Guest guest Posted December 15, 2012 Report Share Posted December 15, 2012 I know people have made recommendations in the past but I thought it would be easier to ask again than to search the last 3000 entries. Because of my discovery of BPD this past summer and researching PDs in general and realizing my enDad is most likely a Schizoid I've been online reading more about emotional and verbal child abuse and the results it has on the adult-hood of the child. I, as you can imagine, show a great deal of those symptoms. My insurance doesn't cover my therapist and after a couple visits I'm not sure she was the right one for me. I wondered if there are good book recommendations on dealing/healing as and adult. My main concern is with my lack of memory of my childhood - although my journals relate how much I hated my nada growing up and her verbal abuse. I now know my fada was emotionally abusive via ignoring/neglect since he has no ability for empathy or love himself. I have never dwelled on the past, never had a desire to go back and remember and wasn't really interested in self-help before I went NC, but because nada kept apologizing for the childhood I can't remember and telling me I just HAVE to forgive her it really piques my interest in what actually happened she is so apologetic for (nevermind apologizing for the last 20 years of verbal abuse I DO remember!!) Thanks for any suggestions - I'd rather work through it on my own if I can avoid paying $100/visit for a good therapist. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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