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Jay...

At the risk of sounding negative, I just wanted to tell you that Glenn went

through 8 mos. of chemo after his colon resect....he did great...worked and

felt fine, except for some fatigue. We thought all was well!!! He had only

3 lymph nodes of 22 that were cancerous. Only a few weeks of thinking " we

had it made " ....then with no warning, the tumor indicators started going

up...after a PET and CT, the mets to the liver was found. And you know the

rest of

the story....

I'm not sure what the answer is for you....maybe pray about it?? Ask for

guidance?? Good luck, sweetie...sounds like you had a rough day!!!

Lots of hugs and prayers, Donelle

Caregiver to Glenn

Colon resection 6/03 removing 9 in. of colon including cancerous tumore and

3 of 22 removed lymph nodes were also cancerous.

Infection set in at surgical site...Open wound for 2 months, chemo for 8

months

Mets to Liver found 4/04, inoperable; one tumor too close to artery and vein

Chemo infiltration to chest 8/04 with severe side effects including severe

pain and muscle damage (permanent??)

10/04 Severe lower ab pain unable to eat, colon shut down, hospitalization

w/morphine 8 days. Sent home with basically no diagnosis. Possibly the cancer

causing the pain.

Ascites (Fluid build-up) and Paracentesis (draining) on a regular weekly

basis

11/09/04 on 5FU/Leu/Oxaliplatin/Avastin " cocktails " 46 hr. infusions

Mid Dec. 04 - CT. Scan shows largest tumor on liver has reduced 1/3,

remaining 11 tumors stable; no growth. Chemo is working...Yippee!!

02/05 Continued bi-wkly Ascites and Paracentesis may mean chemo no longer

working.

Emergency CT. Scan performed. Tumors are reducing in size, some as much as

half!!! Chemo is working!!!

Found a blot clot in the vein going in to the liver!!! Waiting for MRI so

GI Dr. can decide to treat with meds or surgery. Onc. now believes the blood

clot is reason for the continuing Ascites.

TRYING TO KICK BUTT with this darn disease!!!

In a message dated 4/5/2005 10:51:50 PM Eastern Standard Time,

jayishome@... writes:

Thanks... guys for keeping me on track... sometimes I go through a period

of denial... where I even avoid these wonderful posts... then I cry, then I

go and run until I feel I will collapse... ( a guy thing ) then I sit on the

stool and cry again.~ I do not have a colostomy, and so, I have to go to

the library about 10 times a day..... then I go and read the posts, and then

play with my boys...

Today was one of those days... I eat nothing but brocoli, am on Essiac, and

drink lots and lots of water. I run till I drop... Its just one of those

days.

My dads voice always comes back to haunt me... he is the one that says

conventional medicine to treat cancer is a big scam... I have argued with him

as

we all know eneough about medicine to know otherwise... but when ol doc

says, we gotta slam a new port in you and do some folfox... I ask why...

" because you are very healthy to withstand it... and just to be on the safe

side " :

I ask... ok... am I done after that... ??? no answer... Then I feel a

little twinge of pain... and cannot help to think; is this the cancer pinching

me? ~ or the voice of my father warning me to stay away from the docs...

mmmm ~

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Thanks... guys for keeping me on track... sometimes I go through a period of

denial... where I even avoid these wonderful posts... then I cry, then I go and

run until I feel I will collapse... ( a guy thing ) then I sit on the stool and

cry again.~ I do not have a colostomy, and so, I have to go to the library

about 10 times a day..... then I go and read the posts, and then play with my

boys...

Today was one of those days... I eat nothing but brocoli, am on Essiac, and

drink lots and lots of water. I run till I drop... Its just one of those days.

My dads voice always comes back to haunt me... he is the one that says

conventional medicine to treat cancer is a big scam... I have argued with him as

we all know eneough about medicine to know otherwise... but when ol doc says,

we gotta slam a new port in you and do some folfox... I ask why... " because you

are very healthy to withstand it... and just to be on the safe side " :

I ask... ok... am I done after that... ??? no answer... Then I feel a little

twinge of pain... and cannot help to think; is this the cancer pinching me? ~ or

the voice of my father warning me to stay away from the docs... mmmm ~

CEA: 0.05

BIOPSY: NEGATIVE

SCANS: PENDING

XELODA: 12 cycles of 2on/ 1 off ~4000 mg a day of gut wrench. I am tired!

RADIATION: Standard six week regiment

SURGERY: 30 DAYS/ almost died due to an Ecoli infection. lost over 40 pounds.

Could not walk. Double surgery, one laprascopic, the other a 12 inch slash on

my stomach due to exploratory surgery and to check the other organs out. Other

organs turned out fine. 10 lymp nodes were pulled.. 8 were positive...

