Guest guest Posted November 3, 2006 Report Share Posted November 3, 2006 Hi all, I just returned from my 18th radiation almost the half way mark! This may be long but ill try to shorten it a bit. Yesterday i walked in the cancer center and wasnt in the best of spirits..sat down alone against the wall and the only other person in the room was this woman who looked so much like my grandmother whom i was so very close to that died 15 years ago. She looked over at me from across the room as i looked at her. Tears started to swell as gawd i would love my grandma whom we called Litzie to be here if just for a moment to give her a hug. The woman said nothing and i said " how are you doing over there " as she was against the opposite wall across the room. Was just her and i in a room that was usually crowded. She said in the most precious voice..so sweet..im trying to stay positive if this wig would just sit on my head right!! Then she giggled but i could sense her nervousness. Then my name was called in the room and she said good luck to you as i left. Well when i was finished there she still sat in that corner alone. I put my purse down and walked over to her she said " oh are you alright " not knowing why i was approaching her. I said i will be once i give you a big hug. She held on to me then when she let go i said to her that her voice is so sweet and soothing that she reminded me of my grandma. Her reply to me was " yes my voice is like a little girls and i feel like i am that little girl many years ago still inside as i sit here and beg for God's mercy. I was so touched. She told me about her lung cancer that was cleared just finished chemo and that now they have to radiate her brain for fear of mets. She listened to my words so intently...she was about 75 years old. told me as i left i hope we see each other again. TOday i went in for my appt. and there she sat in the same spot. She looked at me with those eyes almost like a little girl needing comfort so i got up and sat with her. She was hooked to an oxygen machine and she said to me " im not alright " i said " ohh " and then said " but i will be once you give me a hug " !! The same words i had said to her the day b4...I hate this disease but i am so grateful to meeting these woman having the human connection from the inside that wouldnt have ever happened. I dont think about material things or traffic or trivial crap its like a different reality has been opened up to me to experience. Perhaps this is silver lining around this dark cloud...take care all hugs kassy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2006 Report Share Posted November 3, 2006 I met a few people during radiation in 2004 and one I even invited for Christmas Dinner that year (she was a widow.) It is good for the soul to share. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2006 Report Share Posted November 3, 2006 Could not have said it better..... a silver lining around a dark cloud. I feel that way. I have heard some say (and they are entitled to how they feel and what they say) that having breast cancer is the best the thing that ever happened to them. I could not agree with that even though many good things have come from this illness for me, but the silver lining in a dark cloud makes so much more sense and really says what I feel. I, too, have had many touching moments like the one you had in the last couple days... and those are very uplifting and precious moments. Thanks for sharing your day with us. Barb Michigan just wanted to share Hi all, I just returned from my 18th radiation almost the half way mark! This may be long but ill try to shorten it a bit. Yesterday i walked in the cancer center and wasnt in the best of spirits..sat down alone against the wall and the only other person in the room was this woman who looked so much like my grandmother whom i was so very close to that died 15 years ago. She looked over at me from across the room as i looked at her. Tears started to swell as gawd i would love my grandma whom we called Litzie to be here if just for a moment to give her a hug. The woman said nothing and i said " how are you doing over there " as she was against the opposite wall across the room. Was just her and i in a room that was usually crowded. She said in the most precious voice..so sweet..im trying to stay positive if this wig would just sit on my head right!! Then she giggled but i could sense her nervousness. Then my name was called in the room and she said good luck to you as i left. Well when i was finished there she still sat in that corner alone. I put my purse down and walked over to her she said " oh are you alright " not knowing why i was approaching her. I said i will be once i give you a big hug. She held on to me then when she let go i said to her that her voice is so sweet and soothing that she reminded me of my grandma. Her reply to me was " yes my voice is like a little girls and i feel like i am that little girl many years ago still inside as i sit here and beg for God's mercy. I was so touched. She told me about her lung cancer that was cleared just finished chemo and that now they have to radiate her brain for fear of mets. She listened to my words so intently...she was about 75 years old. told me as i left i hope we see each other again. TOday i went in for my appt. and there she sat in the same spot. She