Guest guest Posted October 22, 2012 Report Share Posted October 22, 2012 I am going in for a small procedure Wednesday. it is basically to assess the damage done to my bladder from not being able to void urine my whole life (at least until I could take myself to the doctor). I have talked about it here before, i have a muscle condition that effects how my muscles function, and this is one of the nasty symptoms. I am not worried about the procedure, the doctor is amazing. I am happy to be moving forward with all of this because I have needed this treatment my whole life. the part of this that would worry a normal person (one without a nada) is small compared to the emotional crap attached. it is hard because this condition is very emotional for me. Nada used to abuse me every day for the symptoms, so they give me PTSD reactions. I am working hard to fix that and the condition, and things have really improved but there is tons of psychological lag in my healing. this is hard for me because Nada for a long time had me convinced that nothing was wrong with me. which I always questioned, and dealt with the reality of the condition anyway. this is a part of it that is so hard to describe to people. but i get so scared that nothing really is wrong and that people will be mean about it. there is good evidence there is damage, this is just to see how bad it is. I just want to ask for a favor. please pray or send good vibes for me Wednesday morning. this is stressful for me in ways that you all understand. I have no idea how it will be, but I just got done being depressed because of all the treatment I have been doing, and I don't want to go back to that. thanks for all you do, you are lovely people. Meikjn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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