Did I tell you guys, my fingerprints have been altered by chemo?? I have to

scan in when I go to work, and last week was detained by security until

resolved. Wierd. My doctor got wind of it and said he never has heard of that

before. He looked at my hands... and said.... mmmm

Jay

Re: I HAVE HEALING EMPOWERING NEW

> INFORMATION on how t...

> >

> >

> >

> > Im sorry to say , but I have a serious problem with this.

> > If as you say you have the solution to cancer, why on earth would

> you charge

> > someone for it?

> > Sounds like another bunch of junk that wants our money to me.

> > I am not against home remedys , hubby takes quite a few

> different things.

> > But give me a break on the mumbojumbo cure all .

> > You would think if someone had the cure to cancer, the cancer

> victims would

> > be cured by now!!!!!

> >

> > Stepping of my box now

> >

> > Deb

> >

> > 33yrold husband Joe, was diagnosed with CC in Sept,

> > resection on Sept 27th 2004

> > found mets to the abdominal wall lining 3 lymph nodes involved

> > open wound from infection until Jan 2005

> > Ileostomy reversal Dec 7th 2004

> > Chemo regiment begun Jan 2005

> > 5fu/levorican/Oxaplatin/ Avastin added Feb 14 2005 (Happy

> Valentines :(

> > Calcium Magnesium added for the Tingles Feb 28 2005

> > Ct Scan done March 23rd 2005 , 16 millimeter cyst like object on

> liver found

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

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Oh Jay, I keep wondering if perhaps you need to go get another

opinion. Seems to me that you are going through way to much. But then

maybe my doctor is not aggresive enough. Such a fine line. We both

need to do some deep soul searching.

> > >

> > > Wow... it almost sounds like me on my soap box! I cant wait

to

> > catch up...

> > >

> > > I saw doc today... He wants me on 4 cycles of Oxi / leuco

and 5fu

> > ~ I asked why, and he said to be on the " safe " side... I had 8

> > lymph nodes hit. No metastasis. All scans and blood work is

> > normal. My body is in remarkable shape... sometimes I wonder

why

> > all the punishment. I am real close to saying " F " it... I

have

> > been off the chemo for a week, and my body is bouncing back

> > remarkably well. I push myself really hard, like we all

do... Now

> > back to the poison??!! Jay

> > > Re: I HAVE HEALING

EMPOWERING NEW

> > INFORMATION on how t...

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > > Im sorry to say , but I have a serious problem with this.

> > > If as you say you have the solution to cancer, why on earth

would

> > you charge

> > > someone for it?

> > > Sounds like another bunch of junk that wants our money to

me.

> > > I am not against home remedys , hubby takes quite a few

> > different things.

> > > But give me a break on the mumbojumbo cure all .

> > > You would think if someone had the cure to cancer, the

cancer

> > victims would

> > > be cured by now!!!!!

> > >

> > > Stepping of my box now

> > >

> > > Deb

> > >

> > > 33yrold husband Joe, was diagnosed with CC in Sept,

> > > resection on Sept 27th 2004

> > > found mets to the abdominal wall lining 3 lymph nodes

involved

> > > open wound from infection until Jan 2005

> > > Ileostomy reversal Dec 7th 2004

> > > Chemo regiment begun Jan 2005

> > > 5fu/levorican/Oxaplatin/ Avastin added Feb 14 2005 (Happy

> > Valentines :(

> > > Calcium Magnesium added for the Tingles Feb 28 2005

> > > Ct Scan done March 23rd 2005 , 16 millimeter cyst like

object on

> > liver found

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

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Hello Group,

Well, I just got back from Mayo for the third time this year. I was

diagnosed with PSC 14 years ago. I have been seeing Dr. Lindor for

12 years and Gossard since she has been there. I have had an

amazing run over the last 14 years. Other than the itching and lack

of sleep, the PSC has been manageable. The UC has also been under

control for the most part. Because I have been blessed with good

health, I have probably been living in denial about how serious this

is.

I guess reality is finally setting in this year. I had my third ERCP

this year and they are looking at the " FISH " thing, which I don't

fully understand. Even though I haven't received the final results,

Dr. , ERCP Doc, stated that things look OK, even though they

are still seeing cell changes and the narrowing of the duct. My

bilirubin was 3.3, which is higher than it has been in several

years.

I have been avoiding researching support groups on the internet in

that I have not been sick enough to join, and that is for people that

want to talk about how sick they are. Well, that's what I thought.

I am extremely impessed with the amount of information that is put

out here and I did not even know about the Conference. Dr. Lindor

and have been telling me for years to accept the fact that

this will change my life. I am willing to accept this now. I look

forward to participating in the group and I look forward to praying

and doing my part to support this group.

God Bless,

Rick

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Welcome Rick,

It was 19 years ago I got diagnosed. For the first 18 of those years I did not no anyone else with PSC. Its good to know others that suffer with the same thing, to know somebody who understands what your going through, to get and to give support. Glad I found it, I hope it is a blessing to you as well.