looked at me with those eyes almost like a little girl needing comfort so i got up and sat with her. She was hooked to an oxygen machine and she said to me " im not alright " i said " ohh " and then said " but i will be once you give me a hug " !! The same words i had said to her the day b4...I hate this disease but i am so grateful to meeting these woman having the human connection from the inside that wouldnt have ever happened. I dont think about material things or traffic or trivial crap its like a different reality has been opened up to me to experience. Perhaps this is silver lining around this dark cloud...take care all hugs kassy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2006 Report Share Posted November 3, 2006 -How touching! Two angels meant to meet each other, for support and comfort. So sweet Kassy - thanks for sharing that with us. I am amazed at the friendships that developed during my radiation treatments. There were a group of 5 of us, who were all there, every day, at the same approximate time, sharing different kinds of cancers, different outcomes and prognosis, same fears and concerns. I've kept in touch with this group - and can imagine that i will continue to do this for a long time to come. It is indeed, a silver lining. Take good care - keep strong - you're half way there! Ellen -- In breastcancer2 , " kplattus " wrote: > > Hi all, > > I just returned from my 18th radiation almost the half way mark! > This may be long but ill try to shorten it a bit. > > Yesterday i walked in the cancer center and wasnt in the best of > spirits..sat down alone against the wall and the only other person > in the room was this woman who looked so much like my grandmother > whom i was so very close to that died 15 years ago. She looked over > at me from across the room as i looked at her. Tears started to > swell as gawd i would love my grandma whom we called Litzie to be > here if just for a moment to give her a hug. The woman said nothing > and i said " how are you doing over there " as she was against the > opposite wall across the room. Was just her and i in a room that was > usually crowded. She said in the most precious voice..so sweet..im > trying to stay positive if this wig would just sit on my head > right!! Then she giggled but i could sense her nervousness. Then my > name was called in the room and she said good luck to you as i left. > Well when i was finished there she still sat in that corner alone. I > put my purse down and walked over to her she said " oh are you > alright " not knowing why i was approaching her. I said i will be > once i give you a big hug. She held on to me then when she let go i > said to her that her voice is so sweet and soothing that she > reminded me of my grandma. Her reply to me was " yes my voice is > like a little girls and i feel like i am that little girl many years > ago still inside as i sit here and beg for God's mercy. I was so > touched. She told me about her lung cancer that was cleared just > finished chemo and that now they have to radiate her brain for fear > of mets. She listened to my words so intently...she was about 75 > years old. told me as i left i hope we see each other again. > > TOday i went in for my appt. and there she sat in the same spot. She > looked at me with those eyes almost like a little girl needing > comfort so i got up and sat with her. She was hooked to an oxygen > machine and she said to me " im not alright " i said " ohh " and then > said " but i will be once you give me a hug " !! The same words i had > said to her the day b4...I hate this disease but i am so grateful to > meeting these woman having the human connection from the inside that > wouldnt have ever happened. I dont think about material things or > traffic or trivial crap its like a different reality has been opened > up to me to experience. Perhaps this is silver lining around this > dark cloud...take care all hugs kassy > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2006 Report Share Posted November 3, 2006 Kassy, what a sweet story! You're so right that it's those human connections that keep us going. Give your 2nd grandma a hug for me the next time you see her take care, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 6, 2006 Report Share Posted November 6, 2006 Wow Kassy, I was there in that room with you, my God, now my eyes will be all puffy for tap class tomorrow morning. I miss my grandma too and sometimes I cry when I see really old people. I want to go up to them and help them with their shopping or when they're getting into their cars but am afraid that will make them feel helpless. Next time I am just going to do it. Luv K ttus wrote: Hi all, I just returned from my 18th radiation almost the half way mark! This may be long but ill try to shorten it a bit. Yesterday i walked in the cancer center and wasnt in the best of spirits..sat down alone against the wall and the only other person in the room was this woman who looked so much like my grandmother whom i was so very close to that died 15 years ago. She looked over at me from across the room as i looked at her. Tears started to swell as gawd i would love my grandma whom we called Litzie to be here if just for a moment to give her a hug. The woman said nothing and i said " how are you doing over there " as she was against the opposite wall across the