does clearence really excists? - need some moral support here

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I am on week 6 of t3 only, taking about 60 mcg t3 a day.For a few days I have this feeling that the clearence thing doesn't really exists. The thought that in 6 weeks I will stop being horased, depressed, tired etc' just doesn't seem logic to me. And the fact that non of the doctors in my country know/use this test adds to the dream-like feeling I have regarding this medical process. Non of the doctors here knew how to help me when I was bedridden for months. They said there is nothing to be done about this chronic fatigue situation. And on the other hand, everything that the mods here advised me to do actually helped. At the beginning of this year I functioned about 20% of what I used to be. Now, before clearence (5.5 ratio) and after entering 35 mg of HC to my dayly routine, I

can say I an about 65%-70% of what I used to be. The advices I got here reliefed a lot of my suffering, and I have no reason not to believe them about the clearence process a head of me. BUT, I still cannot grasp the idea that these tiny t3 pills have the power to bring back to life the real me - the one who was happy to wake up in the morning, who loved to dance and travel. I think that until it will actually happen I will not believe it, no more than I believe in magic or in santa. Well, this perception on things leaves me in despair: I have no expectation that something is about to change for the better. Which offcourse leaves me depresed all day long. I wonder if all of you, fellow reversed, share the same feelings as I have. I would be glad if you could share with me how are you coping with all of this mentally. Do you really believe with all your that this medical process, which is unfamiliar to the common doctor, really does

excists and works? Are you optimistic and happy because hypo days are about to be over or are you skeptical as I am?. I am so skeptical that if I would wake up tomorow (after a good night sleep - thanks to my new friend called HC) and my husband will laugh at me telling me that there is no such a thing as RT3, I would believe him. I guess he could say that my sub-concious invented the whole RT3 concept inorder to protect me from the devastating thought that there is no cure to my CFS. And if there is no RT3 than is a fiction of my imagination. OMG! I have just realized that in on of my most favorite movies, Fight Club, the main character creates an imaginary person called also ! AAHH! Well, that was a mental reliefe, getting this out of my system. I believe I owe you some money now (how much does an hour at the psychologist costs at your counrty?). well, now everyone in the forum now that I am

crazy. who here is carzy as I am? Really, thanks for listening. I will shut up now, go back to my sofa, checking temps and counting weeks. Ariela