this is really starting to happen - just sharing

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Well, exactly three weeks after stopping t4 and starting t3 only treatment, my temps dropped today to 36.0c. I think I wrote twice to Nick these past few weeks frusterated that my temps are high, around 36.8-37.0c, so I can't continue to raise t3 (taking now 6.25*6 times a day). Well, he tried to calm me and said that eventually they will drop and I will be able to continue the rais. Seemed so impossible two weeks ago...Well, today I woke up with a terrible depression. Returned home and checked my temps and got the explenation: my temps dropped. Well, with the help of the GREAT mods here I now know that I am depressed because of the dacline in t4. And I have a terrible barin fog - it is taking me forever to write this message! And I am so cold although it is a really warm and sunny

day. Oh, and my body feels so heavy and tired. That is so strange to be so depressed and on the other hand to be happy about this depression that I have been waiting for the last three weeks (?!). During the day I felt something going on in my thyroid. I guess that what I felt is the thyroid trying to produce more t4 because the body demands it. Propably my TSH is sky high right now, because my t3 is still rather low, not being able to depress it. The day after tomorow I am taking my first iron IV, and then I will increase t3 every couple of days in about 6 mcg. Well, it is very easy to read about this process, but when it is really happening it's scary. That is crazy to think that I deliberatly made myself more sick (hypothyroid) by stopping t4. I know it is the way to get better in the long term but it really fells crazy, especially when I am self treating. Well, Just wanted to communicate with someone who knows

about what I am going through, physically and emotionally. Val and Nick - just wanted you both to know that although we don't know you personally, you are a big part of me and my husband's life these days. Every evening we take a half hour walk, and during this walk we often talk about "what Val or Nick wrote in an interesting message today...and Val said this and that etc." . This has been going on for the last couple months and today everything is really starting to happen. Actually some improvement started a about two weeks ago, but today's change feels like we are starting the real and significant change. So far everything you said, dear mods, has happen - the initial temps rais and three weeks later the temps drop, the improvement I felt been on HC (after a year and a half on useless antidepression pills I got from docs here). So what gives me and my husband a great hope is that this "clearence" procedure that we are going

through these days will actually happen. Evevrything else you wrote about happened so far, so why not this. I sware, our longing to this "clearence" day and feeling seems like almost religious... Well, to the mods and forum members, thank you for being there through the crazy process. Depressed and hopefull Ariela