Head games, tired of the head games...

December 10, 2012

OMG, please pray for me that I find a good contract soon. As you may or not

know I moved up to " help " NPD nada about 1.5 years ago when she fell ill.

She was ill and at my step-dads urging I moved up. I thought I could find a

job rather easily but that has not proved true. Unfortunately, I had to

accept a job 6 years ago that was out of my normal scope and got caught up

in the whole " economy " problem. If I don't hold out now for the right

contract to launch from I am in trouble, both in that I will never get back

to my real career and never get back to the money I need to be making at 46

years old. Nada's position in life is to make herself the victim of ME and

to jab and poke and play all the games she can. Victim, victim , victim!!!

She is sick today and I have bent over backwards waiting on her, caring for

her, asking what she needs or wants. I asked her over and over if she wanted

some homemade chicken soup for dinner and over and over I got the dismissive

response of " I don't know what I want for dinner. we'll see what I feel

like " . Soooo when I came time for dinner I prepared what step dad wanted and

announced it over and over again. Soooo dinner comes, and stepdad asks her,

" are you having soup? " . Her response, " I don't know, nobody consulted me

as to what I want " . OMG, is she for real? I am sooooooo sick of being abused

and blamed for it. Please PRAY I find a contract soon and can get the hell

out of here before I lose my cool and my mind. I really am starting to feel

desperate on a number of levels.

She is only confrontational to me when step-dad is not around and is an

amazing BITCH when she can be. She knows he will step in here and there to

tell her she is wrong ( I am grateful as he is the first person in my life

to see the dynamic) but now that he has, it is her sole purpose in life to

defame and degrade me.

Prey.

Thanks,

" To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only

plan, but also believe. " -Anatole France

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