Ian (52) PSC 89

Hello Group,Well, I just got back from Mayo for the third time this year. I was diagnosed with PSC 14 years ago. I have been seeing Dr. Lindor for 12 years and Gossard since she has been there. I have had an

amazing run over the last 14 years. Other than the itching and lack of sleep, the PSC has been manageable. The UC has also been under control for the most part. Because I have been blessed with good health, I have probably been living in denial about how serious this

is. I guess reality is finally setting in this year. I had my third ERCP this year and they are looking at the " FISH " thing, which I don't fully understand. Even though I haven't received the final results,

Dr. , ERCP Doc, stated that things look OK, even though they are still seeing cell changes and the narrowing of the duct. My bilirubin was 3.3, which is higher than it has been in several years.

I have been avoiding researching support groups on the internet in that I have not been sick enough to join, and that is for people that want to talk about how sick they are. Well, that's what I thought. I am extremely impessed with the amount of information that is put

out here and I did not even know about the Conference. Dr. Lindor and have been telling me for years to accept the fact that this will change my life. I am willing to accept this now. I look forward to participating in the group and I look forward to praying

and doing my part to support this group. God Bless,Rick -- Ian Cribb former P.Eng. (resigned in good standing)

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Rick,

My daughter got her dx after eight months of being sick, in August

’04 and before her dx I just wanted them to give her a pill and then

everything would be all better. After the dx I just wanted the doctors to be

wrong…after I learned a little bit about the disease, I really wanted the

doctors to be wrong, and I wanted them to invent a pill to make her all better…

she was so ill… the doctors weren’t worried about her liver as much

as they were worried about her UC which they didn’t dx until ’06…they

kept saying that my daughter was a diagnosis nightmare because she didn’t

go by the book. Which fueled my hope that they were wrong…As the meds she

was taking mounted the more despair I felt…when I found this group I

started asking questions…and the more I learned the more I wanted her dx

to go away…I lived in denial too…she was too young/ too sick to

care…as she got older and I started to accept the fact that she has a

disease that isn’t curable…without a transplant, and Ken taught us

that a tx isn’t the easiest thing to do….and as she got older *she*

started to realize that she was going to be living with this and she hates

needles and she hates meds…I have tried chewables, liquid and pills to

swallow…she hates them all…then she started wanting to die so she didn’t

have to swallow pills anymore…she was nine years old (last year) and she

was fascinated with dying and wanting to get it over with…that was hard

for a mom to handle.

There are days that I read posts on this list and I just cry

thinking of my daughter having to go through this…it is just hard

sometimes… I don’t know how I could handle it if I didn’t

have my faith in Christ…If I didn’t believe that He has a reason

for this and it is a good one because it is in His hands…I would be

insane!

And just because you are coming out of denial doesn’t mean

you won’t slip back in at times…I like to go in and out of denial

myself…LOL but right now I have decided that I will provide the

healthiest foods and do all I can to make her comfortable and let God take care

of the rest. Right now I am maintaining her quality of life by diet…a

quite radical diet…but it works…however at her last MRCP it showed

beading…so we know that the PSC is still progressing. I like to deny that…boy

would I love to deny that. So…ok, I will stop rambling! Welcome to the

support group! I soooo wanted to go to conference this year…but it just

didn’t work out for me to go. Which really stinks since I am only about 2

hours away from ville! But… I have learned sooooo much here on

this group…and it has helped me even when I slip in and out of denial.

:o)

In Christ's Love,

Bethany Hunt

" And he

[Jesus] is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also

for the sins of the whole world. " 1 2:2

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Welcome Rick!

This is a great support group. You'll love it.

wife of (psc 1995, cca 2007, tx anytime now..... they promise

they are not teasing us)

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Here's a paper on FISH (Medscape):

http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/543069_2

The way it was explained at the conference, a normal (non-reproductive) cell has

46 chromosomes. With FISH, they take bile duct brushings and essentially count

the number of cells which have >46 chromosomes, which is indicative of cancer.

The number of these loci observed can help determine cancer risk. The

sensitivity is not very good yet (34%), but the specificity (correct conclusion)

is very good (>90%).

Arne

---- Rick henry_the_5@...> wrote:

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Hello Group,

....I guess reality is finally setting in this year. I had my third ERCP

this year and they are looking at the " FISH " thing, which I don't

fully understand...

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>

> I have been avoiding researching support groups on the

> internet in that I have not been sick enough to join, and

> that is for people that want to talk about how sick they are.

As a coping mechanism for a chronic illness, don't sell denial short!

Like you, I also refused to acknowledge my PSC for many years until my

symptoms got to be unmanagable last year. Ignoring it didn't make it

go away, of course, but I didn't want it consuming my life (until it

finally did) so I kept it dark for as long as possible.

An essay in Time magazine about using denial positively inspired me in

2001, and I just reread it again today after seeing your post. It can

be found here:

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group//message/31772

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