Re: I survived the night/trigger maybe,Hey

March 15, 2008

I know it's the real world, and what I am about to say is easier said

then done probably, but sounds like your at the point though to at least start

protecting yourself from this man. I wonder if you can get out would he realize

what he has done, lost, etc. get whatever help he needs to stop the abusive

behavior? I think he thinks he has one over on you, and you figures because you

have this disease will always need him so has no fear that you may get away from

him. I hope things get better for you, and your pain from teeth continue to

heal. And will pray that you have the strength to remove yourelf from the

abuse, if not totally at least like you said each time he decides he has the

right to have you be HIS batting post. Take Care, wishing you lighter days

Sharon

Andersen wrote: , I'm glad you made

it through the night...I sure don't know what to tell you about hubby...I hope

you get through the weekend okay. I know, stress is not a good thing for

us...but there is no shortage of it, it would seem.

Take care of yourself,

/Mi

I survived the night/trigger maybe

Morning,

Thanks everyone for your prayers and support. It means so much to me. I survived

the night. Not much sleep as the pain kept waking me up and of course last

night's stress did not help.

It is not up to me to try and change this man or for me to change to please him.

He needs to do this for himself. I refuse to be his punching bag any longer

verbally, mentally or otherwise. Now, what to do about it? that is my next step.

I am going to remove myself from the situation everytime it arises. I cannot

handle it and my disease cannot handle it either. So where does that leave me?

Not sure yet.

I wish someone would tell this man a thing or two about what a real husband is.

How I deserve to be treated. His Mom dod not raise him this way and if alive,

would not support it. So where does it come from? I am not taking the blame or

trying to smooth thing over to suit him. He is an abuser. Plain and simple.

After all he put me through last night, he finally coughed up the money for pet

food. I knew he had some.

My pain level is quite high still. I do not know what is gonna solve it at this

point. I do know I cannot stand much more.

Hope everyone is doing well. I could not do this without all of you. awesome

friends is what I have. A true blessing.

Hugs,

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