Re: jolts at night and having a really hard time

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I does sound like nerve issues. I have a lot of clitoral issues also.

Are you seeing Dr. sometime? You would probably benefit from

Neurontin or Lyrica or something in that category. I would have

severe spasms that would be very painful and keep me awake.

Mindy

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> hi all,

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i get these jolts into the clitoris.

> erin

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[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I can't quite relate to your clitoral problem--I have different pain

issues, but what you said about being only 23 and being scared about

having these issues for the rest of your life really resonated with

me. I'm 20, and I was just diagnosed with VLP and VD, and I'm feeling

the same way. (actually, I can relate to the not-knowing as well,

because I have a biopsy on thursday to confirm things--which I must

tell you, I'm totally freaking out about.)

I've been having trouble sleeping, too. Do you think doing relaxing

breathing exercises could help? (I have no idea, but they seem to help

me sometimes.)

I have told some of my friends, and my parents know to some degree,

but I know what it feels like to worry that people are sick of dealing

with you. I'm sure if you told them how you feel, they would dispel

your worries about it. If you want, you can feel free to email me, I

can try to listen and help, too.

I don't have a boyfriend, either, and some days that's what I'm most

upset about. I just want someone to love me even though I have these

issues, and to tell me it's all going to be okay--to go to

appointments with me, who I can call when I've had a painful day, and

get hugs and kisses for my troubles. I don't know if you feel the same

way, but that's what I've been experiencing.

It is certainly difficult to believe that someone, somewhere, will

love you, and love to be with you, even though you feel so horrible.

I think it's possible, though I certainly have days where my doubts

are pretty strong.

What I've found to be helpful--just generally in my life, to keep

myself sane, is to go out and do things I love, even by myself. I

happen to love swing dancing, and last week, I went, by myself, to a

place I'd never been, and had a great time. (Plus, there are lots of

cute boys to dance with!) But getting exercise like that is helpful

for me.

I hope I've helped! (I know I know very little about the medical

aspect, but I am dealing with the personal aspect, too.)

Hugs, and stay strong! You'll get through this!

Cara

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> hi all,

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> i'm having a very difficult time going to sleep right now and am on

the verge of just losing

> every single ounce of hope. i think i am getting worse because

lately when i go to bed

> and my body relaxes, i get these jolts into the clitoris. they

don't hurt and i don't really

> know how to describe them, but they wake me up and eventually my

nerves just end up

> feeling aroused and very stimulated. i don't know why i only get

this at night, and it's not

> when i'm laying in bed watching tv, it's as i'm falling asleep. i

have no idea what this

> means and have a feeling it's not good. does anyone else ever

experience this?

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> all in all i am just breaking down. i just keep thinking this is a

horrible dream and that i

> just have to wake up, but it never happens. i'm only 23 and can't

even fathom living the

> rest of my life like this. i feel like i've tried everything, and i

don't even know what my

> problem is. at first i thought it was pudendal neuralgia but i'm

questioning that lately.

> then i thought maybe it's lichen planus under the hood, but with

these jolts/arousal

> feeling at night now, i'm not sure how that could be from lichen. i

feel so alone through

> all of this. my friend and my mom knows about it, but i think

they're tired of dealing with

> me and don't know what to say so i just don't talk to them about it

anymore. i don't have

> a boyfriend to talk to about it, and don't see how i could ever

start a relationship with this

> problem. i thought it was bad enough before, but now with these

jolts/arousal like feeling

> at night it's getting hard for me to get any sleep, when sleep never

used to bother me

> before, another reason that i think i'm getting worse. i know

everyone on here has gone

> through times like this, but i just don't even know how to stay sane

anymore. imagine

> trying to go to sleep and having jolts into your clitoris that end

up making you feel

> extremely aroused that doesn't go away. sleep used to be my only

time to escape but now

> i don't even have that anymore. i keep thinking that i don't

understand how something

> that is used solely for pleasure is causing me so much pain and

depression. i just feel like

> my life is over and for the next 50 years i'll be living in hell. i

just keep pondering over

> why i get like this at night as i'm falling asleep and i've got

nothing. i really don't think i

> can keep pushing along for much longer before i go into complete and

utter depression,

> not to mention having a very difficult time sleeping.

>

> today's going to be a wonderful day at work and school, since i'm

pretty sure i'll be in pain

> and will be exhausted from only getting a couple of hours of sleep,

if any at all.

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> erin

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