Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 Lou, your post brought tears to my eyes (I'm laughing just now because I misspelled tears as "teats"). To be estranged from your grandchildren or your children is one of the worst emotional pains one can endure. All one can do is to keep trying to maintain contact and refuse any guilt. Save your strength for you upcoming surgery. Change happens continually. Tomorrow may bring them closer. Jack79/IPF - UIP/dx06/05 Maine To: Breathe-Support Sent: Monday, December 8, 2008 2:12:01 PMSubject: Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 Lou, your post brought tears to my eyes (I'm laughing just now because I misspelled tears as "teats"). To be estranged from your grandchildren or your children is one of the worst emotional pains one can endure. All one can do is to keep trying to maintain contact and refuse any guilt. Save your strength for you upcoming surgery. Change happens continually. Tomorrow may bring them closer. Jack79/IPF - UIP/dx06/05 Maine To: Breathe-Support Sent: Monday, December 8, 2008 2:12:01 PMSubject: Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 Lou, your post brought tears to my eyes (I'm laughing just now because I misspelled tears as "teats"). To be estranged from your grandchildren or your children is one of the worst emotional pains one can endure. All one can do is to keep trying to maintain contact and refuse any guilt. Save your strength for you upcoming surgery. Change happens continually. Tomorrow may bring them closer. Jack79/IPF - UIP/dx06/05 Maine To: Breathe-Support Sent: Monday, December 8, 2008 2:12:01 PMSubject: Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 Lou - Sending a BIG HUG your way. Wish I could do it in person. BarbaraJack Marshall wrote: Lou, your post brought tears to my eyes (I'm laughing just now because I misspelled tears as "teats"). To be estranged from your grandchildren or your children is one of the worst emotional pains one can endure. All one can do is to keep trying to maintain contact and refuse any guilt. Save your strength for you upcoming surgery. Change happens continually. Tomorrow may bring them closer. Jack79/IPF - UIP/dx06/05 Maine From: Lou <mlpretired (AT) aol (DOT) com>To: Breathe-Support Sent: Monday, December 8, 2008 2:12:01 PMSubject: Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Barbara McDIPF, Sept 08Beautiful Western NC Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 Lou - Sending a BIG HUG your way. Wish I could do it in person. BarbaraJack Marshall wrote: Lou, your post brought tears to my eyes (I'm laughing just now because I misspelled tears as "teats"). To be estranged from your grandchildren or your children is one of the worst emotional pains one can endure. All one can do is to keep trying to maintain contact and refuse any guilt. Save your strength for you upcoming surgery. Change happens continually. Tomorrow may bring them closer. Jack79/IPF - UIP/dx06/05 Maine From: Lou <mlpretired (AT) aol (DOT) com>To: Breathe-Support Sent: Monday, December 8, 2008 2:12:01 PMSubject: Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Barbara McDIPF, Sept 08Beautiful Western NC Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 Lou - Sending a BIG HUG your way. Wish I could do it in person. BarbaraJack Marshall wrote: Lou, your post brought tears to my eyes (I'm laughing just now because I misspelled tears as "teats"). To be estranged from your grandchildren or your children is one of the worst emotional pains one can endure. All one can do is to keep trying to maintain contact and refuse any guilt. Save your strength for you upcoming surgery. Change happens continually. Tomorrow may bring them closer. Jack79/IPF - UIP/dx06/05 Maine From: Lou <mlpretired (AT) aol (DOT) com>To: Breathe-Support Sent: Monday, December 8, 2008 2:12:01 PMSubject: Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Barbara McDIPF, Sept 08Beautiful Western NC Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 ML... I'm so sorry you are having some down days dear friend. Even with your persistence as a fighter, you too get some down days. Our kids/grandkids can really pitch us sideways can't they. I've been there done that with my Zoe. She was an addict for more than 18 years and I worried myself sick about the grandkids. Today, everyone is "ok" considering. Thank God. ML, have a good cry and feel all the hurt and then try and give it to the God I know you have faith in. Don't beat yourself up because you are not "perfectly persistent" every day. Please don't. In this day of computers, do you have a video camera so you can "talk and see" the grandkids???? I guess they have to have one on there end too... All of us love you too ML. You are not alone even tho' we can't see you or be there to hug you. I feel your hurt and I send you hugs. Try to accept what can't be changed, I've been there and done that too and it really helps. I KNOW God is with you! I love you. MamaSher, age 70. IPF 3-06, OR. NasturtiumsDon't fret about tomorrow, God is already there! Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 ML... I'm so sorry you are having some down days dear friend. Even with your persistence as a fighter, you too get some down days. Our kids/grandkids can really pitch us sideways can't they. I've been there done that with my Zoe. She was an addict for more than 18 years and I worried myself sick about the grandkids. Today, everyone is "ok" considering. Thank God. ML, have a good cry and feel all the hurt and then try and give it to the God I know you have faith in. Don't beat yourself up because you are not "perfectly persistent" every day. Please don't. In this day of computers, do you have a video camera so you can "talk and see" the grandkids???? I guess they have to have one on there end too... All of us love you too ML. You are not alone even tho' we can't see you or be there to hug you. I feel your hurt and I send you hugs. Try to accept what can't be changed, I've been there and done that too and it really helps. I KNOW God is with you! I love you. MamaSher, age 70. IPF 3-06, OR. NasturtiumsDon't fret about tomorrow, God is already there! Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 ML... I'm so sorry you are having some down days dear friend. Even with your persistence as a fighter, you too get some down days. Our kids/grandkids can really pitch us sideways can't they. I've been there done that with my Zoe. She was an addict for more than 18 years and I worried myself sick about the grandkids. Today, everyone is "ok" considering. Thank God. ML, have a good cry and feel all the hurt and then try and give it to the God I know you have faith in. Don't beat yourself up because you are not "perfectly persistent" every day. Please don't. In this day of computers, do you have a video camera so you can "talk and see" the grandkids???? I guess they have to have one on there end too... All of us love you too ML. You are not alone even tho' we can't see you or be there to hug you. I feel your hurt and I send you hugs. Try to accept what can't be changed, I've been there and done that too and it really helps. I KNOW God is with you! I love you. MamaSher, age 70. IPF 3-06, OR. NasturtiumsDon't fret about tomorrow, God is already there! Hey You All: I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 mary lou your post brought tears to my eyes Pink Joyce IPF 3/06 Pennsylvania Subject: Hey You All:To: Breathe-Support Date: Monday, December 8, 2008, 2:12 PM I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 mary lou your post brought tears to my eyes Pink Joyce IPF 3/06 Pennsylvania Subject: Hey You All:To: Breathe-Support Date: Monday, December 8, 2008, 2:12 PM I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 