Whining happens but make sure you count the wins!

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We're a support group.... as far as I'm concerned a good hearty whine is

something we all need to do now and again.. and if you feel you are

whining in group too much... whine to me off list.... but remember....I

get to whine back!!!!! topper2@...

I can relate BIG time to your comment about not being able to handle

being sick.... I went for more than a decade without so much as a cold...

I worked full time.... and a LOT of over time on top of that... with one

job I went nearly a year working a double shift 7 days a week... and

still took care of my home (single home owner). Then, all of a sudden I

can't do the simplest things... one of my first major symptoms that had

me go back to the doc after I got sent home with the immortal comment

'you're too fat to be sick' was that suddenly me... a body builder of six

or seven years suddenly couldn't lift the door on my truck.... I could

bench press 250, and got the job I had for the way I carried myself and

my build (I was a money courier) and I get out of my truck for one of the

last stops of the day and suddenly can't open the blasted door???

It really knocks you on your butt... that feeling of power, immortality,

independence is suddenly knocked right out from under you... and it's NOT

a nice feeling... at all.

It takes some serious looking inside... at least it did for me.... the

challenge, the mountain to climb... it becomes your new body. Keep in

mind that I got REALLY run down and severely hypo cuz the docs were under

treating me with a med that my body isn't able to use very well (RAI

killed all of my gland and they were giving me less than half the dose of

Synthroid that I should have gotten for full replacement, besides finding

out since than that it was the Synthroid itself that was causing many of

my major symptoms).... anyway... I remember what it was like the first

day I was able to stand up at the sink and wash dishes.... it was the

first time in many years that I'd been able to do that.... I beat my

monster... I'd found out that I needed a different source for replacement

hormone (natural not synthetic) and learned how to adjust and increase

the doses... in just few months I no longer needed crutches to walk

around the house... and soon after that didn't need them when I went out

either.... but that first time I didn't reach for the chair to wash the

dishes.. that was AWESOME!

I can do stuff now that I hadn't been able to do for years, and never

thought I ever would again... .and I don't take any of it for granted

either.... cuz I won't let myself remember what I beat... and that even

if I'd not as good as I was BEFORE all this thyroid stuff hit.... I'm a

whole lot better now than I was when my meds were off.

I'm not saying any of this to scare you... but, I hope, to give you a

bit of a change of perspective... try not to think of things that are

lost.. try not to think so much of things that you had to change cuz of

need and not choice.. but try to focus on the battles that you win and

count the pluses of the wins over the crap of the loses.

I know.. that sounds lame but a good part of what we are dealing with is

learning our new bodies. They don't work the same as they did..... they

might not every work the same... but if we can find a way to get the most

out of them ... and count those pluses and make them WINS.. it's easier

to get through.

You're just starting your battle... that makes it hard.. things are

changing fast for you now... you don't have all the answers yet. One of

the most frustrating things about a thyroid (or adrenals) going out of

whack is that it doesn't affect everyone exactly the same. So we can't

give you a list of things or a time table and just say this is how it's

gonna go.... But we can be here to listen as you go through this... help

you to remember that you'll get through it.... help you by sharing our

experiences with you and how it turned out for us.... And to help you

learn the stuff you need to know so that what the doc is talking about

makes more sense, so that you know what to ask... and what kinds of

things to expect.

Knowing the mights and maybes, even the scary ones, makes it a whole lot

easier, I think, to be able to deal with stuff from day to day and to

prepare for tomorrow.

You're gonna get evened out.. the swings are going to become less severe

and less frequent... it's gonna get better.... you just have to keep

remembering that you have to hang on tight during this roller coaster

ride so that you can look back one day and know that you made it!

It's been sixteen years for me.... whenever I get bummed now... I look

back... I count my wins... remember the battles and remind myself that I

beat it....

That's why I'm here... to help others beat it too!

Oh... ... could you do me a favor?? Go give your wife a big hug for

being there for ya.... that's a rare and wondrous thing, to have someone

love you so much that they are still there for ya when things aren't at

their best..... You are soooo lucky!

Topper ()

*sliding soap box back in the corner, it's getting too late/dark to be up

there!*

On Sun, 17 Sep 2006 23:19:04 -0000 " guns2sling "

writes:

>

> Topper,

> Thanks for the insight and kind words. I am feeling more emotionally

> stable today.

> I am not only dealing with the imbalances in my endocrine system amd

> brain, but trying to come to grips with being human.

> I have never been ill. I don't have the time or patience for it. The

> more I read, some of this stuff will never go away. I am having to

> make some major attitude changes just to accept that . It is not

> easy.

> I am not ready to accept it yet.

> Thanks for your help. I'm sure we'll talk again. I'm a big whiner

> when I'm ill. I'll try to keep it on topic.

>

> Thanks again.

> bryan.