rambling

January 8, 2002

The value of a life is always most clearly expressed by those who grieve.

I add my grief and admiration for Ron and his family.

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Re blood pressure: I worry more about high blood pressure, have little

bruizes appear on legs and arms after every spike. The worst low blood

pressure does is make me foggy and pass out, provided it happens in a safe

place it's ok. Warm body temp combined with low BP seems to be worst,

anyone venture thoughts on why?

Daughter got results of MRI back, no tumours, no MS - it did show

" extensive dramatic sinus disease " , she got ten days of antibiotics. Her

Trigeminal Neuralgia is controlled adequately for now by the Neurontin, so

no surgery for now. She's very relieved, as am I.

The generally low BP, is that why adrenalin surges resulting from fear or

anger feel so good? Maybe I should sky dive again (I don't like to be

angry). Heated discussions would work, but hard to do by yourself.

Only negatives to the adrenalin - makes my mouth cork dry for hours, and my

body exhausted for two days or so.

Got some sleep last night (5 hours), still need to catch up more. I feel a

painting coming on, bought a couple of new brushes.

When I noticed the mental foggs, I was terribly afraid I'd lose my capacity

to think and process, I copied dozens of quotes and physics equations

flashing them randomly on a screensave (Webshots) to keep my brain alive.

Whether it does any good I don't know, it did make me feel I had some

control and banished some of the fears of not having a certain diagnosis.

Thought I'd share my favourite quote.

" Though the Life Force supplies us with its own purpose, it has no other

brains to work with than those it has painfully and imperfectly evolved in

our heads. "

Bernard Shaw

Fits MSA very well. Take care.

aletta mes, vancouver, bc canada

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