Guest guest Posted March 8, 2002 Report Share Posted March 8, 2002 .. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came back to me when my father took my sister and I to the welfare office and told them to put us bitches away. I never realized how much I blocked out My heart aches for you. Those memories that we have from the time when we were treated so badly seem to never completely go away. My mother, sister and myself were badly abused by my father. My sister and me were never sexually abused but beaten with a belt. Those memories come back to me and cause me to become so depressed because I feel that those beatings caused the immune problems that I have today. My sister has MS and I have fibro.> Take care, Irene Books may well be the only true magic Alice Hoffman. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 8, 2002 Report Share Posted March 8, 2002 .. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came back to me when my father took my sister and I to the welfare office and told them to put us bitches away. I never realized how much I blocked out My heart aches for you. Those memories that we have from the time when we were treated so badly seem to never completely go away. My mother, sister and myself were badly abused by my father. My sister and me were never sexually abused but beaten with a belt. Those memories come back to me and cause me to become so depressed because I feel that those beatings caused the immune problems that I have today. My sister has MS and I have fibro.> Take care, Irene Books may well be the only true magic Alice Hoffman. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 8, 2002 Report Share Posted March 8, 2002 .. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came back to me when my father took my sister and I to the welfare office and told them to put us bitches away. I never realized how much I blocked out My heart aches for you. Those memories that we have from the time when we were treated so badly seem to never completely go away. My mother, sister and myself were badly abused by my father. My sister and me were never sexually abused but beaten with a belt. Those memories come back to me and cause me to become so depressed because I feel that those beatings caused the immune problems that I have today. My sister has MS and I have fibro.> Take care, Irene Books may well be the only true magic Alice Hoffman. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 8, 2002 Report Share Posted March 8, 2002 On the subject of how people that have endured abuse perceive relationships, I think this is so significant in how we see things and function. For a long time I have had a difficult time believing that God has time for me or that I am anything special. I know that sounds terrible, but this is how I have felt. I have fully believed that He is there for others just not for me. I didn't really " define " this though, until this past year when I was reading an article on abuse and it said that many women that have had abusive fathers have never had an experience with a loving father, so they have a difficult time perceiving that He would consider them special. Anyway, this is just my experience and reading this article was very healing for me because I was able to define my feelings and get past them. This is in no way meant as advice for someone else, just my experience on this subject. Sincerely, Pamela Rauch Re: Thank you Hi Alice, Darrell is my fiance, his name appears under the E-mail, like it that way it deters kooks. The book sounds great! I love to read but haven't done too much lately because of the headaches. I hope your able to remain strong through it all. Someone I grew up with and actually still associate with suffered terrible abuse at the hands of her father. The majority of her siblings did as well. She ended up having a nervous breakdown in her mid twenties and lost custody of her kids as well. She has had major mental health problems. She endured so much more and for a longer time. I had major self esteem issues and had some really bad relationships because of it. The pastor of my church (who is female) sat me down one day and asked me to exam my past abuse as a child and other tragadies to see how the abuse affected my perception of life and the decisions I made. It was rough at first but through many steps, tears, anger, ect. I survived and it was though this " secret " that weighed me down was slowly taken from me. Get as much support as you can. That's an awesome quote! When I was going through my tough time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you think I am? " Hope to hear from you soon. Peg AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: Hi Darrell, I am reading a book right now called Silver Birch... I really like what he has to say about surving tough times.. that is " The soul only shines when there is thunder " . I feel that I must " Glow in the Dark " ... all we can do is understand right now. Would enjoy corresponding with you. Be Well my friend, Alice K --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > Hi Alice, > I'm sorry to hear about the trauma you went through > as a child. It is so hard to hear about adults who > behave with such rage and ambivilance toward the > peaople they are suppose to love and care for. > Unfortunately, I believe alot of people suffer > trauma in their lives, how very fortunate for those > people who never have to! Sometimes memories will > sneak through at very odd times, even when your in > the midst of something totally unrelated, like what > happened to you. This has happened to me on several > occassions. Although my parents were wonderful, > there