Guest guest Posted January 2, 2006 Report Share Posted January 2, 2006 I have been doing some honest soul searching the past 45 minutes. With God's help and the listening ears of my priest and a couple from my church via email (I won't get a response for a day or so). It was hard. I talked about my situation and how the truck breaking down has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The use on the loop of the word "enabler" helped me to face some things that I have known in my heart for awhile but haven't been willing to face. This whole situation with my living arrangements, dependence on my daughter and her family, my depression, my taking care of the grandkids, etc, it is all tied up into a situation where I have allowed myself to withdraw into a cocoon and not have to deal with life for over a year. In the cocoon I withdraw further into my needlework, crocheting, reading or overeating. Its a pretend place where I don't have to make decisions or face life, and to be honest I have become too comfortable here-mentally, emotionally, physically. It is time to take steps and learn to fly again. I don't need to analyze, go to counseling, take more meds. I need to get off my butt, get a job and stop using the situation here as an excuse for being so unhappy. It is my responsiblity to do something at this point. I will be healthier, mentally, emotionally and physically. So after this, my second email where I have been pretty honest, could someone please send me a cyberhug and an attagirl. I need support- and in line with the previous emails of the evening, support pantyhose and/or a support bra won't do. I CAN and WILL do this. I will find a job, and quit living in fear. Its time. This bird is gonna fly!!!!!!!!!!! TOPS hugs and smiles, Beth Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 2, 2006 Report Share Posted January 2, 2006 Beth, I don't know you very well yet...but you have just took one huge step to step out and do something ......and with the help of your Savior above and all of us here...you have all the support you need....It takes a Big person to stand up and say this is it and I am going to start on a new journey.....You know when I loss my left leg in 1997 ...I started on a new journey and it took me 2 years just to get over the 14 operations I had in 4 months.....I was in the hospital for 4 long months....lying on my back......But God was also there with me....and I reminded him every day that by his stripes I would be healed.....it was a hard path to follow but I realized that God took my leg and not my life.....we all have things we go thru ...but it is how we come thru them that counts....it won't be a easy path for you....but all you have to have is the faith that you CAN AND WILL DO THIS....and your battle is half won already.....I am here for you and if you need a shoulder to cry on ...then I'm here....You know God can bring us thru everything we go thru...all we have to do is ask him to be there and believe that he is there.....I talked to God all the time I was laying on my back.....and he is with me today and he will be there tomorrow no matter day or night he is always there......waiting and hoping I will talk to him....talk to him like you would if your best friend was sitting right beside you....give it to God and then wait for the answer.....and if you need me ....I'm here too....waiting to CHEER YOU ON TO A GREAT VICTORY!!!!!....Have a Good night and know that we are all here for you.......Hugs Janice In Mineola I need a cyberhug!! I have been doing some honest soul searching the past 45 minutes. With God's help and the listening ears of my priest and a couple from my church via email (I won't get a response for a day or so). It was hard. I talked about my situation and how the truck breaking down has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The use on the loop of the word "enabler" helped me to face some things that I have known in my heart for awhile but haven't been willing to face. This whole situation with my living arrangements, dependence on my daughter and her family, my depression, my taking care of the grandkids, etc, it is all tied up into a situation where I have allowed myself to withdraw into a cocoon and not have to deal with life for over a year. In the cocoon I withdraw further into my needlework, crocheting, reading or overeating. Its a pretend place where I don't have to make decisions or face life, and to be honest I have become too comfortable here-mentally, emotionally, physically. It is time to take steps and learn to fly again. I don't need to analyze, go to counseling, take more meds. I need to get off my butt, get a job and stop using the situation here as an excuse for being so unhappy. It is my responsiblity to do something at this point. I will be healthier, mentally, emotionally and physically. So after this, my second email where I have been pretty honest, could someone please send me a cyberhug and an attagirl. I need support- and in line with the previous emails of the evening, support pantyhose and/or a support bra won't do. I CAN and WILL do this. I will find a job, and quit living in fear. Its time. This bird is gonna fly!!!!!!!!!!! TOPS hugs and smiles, Beth No virus found in this incoming message.Checked by AVG Free Edition.Version: 7.1.371 / Virus Database: 267.14.10/218 - Release Date: 1/2/2006 No virus found in this outgoing message. Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.1.371 / Virus Database: 267.14.10/218 - Release Date: 1/2/2006 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 3, 2006 Report Share Posted January 3, 2006 Beth, Hugs to you for your courage and HONESTY. You have taken the first 2 steps to changing into a new you. admitting you can't do it aloneand setting up a plan. 2006 is going to be your year...we are all here for you, 'cuz we love ya girl! Hugs, Re: I need a cyberhug!! Beth, ouare doing a great job. I wish you all the luck in the world in finding that job. Just take care of yourself and remember we all love you and are here for you. Love ya Beth wrote: I have been doing some honest soul searching the past 45 minutes. With God's help and the listening ears of my priest and a couple from my church via email (I won't get a response for a day or so). It was hard. I talked about my situation and how the truck breaking down has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The use on the loop of the word "enabler" helped me to face some things that I have known in my heart for awhile but haven't been willing to face. This whole situation with my living arrangements, dependence on my daughter and her family, my depression, my taking care of the grandkids, etc, it is all tied up into a situation where I have allowed myself to withdraw into a cocoon and not have to deal with life for over a year. In the cocoon I withdraw further into my needlework, crocheting, reading or overeating. Its a pretend place where I don't have to make decisions or face life, and to be honest I have become too comfortable here-mentally, emotionally, physically. It is time to take steps and learn to fly again. I don't need to analyze, go to counseling, take more meds. I need to get off my butt, get a job and stop using the situation here as an excuse for being so unhappy. It is my responsiblity to do something at this point. I will be healthier, mentally, emotionally and physically. So after this, my second email where I have been pretty honest, could someone please send me a cyberhug and an attagirl. I need support- and in line with the previous emails of the evening, support pantyhose and/or a support bra won't do. I CAN and WILL do this. I will find a job, and quit living in fear. Its time. This bird is gonna fly!!!!!!!!!!! TOPS hugs and smiles, Beth__________ NOD32 1.1349 (20060102) Information __________This message was checked by NOD32 antivirus system.http://www.eset.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 3, 2006 Report Share Posted January 3, 2006 Congratulations, Beth, you are on your way to happiness. The first step to correcting a problem is to admit and face the problem -- and that you have done honestly. My prayers are with you that you will find a job soon and it will turn your life around and it will be a much better 2006 for you. Good luck and please keep us informed. We're proud of your decision and wish you great success. God Bless, Deanna I need a cyberhug!! I have been doing some honest soul searching the past 45 minutes. With God's help and the listening ears of my priest and a couple from my church via email (I won't get a response for a day or so). It was hard. I talked about my situation and how the truck breaking down has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The use on the loop of the word "enabler" helped me to face some things that I have known in my heart for awhile but haven't been willing to face. This whole situation with my living arrangements, dependence on my daughter and her family, my depression, my taking care of the grandkids, etc, it is all tied up into a situation where I have allowed myself to withdraw into a cocoon and not have to deal with life for over a year. In the cocoon I withdraw further into my needlework, crocheting, reading or overeating. Its a pretend place where I don't have to make decisions or face life, and to be honest I have become too comfortable here-mentally, emotionally, physically. It is time to take steps and learn to fly again. I don't need to analyze, go to counseling, take more meds. I need to get off my butt, get a job and stop using the situation here as an excuse for being so unhappy. It is my responsiblity to do something at this point. I will be healthier, mentally, emotionally and physically. So after this, my second email where I have been pretty honest, could someone please send me a cyberhug and an attagirl. I need support- and in line with the previous emails of the evening, support pantyhose and/or a support bra won't