New diagnosis

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Found small 9mm area on routine mammogram, no family history, quite a

surprise. Positive biopsy. Lumpectomy and axillary node dissection

done Monday, still have drain. Just want my life back, it will never

be back. Still have chemo and radiation to do. What is that like? I

think I can handle it but can't stand the thought of the hair loss

thing. Say most are cancer free, 80% for next ten years, but then

what after that. I'm only 49, thought I had some time before dealing

with a chronic illness. Worked in hospitals all my life, seen the

worst of the worst. Currently a Nurse Practitioner, a profession I

truly love, but needed more time to go down that path. Whirlwind of

diagnosis, tests, results, etc. Like all of us, I've been radiated,

nucelated, poked, etc. I'm tired, I want my other life back. I'm

scared and alone at times, because my fiance works nights. Lots of

phone calls, but not the same as someone being home.