was a perpatrator who totally took advantage > of me and my sister from the time we were toddlers > until about ten years of age. I didn't understand > the impact of the abuse on my formative years until > I was in my mid-twenties. I never dealt with it > until that time and only did so because my sister > was having isues surrounding the abuse. She thought > she was going nuts. We were lucky in a way that the > abuse wasn't as severe as other survivors. Do I > believe these experiences are tied into my FM, no > not at all. > I have always been able to pull my self together and > keep on living. I may be more sensitive to issues > surrounding abuse, physical/sexual/emotional, but I > have not locked myself away from the world either. I > love living..in no way do I want to crawl into > bed(mentally or physically) and let my days slip by. > This is what frustrates me about FM. Please forgive > me if this sounds horrible but I would rather face > cancer (which I have)then to deal with this. At > least you know what is attacking your body and what > treatments are available. Society is more > empathetic, " Oh my, you have Cancer, " from the > doctors to your family. They dont question you if > your tierd or sick or half to stay in bed. That's a > given, it's expected. With this syndrome everyone > says " Huh, what's that? " You get flack for being > tierd and in pain. Doctors shrug their shoulders, > " well there's nothing wrong with you, all the tests > are normal, I don't know what else to do. " You want > to grab them and say, " I'm in pain do > something. " Find out what to do and do it! " > I hope that your able to find some peace in all the > madness. Much love Peg > > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: I feel like I > did when I first discovered ACOA. You > know, that " I'm not crazy " feeling comes over me. I > have been reading the daily postings, and each and > every one of you have been so inspiring. > > " The Journey Is The Reward " , a Zen Proverb. > > I myself have been working on my life journal, the > pain that has been pouring out has almost been > unbearable. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came back > to > me when my father took my sister and I to the > welfare > office and told them to put us bitches away. I > never > realized how much I blocked out. I tell you I cried > so hard when I remembered that I thought my heart > was > going to burst and I was going to die. All day it > lasted. And you know what, when I finally finished > mourning and crying, I said to myself ~ " It's no > wonder I don't love myself " . Then I even went on to > say that if I could survive what I just survived, > then > surely I could quit smoking. Two weeks free now. > > My doctor has me down as one of the worst fibro > patients he has ever seen, my pain has been severe > for > years. I gag with anxiety attacks and feel so > darned > alone. > > Still here though... perhaps our lesson is to be the > best we can be considering our circumstances and > still > be able to show love. > > Alice Kruta > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 9, 2002 Report Share Posted March 9, 2002 Darrell wrote: > down was slowly taken from me. Get as much support as you can. That's an awesome quote! When I was going through my tough time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you > think I am? " It isn't really funny, but it struck me as humorous and very true at times! Thanks for a phrase that I rather suspect could be a good coping mechanism. Darcy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 9, 2002 Report Share Posted March 9, 2002 Darrell wrote: > down was slowly taken from me. Get as much support as you can. That's an awesome quote! When I was going through my tough time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you > think I am? " It isn't really funny, but it struck me as humorous and very true at times! Thanks for a phrase that I rather suspect could be a good coping mechanism. Darcy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 9, 2002 Report Share Posted March 9, 2002 Darrell wrote: > down was slowly taken from me. Get as much support as you can. That's an awesome quote! When I was going through my tough time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you > think I am? " It isn't really funny, but it struck me as humorous and very true at times! Thanks for a phrase that I rather suspect could be a good coping mechanism. Darcy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 11, 2002 Report Share Posted March 11, 2002 Hi, I am right now reading a book called Trauma and Recovery by Judith Herman, M.D. The book actually makes reference to numbness of the hands, feet and legs. I think that I am looking desperately for a cure as this is what has kept me going. I am surprised myself how long I have been working on releasing my pain, as the book states, some people just have to keep saying and writing it over and over until it goes away. I have had elderly people (I am half Gitxsan native) tell me that I have had so much trauma and pain in my life that I just went numb to survive it. I really want to believe this and really want to prove it. Seeking anyway, Alice --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > That was my major turning point too. There was such > a release and much needed peace. I settled for men > that where no good for me because I felt I didn't > deserve better. These were subconcious choices. > Thank God for self awareness! Hope your having a > good day, it was beautiful out today, we'll have a > major snow storm tomorrow! That's New England > weather for ya! > Take care Peg > Pamela Rauch dave.n.pam@...