do. I CAN and WILL do this. I will find a job, and quit living in fear. Its time. This bird is gonna fly!!!!!!!!!!! TOPS hugs and smiles, Beth Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 3, 2006 Report Share Posted January 3, 2006 Wow!! Thanks. I am wanting to cry (for the good). Today has been much better. Going out and actually trying to get a job did a world of good for me. TOPS hugs and smiles, Bethhj c wrote: Fly as high as you can honey you can do it , the best thing you ever did if open up the way you did , we all have our ups and downs but sometimes dont mention it as we are always to proud to think what others will say, welcome back to the real world good luck your on your way ,,, proud of you Hugs Helen "Glaze, Deanna/Larry" wrote: Congratulations, Beth, you are on your way to happiness. The first step to correcting a problem is to admit and face the problem -- and that you have done honestly. My prayers are with you that you will find a job soon and it will turn your life around and it will be a much better 2006 for you. Good luck and please keep us informed. We're proud of your decision and wish you great success. God Bless, Deanna I need a cyberhug!! I have been doing some honest soul searching the past 45 minutes. With God's help and the listening ears of my priest and a couple from my church via email (I won't get a response for a day or so). It was hard. I talked about my situation and how the truck breaking down has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The use on the loop of the word "enabler" helped me to face some things that I have known in my heart for awhile but haven't been willing to face. This whole situation with my living arrangements, dependence on my daughter and her family, my depression, my taking care of the grandkids, etc, it is all tied up into a situation where I have allowed myself to withdraw into a cocoon and not have to deal with life for over a year. In the cocoon I withdraw further into my needlework, crocheting, reading or overeating. Its a pretend place where I don't have to make decisions or face life, and to be honest I have become too comfortable here-mentally, emotionally, physically. It is time to take steps and learn to fly again. I don't need to analyze, go to counseling, take more meds. I need to get off my butt, get a job and stop using the situation here as an excuse for being so unhappy. It is my responsiblity to do something at this point. I will be healthier, mentally, emotionally and physically. So after this, my second email where I have been pretty honest, could someone please send me a cyberhug and an attagirl. I need support- and in line with the previous emails of the evening, support pantyhose and/or a support bra won't do. I CAN and WILL do this. I will find a job, and quit living in fear. Its time. This bird is gonna fly!!!!!!!!!!! TOPS hugs and smiles, Beth Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 3, 2006 Report Share Posted January 3, 2006 Thanks, Beth wrote: Beth, ouare doing a great job. I wish you all the luck in the world in finding that job. Just take care of yourself and remember we all love you and are here for you. Love ya Beth wrote: I have been doing some honest soul searching the past 45 minutes. With God's help and the listening ears of my priest and a couple from my church via email (I won't get a response for a day or so). It was hard. I talked about my situation and how the truck breaking down has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. The use on the loop of the word "enabler" helped me to face some things that I have known in my heart for awhile but haven't been willing to face. This whole situation with my living arrangements, dependence on my daughter and her family, my depression, my taking care of the grandkids, etc, it is all tied up into a situation where I have allowed myself to withdraw into a cocoon and not have to deal with life for over a year. In the cocoon I withdraw further into my needlework, crocheting, reading or overeating. Its a pretend place where I don't have to make decisions or face life, and to be honest I have become too comfortable here-mentally, emotionally, physically. It is time to take steps and learn to fly again. I don't need to analyze, go to counseling, take more meds. I need to get off my butt, get a job and stop using the situation here as an excuse for being so unhappy. It is my responsiblity to do something at this point. I will be healthier, mentally, emotionally and physically. So after this, my second email where I have been pretty honest, could someone please send me a cyberhug and an attagirl. I need support- and in line with the previous emails of the evening, support pantyhose and/or a support bra won't do. I CAN and WILL do this. I will find a job, and quit living in fear. Its time. This bird is gonna fly!!!!!!!!!!! TOPS hugs and smiles, Beth Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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