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Posted by B at 10:26

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My standard reply to, " How's

? " has been, " He's breathing. " , but I can't even say that

anymore. They tried to take him off the ventilator, but he requires so much

pain medication he's not breathing on his own. It's best that he's heavily

sedated. I even prefer him that way for a while.

It was as if a warm blanket was put around my shoulders, and toasted me from

the inside out. The feeling lasted for only a minute, but the imprint lasted;

I've been calm most of the day.

The feeling right before was diagnosed with cancer was much stronger than

this morning's, but definitely along that same line. It's a warning; a

" Hold on to your panties; I'm in charge; it's going to be a rough

ride. " message from God. Most importantly, it's a strengthening; a " I

love you, I'm here, it will work out. " message; a precious gift before any

crisis.

So, what to expect? will likely be taken off the ventilator in the

morning. He'll have to deal with pain, and heaven only knows what else is

coming. I guess it doesn't matter if I know or not; we're strapped in tight for

the ride, and there's no sense in jumping out now...... as if we have any

choice.

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