Guest guest Posted April 12, 1999 Report Share Posted April 12, 1999 Thank you, dear friends, for all your letters... they gave me great comfort, knowing I was simply trying to find a way to express my fears from the surgery, and not that I was going mad... My fears, I think, are still withing reason, as I am not going to let them discourage me from my goal of winning this battle... I am still optimistic, as I know this is the right way to go- true, it has its risks, but staying fat is even more risky and I won't be happy knowing I gave up... You know, two weeks ago my boyfriend and I were up north, in the Galilee, for a few days' vacation... and we went for a hike and it turned out to be a very very difficult climb on the side of a mountain... I kept complianing that it was difficult and we stopped every few minutes so I could catch my breath-- but I didn't give up and we reached the top and it was well worth it ! What I am trying to say is, I may whine and complain and be scared now and all of this makes it easioer for me to handle the difficulties- but i'll be damned if i let a difficulty or a risk stand in my way for happiness and a better life !! I am leaving the option of writing this letter open, to the week prior to surgery. If i still need it then, I will write it and deposit it with my therapist, so as not to show anyone around, including my boyfriend, that I am worried... they should only see a confident, happy face... And if I decide not to write it... well, my family *knows* I love them, I am very close to my extended family (aunts and uncles) and I have spent a lot of time with all of them in the last years... I have no unfinished buisness-- nor any regrets... So for now... I pursue my life with the reassurance I can and will make things better... and tomorrow... tomorrow I should have my date !!! Thank you again, friends, I can think of no better word-- because I feel so close to all of you (even though I must be the baby around here, at 22)-- and I am so grateful for all your support... I have been blessed by a wonderful, supportive family, an amazing partner in my life (who also happens to be cute as hell) and such dear friends on and off line... I could not be more certain in my decision now... ~ Dorit in Israel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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