mary lou your post brought tears to my eyes Pink Joyce IPF 3/06 Pennsylvania Subject: Hey You All:To: Breathe-Support Date: Monday, December 8, 2008, 2:12 PM I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: COME WITH ME.'s relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an effort to see more of if it is to be.I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIAMARY LOU - IPF - 02 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 8, 2008 Report Share Posted December 8, 2008 > > ML... I'm so sorry you are having some down days dear friend. Even with your persistence as a fighter, you too get some down days. > Our kids/grandkids can really pitch us sideways can't they. I've been there done that with my Zoe. She was an addict for more than 18 years and I worried myself sick about the grandkids. Today, everyone is " ok " considering. Thank God. > ML, have a good cry and feel all the hurt and then try and give it to the God I know you have faith in. Don't beat yourself up because you are not " perfectly persistent " every day. Please don't. > In this day of computers, do you have a video camera so you can " talk and see " the grandkids???? I guess they have to have one on there end too... > All of us love you too ML. You are not alone even tho' we can't see you or be there to hug you. > I feel your hurt and I send you hugs. > Try to accept what can't be changed, I've been there and done that too and it really helps. I KNOW God is with you! > I love you. > MamaSher, age 70. IPF 3-06, OR. > Nasturtiums > Don't fret about tomorrow, God is already there! > > Hey You All: > > > I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical > problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the > other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are > not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much > achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a " fighter " > today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in > Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 > children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 > children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet > kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many > deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many > boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little > guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, > we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She > has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so > handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never > let go. This past week has definitely been a " persistent fighter " > week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and > so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. > I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care > right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to > see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the > other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his > family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know > God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: > COME WITH ME. > > 's relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left > home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to > keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have > Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so > blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can > open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an > effort to see more of if it is to be. > > I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIA > MARY LOU - IPF - 02 >hey M.L. you are definitly not alone, I have been battling my daughters resentment since I moved back to Tx. I can't change the past and she can't seem to move forward. I am about ready to throw in the towel,I moved back down here to mend bridges but I can't fight her and her in-laws. My heart goes out to you.I guess when I'm gone and they go through the pics, she will see the truth. I got all 3 of my girls to college and graduate, but I am being picked apart & I am ready to quit trying. I know how you feel, I have no doubt little Connor will never know how much this Grandma really loved him. Oh Crap, maybe it is just the holiday blues.Keep Your Chin Up! I know I am trying too. KathyS/dx10-04/tx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 9, 2008 Report Share Posted December 9, 2008 Kathy ... I do think the holidays bring up the blues for many of us. I'm sorry you are down too. BTW ...your post could easily be missed when it's at the ~bottom~ of another post. Put it up at the ~top~ and it's more likely to be seen. Hugs to you. MamaSher, age 70. IPF 3-06, OR. NasturtiumsDon't fret about tomorrow, God is already there! Hey You All:> > > I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical > problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the > other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are > not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much > achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a "fighter" > today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in > Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4 > children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4 > children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet > kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many > deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many > boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little > guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys, > we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She > has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so > handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never > let go. This past week has definitely been a "persistent fighter" > week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and > so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical. > I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care > right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to > see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the > other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his > family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know > God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me: > COME WITH ME.> > 's relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left > home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to > keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have > Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so > blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can > open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an > effort to see more of if it is to be.> > I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIA> MARY LOU - IPF - 02>hey M.L. you are definitly not alone, I have been battling my daughters resentment since I moved back to Tx. I can't change the past and she can't seem to move forward. I am about ready to throw in the towel,I moved back down here to mend bridges but I can't fight her and her in-laws. My heart goes out to you.I guess when I'm gone and they go through the pics, she will see the truth. I got all 3 of my girls to college and graduate, but I am being picked apart & I am ready to quit trying. I know how you feel, I have no doubt little Connor will never know how much this Grandma really loved him. OhCrap, maybe it is just the holiday blues.Keep Your Chin Up! I know I am trying too.KathyS/dx10-04/tx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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