> wrote: > On the subject of how people that have endured abuse > perceive relationships, I think this is so > significant in how we see things and function. For > a long time I have had a difficult time believing > that God has time for me or that I am anything > special. I know that sounds terrible, but this is > how I have felt. I have fully believed that He is > there for others just not for me. I didn't really > " define " this though, until this past year when I > was reading an article on abuse and it said that > many women that have had abusive fathers have never > had an experience with a loving father, so they have > a difficult time perceiving that He would consider > them special. Anyway, this is just my experience > and reading this article was very healing for me > because I was able to define my feelings and get > past them. This is in no way meant as advice for > someone else, just my experience on this subject. > Sincerely, Pamela Rauch > Re: Thank you > > > > Hi Alice, > Darrell is my fiance, his name appears under the > E-mail, like it that way it deters kooks. The book > sounds great! I love to read but haven't done too > much lately because of the headaches. I hope your > able to remain strong through it all. Someone I grew > up with and actually still associate with suffered > terrible abuse at the hands of her father. The > majority of her siblings did as well. She ended up > having a nervous breakdown in her mid twenties and > lost custody of her kids as well. She has had major > mental health problems. She endured so much more and > for a longer time. I had major self esteem issues > and had some really bad relationships because of it. > The pastor of my church (who is female) sat me down > one day and asked me to exam my past abuse as a > child and other tragadies to see how the abuse > affected my perception of life and the decisions I > made. It was rough at first but through many steps, > tears, anger, ect. I survived and it was though this > " secret " that weighed me down was slowly taken from > me. Get as much support as you can. That's an > awesome quote! When I was going through my tough > time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, > make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you > think I am? " > Hope to hear from you soon. Peg > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: Hi Darrell, > > I am reading a book right now called Silver > Birch... I > really like what he has to say about surving tough > times.. that is " The soul only shines when there > is > thunder " . I feel that I must " Glow in the > Dark " ... > all we can do is understand right now. > Would enjoy corresponding with you. > > Be Well my friend, > > Alice K > --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > > > Hi Alice, > > I'm sorry to hear about the trauma you went > through > > as a child. It is so hard to hear about adults > who > > behave with such rage and ambivilance toward the > > peaople they are suppose to love and care for. > > Unfortunately, I believe alot of people suffer > > trauma in their lives, how very fortunate for > those > > people who never have to! Sometimes memories > will > > sneak through at very odd times, even when your > in > > the midst of something totally unrelated, like > what > > happened to you. This has happened to me on > several > > occassions. Although my parents were wonderful, > > there was a perpatrator who totally took > advantage > > of me and my sister from the time we were > toddlers > > until about ten years of age. I didn't > understand > > the impact of the abuse on my formative years > until > > I was in my mid-twenties. I never dealt with it > > until that time and only did so because my > sister > > was having isues surrounding the abuse. She > thought > > she was going nuts. We were lucky in a way that > the > > abuse wasn't as severe as other survivors. Do I > > believe these experiences are tied into my FM, > no > > not at all. > > I have always been able to pull my self together > and > > keep on living. I may be more sensitive to > issues > > surrounding abuse, physical/sexual/emotional, > but I > > have not locked myself away from the world > either. I > > love living..in no way do I want to crawl into > > bed(mentally or physically) and let my days slip > by. > > This is what frustrates me about FM. Please > forgive > > me if this sounds horrible but I would rather > face > > cancer (which I have)then to deal with this. At > > least you know what is attacking your body and > what > > treatments are available. Society is more > > empathetic, " Oh my, you have Cancer, " from the > > doctors to your family. They dont question you > if > > your tierd or sick or half to stay in bed. > That's a > > given, it's expected. With this syndrome > everyone > > says " Huh, what's that? " You get flack for being > > tierd and in pain. Doctors shrug their > shoulders, > > " well there's nothing wrong with you, all the > tests > > are normal, I don't know what else to do. " You > want > > to grab them and say, " I'm in pain do > > something. " Find out what to do and do it! " > > I hope that your able to find some peace in all > the > > madness. Much love Peg > > > > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: I feel like > I > > did when I first discovered ACOA. You > > know, that " I'm not crazy " feeling comes over > me. I > > have been reading the daily postings, and each > and > > every one of you have been so inspiring. > > > > " The Journey Is The Reward " , a Zen Proverb. > > > > I myself have been working on my life journal, > the > > pain that has been pouring out has almost been > > unbearable. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came > back > > to > > me when my father took my sister and I to the > > welfare > > office and told them to put us bitches away. I > > never > > realized how much I blocked out. I tell you I > cried > > so hard when I remembered that I thought my > heart > > was > > going to burst and I was going to die. All day > it > > lasted. And you know what, when I finally > finished > > mourning and crying, I said to myself ~ " It's no > > wonder I don't love myself " . Then I even went > on to > > say that if I could survive what I just > survived, > > then > > surely I could quit smoking. Two weeks free > now. > > > > My doctor has me down as one of the worst fibro > > patients he has ever seen, my pain has been > severe > === message truncated === __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 11, 2002 Report Share Posted March 11, 2002 Hi, I am right now reading a book called Trauma and Recovery by Judith Herman, M.D. The book actually makes reference to numbness of the hands, feet and legs. I think that I am looking desperately for a cure as this is what has kept me going. I am surprised myself how long I have been working on releasing my pain, as the book states, some people just have to keep saying and writing it over and over until it goes away. I have had elderly people (I am half Gitxsan native) tell me that I have had so much trauma and pain in my life that I just went numb to survive it. I really want to believe this and really want to prove it. Seeking anyway, Alice --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > That was my major turning point too. There was such > a release and much needed peace. I settled for men > that where no good for me because I felt I didn't > deserve better. These were subconcious choices. > Thank God for self awareness! Hope your having a > good day, it was beautiful out today, we'll have a > major snow storm tomorrow! That's New England > weather for ya! > Take care Peg > Pamela Rauch dave.n.pam@...> wrote: > On the subject of how people that have endured abuse > perceive relationships, I think this is so > significant in how we see things and function. For > a long time I have had a difficult time believing > that God has time for me or that I am anything > special. I know that sounds terrible, but this is > how I have felt. I have fully believed that He is > there for others just not for me. I didn't really > " define " this though, until this past year when I > was reading an article on abuse and it said that > many women that have had abusive fathers have never > had an experience with a loving father, so they have > a difficult time perceiving that He would consider > them special. Anyway, this is just my experience > and reading this article was very healing for me > because I was able to define my feelings and get > past them. This is in no way meant as advice for > someone else, just my experience on this subject. > Sincerely, Pamela Rauch > Re: Thank you > > > > Hi Alice, > Darrell is my fiance, his name appears under the > E-mail, like it that way it deters kooks. The book > sounds great! I love to read but haven't done too > much lately because of the headaches. I hope your > able to remain strong through it all. Someone I grew > up with and actually still associate with suffered > terrible abuse at the hands of her father. The > majority of her siblings did as well. She ended up > having a nervous breakdown in her mid twenties and > lost custody of her kids as well. She has had major > mental health problems. She endured so much more and > for a longer time. I had major self esteem issues > and had some really bad relationships because of it. > The pastor of my church (who is female) sat me down > one day and asked me to exam my past abuse as a > child and other tragadies to see how the abuse > affected my perception of life and the decisions I > made. It was rough at first but through many steps, > tears, anger, ect. I survived and it was though this > " secret " that weighed me down was slowly taken from > me. Get as much support as you can. That's an > awesome quote! When I was going through my tough > time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, > make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you > think I am? " > Hope to hear from you soon. Peg > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: Hi Darrell, > > I am reading a book right now called Silver > Birch... I > really like what he has to say about surving tough > times.. that is " The soul only shines when there > is > thunder " . I feel that I must " Glow in the > Dark " ... > all we can do is understand right now. > Would enjoy corresponding with you. > > Be Well my friend, > > Alice K > --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > > > Hi Alice, > > I'm sorry to hear about the trauma you went > through > > as a child. It is so hard to hear about adults > who > > behave with such rage and ambivilance toward the > > peaople they are suppose to love and care for. > > Unfortunately, I believe alot of people suffer > > trauma in their lives, how very fortunate for > those > > people who never have to! Sometimes memories > will > > sneak through at very odd times, even when your > in > > the midst of something totally unrelated, like > what > > happened to you. This has happened to me on > several > > occassions. Although my parents were wonderful, > > there was a perpatrator who totally took > advantage > > of me and my sister from the time we were > toddlers > > until about ten years of age. I didn't > understand > > the impact of the abuse on my formative years > until > > I was in my mid-twenties. I never dealt with it > > until that time and only did so because my > sister > > was having isues surrounding the abuse. She > thought > > she was going nuts. We were lucky in a way that > the > > abuse wasn't as severe as other survivors. Do I > > believe these experiences are tied into my FM, > no > > not at all. > > I have always been able to pull my self together > and > > keep on living. I may be more sensitive to > issues > > surrounding abuse, physical/sexual/emotional, > but I > > have not locked myself away from the world > either. I > > love living..in no way do I want to crawl into > > bed(mentally or physically) and let my days slip > by. > > This is what frustrates me about FM. Please > forgive > > me if this sounds horrible but I would rather > face > > cancer (which I have)then to deal with this. At > > least you know what is attacking your body and > what > > treatments are available. Society is more > > empathetic, " Oh my, you have Cancer, " from the > > doctors to your family. They dont question you > if > > your tierd or sick or half to stay in bed. > That's a > > given, it's expected. With this syndrome > everyone > > says " Huh, what's that? " You get flack for being > > tierd and in pain. Doctors shrug their > shoulders, > > " well there's nothing wrong with you, all the > tests > > are normal, I don't know what else to do. " You > want > > to grab them and say, " I'm in pain do > > something. " Find out what to do and do it! " > > I hope that your able to find some peace in all > the > > madness. Much love Peg > > > > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: I feel like > I > > did when I first discovered ACOA. You > > know, that " I'm not crazy " feeling comes over > me. I > > have been reading the daily postings, and each > and > > every one of you have been so inspiring. > > > > " The Journey Is The Reward " , a Zen Proverb. > > > > I myself have been working on my life journal, > the > > pain that has been pouring out has almost been > > unbearable. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came > back > > to > > me when my father took my sister and I to the > > welfare > > office and told them to put us bitches away. I > > never > > realized how much I blocked out. I tell you I > cried > > so hard when I remembered that I thought my > heart > > was > > going to burst and I was going to die. All day > it > > lasted. And you know what, when I finally > finished > > mourning and crying, I said to myself ~ " It's no > > wonder I don't love myself " . Then I even went > on to > > say that if I could survive what I just > survived, > > then > > surely I could quit smoking. Two weeks free > now. > > > > My doctor has me down as one of the worst fibro > > patients he has ever seen, my pain has been > severe > === message truncated === __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 11, 2002 Report Share Posted March 11, 2002 Hi, I am right now reading a book called Trauma and Recovery by Judith Herman, M.D. The book actually makes reference to numbness of the hands, feet and legs. I think that I am looking desperately for a cure as this is what has kept me going. I am surprised myself how long I have been working on releasing my pain, as the book states, some people just have to keep saying and writing it over and over until it goes away. I have had elderly people (I am half Gitxsan native) tell me that I have had so much trauma and pain in my life that I just went numb to survive it. I really want to believe this and really want to prove it. Seeking anyway, Alice --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > That was my major turning point too. There was such > a release and much needed peace. I settled for men > that where no good for me because I felt I didn't > deserve better. These were subconcious choices. > Thank God for self awareness! Hope your having a > good day, it was beautiful out today, we'll have a > major snow storm tomorrow! That's New England > weather for ya! > Take care Peg > Pamela Rauch dave.n.pam@...> wrote: > On the subject of how people that have endured abuse > perceive relationships, I think this is so > significant in how we see things and function. For > a long time I have had a difficult time believing > that God has time for me or that I am anything > special. I know that sounds terrible, but this is > how I have felt. I have fully believed that He is > there for others just not for me. I didn't really > " define " this though, until this past year when I > was reading an article on abuse and it said that > many women that have had abusive fathers have never > had an experience with a loving father, so they have > a difficult time perceiving that He would consider > them special. Anyway, this is just my experience > and reading this article was very healing for me > because I was able to define my feelings and get > past them. This is in no way meant as advice for > someone else, just my experience on this subject. > Sincerely, Pamela Rauch > Re: Thank you > > > > Hi Alice, > Darrell is my fiance, his name appears under the > E-mail, like it that way it deters kooks. The book > sounds great! I love to read but haven't done too > much lately because of the headaches. I hope your > able to remain strong through it all. Someone I grew > up with and actually still associate with suffered > terrible abuse at the hands of her father. The > majority of her siblings did as well. She ended up > having a nervous breakdown in her mid twenties and > lost custody of her kids as well. She has had major > mental health problems. She endured so much more and > for a longer time. I had major