FOR ALL WHO READ THIS BOARD...................

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JUST REMEMBER, GOD LOVES ALL OF US SO MUCH. HE IS CONTINUALLY

BLESSING US NO MATTER HOW WE HATE THIS DISEASE. GOD HAS PLANNED OUR

LIVES FOR HIS WILL TO BE DONE WITH EACH OF US AND DON'T FORGET, WE

WOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE IF IT WEREN'T FOR HIM AND HIM ALONE.

I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE WAY I WAS RAISED BY MY PARENTS, GOOD AND BAD

AND EACH THING WE EXPERIENCE EACH DAY IS US " GROWING " IN GOD'S PLAN

FOR US, NO MATTER IF WE KNOW WHAT THAT IS OR NOT, IS NOT IMPORTANT,

THERE IS NO TOMORROW, JUST TODAY. WE MUST LOVE IT TO PIECES, GOOD OR

BAD, AND JUST KNOW THAT WHEN GOD IS READY WE WILL JOIN HIM, LOOK DOWN

ON YOU, ALL OF YOU AND TELL YOU HOW WONDERFUL IT REALLY IS AND FOR

YOU TO THOROUGHLY EACH AND EVERY BREATH WE ARE GIVEN.

LAST NIGHT I WOKE UP AT 4:45 AND I COULD NOT BREATHE AT ALL. IN OR

OUT. COULD'T FIND MY CANNULA, I WAS TOO WEAK TO REACH FOR EARL,

COULDN'T CALL OUT EITHER, OR BREATHE. FOUND THE CANNULA SECONDS

LATER AND AFTER A MIN OR SO, GOT UP AND TURNED IT UP TO 9. I WAS SO

FRIGHTENED, BUT THOUGHT THAT GOD HAD COME TO TAKE ME THEN. IT SEEMED

SO VERY VERY CLOSE FOR ME. I AM FINE TODAY BUT VERY VERY VULNERABLE

TO FEELINGS. MY FAMILY IS WONDERFUL AND SO THOUGHTFUL. I JUST

SOMETIMES FEEL I AM NOT LONG AWAY, BUT THAT IS GOD'S TURN NEXT. I

TRY MY BEST TO DO WHAT I SHOULD.

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THE ANESTHESIOLOGIST FROM MY EYE SURGURY CALLED ME THIS AFTERNOON AND

SHE WANTED TO KNOW HOW I WAS FEELING AND IF I HAD ANY PROBLEMS, I

SAID NO AND THAT IT WAS GETTING BETTER EVERY DAY. I HAVE BEEN VERY

FAITHFUL WITH MY DROPS. AM SEEING A LITTLE BETTER, BUT IT WILL ONLY

HAVE BEEN A WEEK TOMORROW. SEE SURG. TOMORROW 8AM SHARP.

HAVE CALL INTO " PULMODUDE " TOO AS I AM WONDERING WHAT TO DO AFTER I

REACH #10. TOLD HIS NURSE IT IS HARDER AND HARDER TO BREATHE AND THE

INCREASE IN ANXIETY PILLS HAS HELPED SOME.

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.

PLEASE STAND BESIDE ME

WHEN I GET ACTING CRAZY.

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MARY LOU

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