RE: Hysterectomy decision - nne

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timeflies wrote: >>>>>Chelle, you mentioned in your first post today, that you really didn’t want to do it (have the hysterectomy). Please, no matter how many of us (me included) say how great it was

for us, you have to feel confident in your own decision. There is a difference in being afraid of having it done, and not wanting to have it done. Wait until you say to yourself that you are so glad you made the decision for surgery. It has to come from you – straight from your heart, that inner gut feeling, that you are confident with your decision. If you are still saying that you really don’t want to do it, then you are not ready. nne nne, it just so crazy and complicated. I'll try to kind of explain more in some other posts and maybe that will help me sort through my own feelings. I'm just scared, maybe I'm just a big baby. I've dealt with chronic pain in one form of another, many times several forms together since I was 16. I have so lost 'faith' in the medical community. I know that sounds bad...but it is my

reality. I've been over this a million times in my mind, spoken at length with my husband...prayed before I went Friday that my doc would have wisdom and tell me the best thing line of treatment... My head 'knows' that it is the best option given the facts as I know them right now...but my heart doesn't trust easily...so how do I get my head and my heart to line up...that's actually what I'm praying for right now... PEACE in my heart. I don't trust in doctors anymore...but I do trust in my God. Those of you that do believe in prayer, would pray for me to have peace concerning this? I can put the surgery off, but I think in the near future, I'd still be up against the same thing. I think I would probably heal better now, then later. I do appreciate all of your help, nne.... Love, ~Chelle