Guest guest Posted February 13, 2008 Report Share Posted February 13, 2008 I am 's wife. He is a wonderful, loving, and committed man but we have sure had our trials. He shared a little bit about our story. I had pain with sex for four years before I realized that something must be wrong or that there might be help out there. During those 4 years, anytime I sought help, I was blown off or it was treated as something else. At the time, I was also struggling with depression and didn't have the drive or correct thought process to seek treatment. Once we figured out what it was with the help of a wonderful Dr. in Milwaukee (Dr. Mickelson), it was a little easier for both of us to cope, I think. I saw her for 3 years with vestibulitis when once again was having a hard time coping with it. So, one day,she took 45 min to explain the up's and down's to us when most Dr.'s just rush you out of the office. She was honest and open about everything. She told us that it may never go away and that surgery is risky as most women still have pain afterwards. At that point she suggested a sex therapist who was helpful in that she helped us see the strong points of our marriage but after a year of counseling we didn't feel like we had gotten anywhere. During this time, I was using Estrace cream every night and taking Aveeno oatmeal baths. They helped a little but with my vestibulitis, I still felt like my husband had a knife and was stabbing me over and over. There were too many times when I felt like I needed to have sex to keep my husband from going insane or getting really depressed. He got very pushy at times and almost didn't seem to accept my " no " . I believe he didn't understand what he was asking of me. Then, because we had just had sex, he would want it again right away thinking that things must be better because I gave in. Meanwhile, I would have rather thrown up than had sex so when he approached me again, I had a difficult time telling him gently but firmly that I wasn't ready yet. I wanted to run away kicking and screaming but I didn't want him to think that I didn't love him either. I think as an answer to prayer, after our son was born last Father's Day, the vestibulitis seems to have vanished. The doc said this could be because the nerves all get stretched and changed during childbirth so it's very possible that it's gone. I don't have much feeling down there but that is SO much better than having pain. Our sex life was starting to revive (up to 1-2x a month with the help of Nortriptyline to help rewire how the nerves feel) when I started having some itching. Dr. Mickelson said that one cause of vestibulitis is having chronic yeast infections so I was very afraid that it would come back. She recommended using gentian violet. In the office, she would " paint " me with it and I would sit under the exam light for 10-15 min so it could dry. At home, I mix 1 part gentian violet to about 10 parts water and douche with it. (If you try this, gentian violet stains everything!!!! It will tattoo you if it gets in an open wound) This has worked well in the past when diflucan or monistat have failed but it didn't work this time. Unfortunately, our insurance has changed and Dr. Mickelson is no longer covered for me so I set out to find a new doc. I got the quick treatment that so many docs do. She sent me home with several refills of diflucan and estrace cream. She said the itching could be from estrogen deficiency while I am still nursing our son. I thought it was quite strange that the itching would start after 7 mos but didn't know what else to do so I tried her therapy. It didn't work so I went back to her for something else. She said the tissue looks very healthy, no signs of vestibulitis and she couldn't even tell where I was itching. She prescribed another steroid cream which gave me hot flashes and made me very hungry so as soon as the itching subsided, I stopped the treatment. I was very happy to find on this website a Dr. writing about discovering how beneficial estrace cream can be in my situation. He said that itching is a normal part of healing and not to treat it as a yeast infection or to use topical steriods. Anyway, with this itching, I was very afraid that the vestibulitis was coming back. I feel like it could come back all to easily and the thought of reliving those painful years just about gave me a panic attack last night. really tried to understand, he's been very supportive and loving, but he also forgets (probably because he didn't experience the pain) how bad it was. We had reached yet another standstill. Neither of us could take it anymore, I was tired of saying no and he was tired of hearing it. I didn't want to be intimate for fear that along with this mysterious itching would come pain. I wanted to wait until I felt better but he seemed to feel like I am just trying to play mind games with him. In his mind, if sex is no longer painful, it must be very enjoyable. It is better now that it was but not enough to cure 7 years of agony in just 7-8 tries). After discussing with him how horrible it was, that the thought of it coming back brings suicidal thoughts to my head, he was again able to be supportive and found several websites, including this one, to help me figure out how to get past the fear so we can start having a more regular sex life. I couldn't deal with it last night, it brought too much anxiety but today, I am happy to know that we're not the only ones suffering. I had a friend at school (I just recently graduated from college) who's sister had vestibulitis and it just went away after two years. I visited a different gynecologist who seemed to think it was all in my head. He said that we should try a different position, one where I'm on top and that this would cure the pain because I would have more control and wouldn't feel trapped. I wanted to smack him. I know there are some fantastic male gynecologists out there but I haven't met any of them. He told me that this rarely lasts longer than a year or two although I'd already had it for 7 years. I didn't go back to him. It was very hard for me to hear about people who got over it so quickly when we had been dealing with it for 7 years. I hope my story is helpful to someone out there. I don't think having a baby will work in every case but it physically helped me. Anyone have any ideas on how to get over the emotional pain/fear of restarting an intimate relationship? 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