

I feel so many different emotions. Fear, mostly. Anger, that she's found

another way of attempting contact even though she KNOWS I don't want to hear

from her ever again. Rage and Shame that she's probably been stalking me on

Facebook for months -- years, possibly -- without my knowing. How typical.

They just LOVE invading your privacy, don't they?

My nada is an evil witch. A disgusting, self-pitying pig who should've had me

removed from her care by CPS. She's turned my whole family against me -- so me

and my son are ostracized, she REALLY gets off on that.

The rage / fear / pain that comes up over some simpering self-serving messages

left by her months ago on Facebook is SHOCKING to me!!!

Anyhow, it does feel better to write about it to people who can understand....

possibly the only ones who really truly DO understand.

Thanks for reading.