self esteem issues > and had some really bad relationships because of it. > The pastor of my church (who is female) sat me down > one day and asked me to exam my past abuse as a > child and other tragadies to see how the abuse > affected my perception of life and the decisions I > made. It was rough at first but through many steps, > tears, anger, ect. I survived and it was though this > " secret " that weighed me down was slowly taken from > me. Get as much support as you can. That's an > awesome quote! When I was going through my tough > time the old saying was " If life gives you lemons, > make lemonade! " I used to think " How thirsty do you > think I am? " > Hope to hear from you soon. Peg > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: Hi Darrell, > > I am reading a book right now called Silver > Birch... I > really like what he has to say about surving tough > times.. that is " The soul only shines when there > is > thunder " . I feel that I must " Glow in the > Dark " ... > all we can do is understand right now. > Would enjoy corresponding with you. > > Be Well my friend, > > Alice K > --- Darrell deenpeg@...> wrote: > > > > Hi Alice, > > I'm sorry to hear about the trauma you went > through > > as a child. It is so hard to hear about adults > who > > behave with such rage and ambivilance toward the > > peaople they are suppose to love and care for. > > Unfortunately, I believe alot of people suffer > > trauma in their lives, how very fortunate for > those > > people who never have to! Sometimes memories > will > > sneak through at very odd times, even when your > in > > the midst of something totally unrelated, like > what > > happened to you. This has happened to me on > several > > occassions. Although my parents were wonderful, > > there was a perpatrator who totally took > advantage > > of me and my sister from the time we were > toddlers > > until about ten years of age. I didn't > understand > > the impact of the abuse on my formative years > until > > I was in my mid-twenties. I never dealt with it > > until that time and only did so because my > sister > > was having isues surrounding the abuse. She > thought > > she was going nuts. We were lucky in a way that > the > > abuse wasn't as severe as other survivors. Do I > > believe these experiences are tied into my FM, > no > > not at all. > > I have always been able to pull my self together > and > > keep on living. I may be more sensitive to > issues > > surrounding abuse, physical/sexual/emotional, > but I > > have not locked myself away from the world > either. I > > love living..in no way do I want to crawl into > > bed(mentally or physically) and let my days slip > by. > > This is what frustrates me about FM. Please > forgive > > me if this sounds horrible but I would rather > face > > cancer (which I have)then to deal with this. At > > least you know what is attacking your body and > what > > treatments are available. Society is more > > empathetic, " Oh my, you have Cancer, " from the > > doctors to your family. They dont question you > if > > your tierd or sick or half to stay in bed. > That's a > > given, it's expected. With this syndrome > everyone > > says " Huh, what's that? " You get flack for being > > tierd and in pain. Doctors shrug their > shoulders, > > " well there's nothing wrong with you, all the > tests > > are normal, I don't know what else to do. " You > want > > to grab them and say, " I'm in pain do > > something. " Find out what to do and do it! " > > I hope that your able to find some peace in all > the > > madness. Much love Peg > > > > AE Kruta akruta@...> wrote: I feel like > I > > did when I first discovered ACOA. You > > know, that " I'm not crazy " feeling comes over > me. I > > have been reading the daily postings, and each > and > > every one of you have been so inspiring. > > > > " The Journey Is The Reward " , a Zen Proverb. > > > > I myself have been working on my life journal, > the > > pain that has been pouring out has almost been > > unbearable. About 2 weeks ago, a memory came > back > > to > > me when my father took my sister and I to the > > welfare > > office and told them to put us bitches away. I > > never > > realized how much I blocked out. I tell you I > cried > > so hard when I remembered that I thought my > heart > > was > > going to burst and I was going to die. All day > it > > lasted. And you know what, when I finally > finished > > mourning and crying, I said to myself ~ " It's no > > wonder I don't love myself " . Then I even went > on to > > say that if I could survive what I just > survived, > > then > > surely I could quit smoking. Two weeks free > now. > > > > My doctor has me down as one of the worst fibro > > patients he has ever seen, my pain has been > severe > === message truncated === __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 20, 2003 Report Share Posted June 20, 2003 , You are very welcome. If you ever need someone to talk to, please email me at Sirenity450@... any time you want. I check my messages at least once a day. And when baby is born, probably more than that :-) And don't worry about your period. It might take a few cycles to get regular, or at least somewhat regular. You may end up being one of those ladies that has a 6 week cycle. But one thing is almost for certain: if you are having one on your own without hormones, then you are ovulating. Becky > Thank you all for such a warm welcome...I truly appreciate it and am > glad to have found this room... > > Special thanks to Becky for opening up to me about your abuse issues > and to Dawn...Congratulations, sweetie!! What a wonderful mother's > day present!!! > > I am still waiting for my