RE: I survived the night/trigger maybe TIGGER

[Guest guest]

THIS IS MAY I REALLY AM AND HAVE NOT LIKED TO SEE NIGHTS COME FOR SOME TIME,

THE MINUTE I LAY DOWN TO SLEEP THE PAIN COMES OUT HOT AND HEAVY. I TOSS AND

TURN TRYING TO ELIMINATE IT NOW IN MY HIP BUTTCHEEK AND RT LOWER BACK, AND I

THINK WHY I DON'T SLEEP IS I GET MYSELF SO AFRAID THAT THE MIN I MAY DOZE OF I

WILL NOT BE ABLE TO MOVE BECAUSE THE PAIN BECOMES CRIPPLING!, IF I DON'T SLEEP

BUT LAY ON THE BED IT DOESN'T GET LIKE THAT?? I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSE TO BE

RELAXED WHEN ASLEEP? I DON'T EVEN PUT MY CPAP MACHINE ON ANYMORE AS I CAN'T GET

IT OFF QUICK ENOUGH WHEN I GET SO DRIED OUT AND FEEL LIKE I AM CHOKING. HOPE

YOU A BETTER NIGHT TIME FUTURE AHEAD. TAKE CARE SHARON

Tigger wrote: Nights are so difficult.

I don't sleep well at night and I'm usually in

more pain. I took a long nap this afternoon because I was up most of the

night.

Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island

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From: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

[mailto:Fibromyalgia_Support_Group ] On Behalf Of

Andersen

Sent: Saturday, March 15, 2008 3:33 PM

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

Subject: Re: I survived the night/trigger maybe

, I'm glad you made it through the night...I sure don't know what to

tell you about hubby...I hope you get through the weekend okay. I know,

stress is not a good thing for us...but there is no shortage of it, it would

seem.

Take care of yourself,

/Mi

I survived the night/trigger maybe

Morning,

Thanks everyone for your prayers and support. It means so much to me. I

survived the night. Not much sleep as the pain kept waking me up and of

course last night's stress did not help.

It is not up to me to try and change this man or for me to change to please

him. He needs to do this for himself. I refuse to be his punching bag any

longer verbally, mentally or otherwise. Now, what to do about it? that is my

next step. I am going to remove myself from the situation everytime it

arises. I cannot handle it and my disease cannot handle it either. So where

does that leave me? Not sure yet.

I wish someone would tell this man a thing or two about what a real husband

is. How I deserve to be treated. His Mom dod not raise him this way and if

alive, would not support it. So where does it come from? I am not taking the

blame or trying to smooth thing over to suit him. He is an abuser. Plain and

simple.

After all he put me through last night, he finally coughed up the money for

pet food. I knew he had some.

My pain level is quite high still. I do not know what is gonna solve it at

this point. I do know I cannot stand much more.

Hope everyone is doing well. I could not do this without all of you. awesome

friends is what I have. A true blessing.

Hugs,