My New Year Fears.....

[Guest guest]

Ya know how I never ask anything of anyone,

unless I’m willing to do it myself right??

Well, I gave all my chapter members a

journal last night and asked them all to be sure to write in it. I’ve

been keeping mine since January 1st.

Anyway, as I was writing in mine this

morning and looking back over the last couple of years – fear and doubt

hit me pretty hard. I want, no, I NEED to reach my goal this year and I

don’t have a clue how the heck I’m gonna do it.

It seems like no matter what I do, I can’t

seem to get the weight off like I should – I lose pretty good and then

dink around in a 10 pound area for a while, then lose a little more and dink

around, then lose a little more and dink around some more – why??

Why is it that some people can consistently

lose while others play the yo-yo game? What’s the secret?

I have several reasons for wanting to reach

goal by the end of this year – but one of the biggest is that it’s

really important to me that my son be at my graduation and I know that SRD 2007

will be the last SRD that he goes to with me…..from there he will be 18

and taking off on his own life. Before he does that I just want him to

see me graduate – does that make any sense?

This pissin’ around with 20 or 30

pounds a year just isn’t cutting it!! And I’m terrified that

if I DON’T make it – I’ll just quit – I almost gave up

last year when I didn’t hit CCIW like I wanted to……sigh…..

So….what’s the answer??

How the heck am I going to pull off a 70 pound loss this year???? I know

it’s possible! I know it can be done……others have done

it for years, but not me!

There’s no rhyme or reason for good

weeks vs bad weeks – I can work hard, do all the right things and have a

gain…..and then like this week – just not care, don’t pay

attention to what I’m doing and have a loss – none of it makes

sense, so how am I to plan for losses??

So…..there’s my journal entry

for the day and my fears exposed for all to see……

Melody