Hey You All:

[Guest guest]

I am very sorry today for anyone here who is having ultra physical

problems and also for the ones who have passed on, one on top of the

other. It is so very difficult for me to say this as my problems are

not your problems but they are still deep in my heart with much

achiness. I just right now don't feel much like being a " fighter "

today. I just got a package of 8x10 pics of our g/kids in

Pennsylvania, Earl's youngest daughter and 2 of her 4

children. The older 2 live with their grandparents, each of the 4

children have different fathers, but they are the most lovable sweet

kids you would ever want to meet in your life. has many many

deep rooted emotional problems and is not married. Had many

boyfriends, etc. SO, when I got the pics just now of the 2 little

guys, Laiken and Masyn, now 5 and 6, I bawled like a baby. Hey Guys,

we never see them and haven't seen them for a couple of years. She

has no money and I can not make that trip to PA. The boys are so

handsome and precious lookiing, I just want to squeeze them and never

let go. This past week has definitely been a " persistent fighter "

week, but the last 2 days have not. I am very very tired, weak and

so glad I am going to see my GP tomorrow at 3pm for pre-op physical.

I haven't been able to do anything around here, and really don't care

right now. The pics of the boys I know I will never probably get to

see them again, and I do know I will never see them grow up like the

other 3 grandkids we have here. I am so glad I havve Earl and his

family and kids and my . O My God, I am so frightened now I know

God knows I am tired. Yesterday I pleaded with him to say to me:

COME WITH ME.

's relationship with her Dad has never been adequate as he left

home when she was 2, so she never knew him much. I have tried to

keep in touch with as much as possible so now we both have

Verizon cell phones so I am texting her and she me. I feel so

blessed for this technology now in my later years that maybe I can

open up a wonderful channel for Earl after I am gone to make an

effort to see more of if it is to be.

I LOVE YOU ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY IN VIRGINIA

MARY LOU - IPF - 02