Glad to see Christmas come - and go

[Guest guest]

December was so filled with doctor appts and tests along with the

Christmas prep. I had 5 appts in December. It began with pulmonary

function tortures. Then there were nerve testing and then allergy

testing to boot. My last appt was 2 days before Christmas.

I was so tired from it all that the day after Christmas I took a

little nap - 7 hours worth of it. Then slept all nite besides. That

is the way it goes when you have either a restrictive or obstructive

lung disease of any sort. However, for people like me with

interstitial as well as obstructive life is a bowl of figuring out

how to get air in and get the lungs emptied out again to make room

for the next breath. I am now waiting for the results of my Alpha 1

deficiency testing.

The good news is that i do not have allergies like they thought. The

bad news is that my lGe which should mean that I have allergies is

498 - extremely high.

Maybe by Christmas 2009 I will have recovered from this year. My

daughters took over Christmas and Thanksgiving several years back

because it took too much out of me. Now I make bakes beans and

cheesecake for Christmas and that is it. I get the pity party over

remembering how much I and my daughters loved to go to grandma's

house for Christmas and my grandchildren missing out on all of that.

It hurts and I feel like I am failing them but they seem to

understand and just are happy that I am there each year. Jean