room. Was just her and i in a room that was usually crowded. She said in the most precious voice..so sweet..im trying to stay positive if this wig would just sit on my head right!! Then she giggled but i could sense her nervousness. Then my name was called in the room and she said good luck to you as i left. Well when i was finished there she still sat in that corner alone. I put my purse down and walked over to her she said " oh are you alright " not knowing why i was approaching her. I said i will be once i give you a big hug. She held on to me then when she let go i said to her that her voice is so sweet and soothing that she reminded me of my grandma. Her reply to me was " yes my voice is like a little girls and i feel like i am that little girl many years ago still inside as i sit here and beg for God's mercy. I was so touched. She told me about her lung cancer that was cleared just finished chemo and that now they have to radiate her brain for fear of mets. She listened to my words so intently...she was about 75 years old. told me as i left i hope we see each other again. TOday i went in for my appt. and there she sat in the same spot. She looked at me with those eyes almost like a little girl needing comfort so i got up and sat with her. She was hooked to an oxygen machine and she said to me " im not alright " i said " ohh " and then said " but i will be once you give me a hug " !! The same words i had said to her the day b4...I hate this disease but i am so grateful to meeting these woman having the human connection from the inside that wouldnt have ever happened. I dont think about material things or traffic or trivial crap its like a different reality has been opened up to me to experience. Perhaps this is silver lining around this dark cloud...take care all hugs kassy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 7, 2006 Report Share Posted November 7, 2006 -Hi a....help them it makes their day when you do ( and makes you feel good also ) tap dancing ohhh that brought back memories from when i used to go to art linkletter dance school long ago...i loved it..and you know what after reading your post i got the phone book out and im going to see where i can take it again..thanks for your post take care...kassy -- In breastcancer2 , a Kleczko wrote: > > Wow Kassy, I was there in that room with you, my God, now my eyes will be all puffy for tap class tomorrow morning. > I miss my grandma too and sometimes I cry when I see really old people. I want to go up to them and help them with their shopping or when they're getting into their cars but am afraid that will make them feel helpless. Next time I am just going to do it. Luv K > > ttus wrote: > Hi all, > > I just returned from my 18th radiation almost the half way mark! > This may be long but ill try to shorten it a bit. > > Yesterday i walked in the cancer center and wasnt in the best of > spirits..sat down alone against the wall and the only other person > in the room was this woman who looked so much like my grandmother > whom i was so very close to that died 15 years ago. She looked over > at me from across the room as i looked at her. Tears started to > swell as gawd i would love my grandma whom we called Litzie to be > here if just for a moment to give her a hug. The woman said nothing > and i said " how are you doing over there " as she was against the > opposite wall across the room. Was just her and i in a room that was > usually crowded. She said in the most precious voice..so sweet..im > trying to stay positive if this wig would just sit on my head > right!! Then she giggled but i could sense her nervousness. Then my > name was called in the room and she said good luck to you as i left. > Well when i was finished there she still sat in that corner alone. I > put my purse down and walked over to her she said " oh are you > alright " not knowing why i was approaching her. I said i will be > once i give you a big hug. She held on to me then when she let go i > said to her that her voice is so sweet and soothing that she > reminded me of my grandma. Her reply to me was " yes my voice is > like a little girls and i feel like i am that little girl many years > ago still inside as i sit here and beg for God's mercy. I was so > touched. She told me about her lung cancer that was cleared just > finished chemo and that now they have to radiate her brain for fear > of mets. She listened to my words so intently...she was about 75 > years old. told me as i left i hope we see each other again. > > TOday i went in for my appt. and there she sat in the same spot. She > looked at me with those eyes almost like a little girl needing > comfort so i got up and sat with her. She was hooked to an oxygen > machine and she said to me " im not alright " i said " ohh " and then > said " but i will be once you give me a hug " !! The same words i had > said to her the day b4...I hate this disease but i am so grateful to > meeting these woman having the human connection from the inside that > wouldnt have ever happened. I dont think about material things or > traffic or trivial crap its like a different reality has been opened > up to me to experience. Perhaps this is silver lining around this > dark cloud...take care all hugs kassy > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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