period..it is now about 4 weeks since the > first one post op. Trying to stay positive that it will come and that > the first one wasn't just a fluke! > > I love looking at all your pictures, especially all the beautiful > wonderful babies!!! Wow, it gives me hope...I am an Auntie x 5 but > only close to the two who live here in Calgary...The other three are > 3hrs away, so the relationship isn't as developed..Shelby just turned > 5 and the little man, Teghan is 2.5...I would lay my life down for > those kids, I love them so much...They are amazing. There has been a > baby boom down here lately: my best friend just had her second one in > 2yrs, my good friend is due with her third at the tender age of 42 > and Shelby and Teghie are going to get a new baby brother or sister > for Auntie to spoil along with them in Sept too...I am so > blessed to be a part of their lives, and to hear " I love you " from > these little mouths...Actually, Teghie says, " I lujjj you " which is > even more cute.... > > Anyway, babbling now, so thanks again and look forward to getting to > know you ladies.. > > Hugs, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Ok now I might need some help as my original email seems to have been cut off and no attachment sent...Help!!!! Betty Thank you Hi all I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. Take care my friends Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Ok now I might need some help as my original email seems to have been cut off and no attachment sent...Help!!!! Betty Thank you Hi all I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. Take care my friends Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Ok now I might need some help as my original email seems to have been cut off and no attachment sent...Help!!!! Betty Thank you Hi all I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. Take care my friends Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Betty, Please let us know when you are ready, the results of your head MRI? I hope and pray all will be OK! Sincerely, S. Thank you > Hi all > I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. > Take care my friends > Betty > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Glad to hear you are feeling some better Betty :-) And please do feel free to e-mail offline whenever you want. Hugssssssssss, Love TJ God Bless And Hugs- Love Moon Thank you Hi all I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. Take care my friends Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Glad to hear you are feeling some better Betty :-) And please do feel free to e-mail offline whenever you want. Hugssssssssss, Love TJ God Bless And Hugs- Love Moon Thank you Hi all I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. Take care my friends Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 7, 2004 Report Share Posted April 7, 2004 Glad to hear you are feeling some better Betty :-) And please do feel free to e-mail offline whenever you want. Hugssssssssss, Love TJ God Bless And Hugs- Love Moon Thank you Hi all I want to send a warm thank you to everyone who replied to my pity party email. Your responses have made me aware of what I have to with myself and that is clear my head, look around to what I have and be stronger for what life has thrown at me. In one email it is written we are here for a reason...right now the reason is to look after my son & husband & myself and to spread knowledge of this dreaded disease. I am sending on my inspiration in the form of a picture of our beautiful son. I hope this works as it is the first time I have used a scanner..I am Ok on a computer but some thinks are out of the realm for me and my experts (husband & son have gone skiing today) So once again from the bottom of my heart I thank you all for being here I don't know what I would do without this " family " God bless you all......Sue G - for your great advice, Laxity, Patti., Lana, , Jo...for your very caring thoughts, Mike for your always interesting emails & information & opinions , Moon ...for your clear understanding (I will email you off list also) and to Jill......our fearless leader....Thanks so much for your timely call. It helped tremendously. I will take everyones advice and keep plugging on & try to help as many people as I can. Take care my friends Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 25, 2004 Report Share Posted May 25, 2004 Thank you . Mojo Re: Kidneys and urine test Hi , I'll leave this question to Mojo. She is very knowledgable in this area! "The LUPIES Store" Come check out our store...http://www.cafepress.com/thelupies"The LUPIES Web Page"http://www.itzarion.com/lupusgroup.html"The LUPIES online photo albums!" Check out what your fellow Lupies look like...http://www.picturetrail.com/lupies Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 25, 2004 Report Share Posted May 25, 2004 Thank you . Mojo Re: Kidneys and urine test Hi , I'll leave this question to Mojo. She is very knowledgable in this area! "The LUPIES Store" Come check out our store...http://www.cafepress.com/thelupies"The LUPIES Web Page"http://www.itzarion.com/lupusgroup.html"The LUPIES online photo albums!" Check out what your fellow Lupies look like...http://www.picturetrail.com/lupies Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 28, 2009 Report Share Posted September 28, 2009 The election for the NAEMT By-Laws change is over. While the results have not been posted yet, I want to say thank you to everyone who took the time and effort to vote. Stay safe, R. Gerard, MS, RN, NREMT-P Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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