Thanks to everyone who wrote me

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I want to thank everyone who wrote to me privately ... I'm doing a lot better altho still some withdrawal effects. I think I could tell the day the effexor left me and my bp came back down to normal a few days later. And the horrible dreams stopped thank goodness. Then came the real withdrawal from 20+ years of Prozac .. crying half the time; anxiety attacks the other.

I realize I confused several of you about taking prozac. I've been depressed my whole life for reasons I won't bore you with. My dr who's now retired and younger than the 85+ yr old one I have now, had tried to get me to try antidepressants rather than relying on valium for several years.

Finally in 1986, my mother died suddenly, less than a yr later my father-in-law died too. And I became aware of how I had supposedly signed all these loans, second mortages, etc. The very day my mother died, my ex went and probably took some female to forge my signature for another $55,000. Didn't find that out til later.

At that point I was running the office of the family business, an electronics wholesale distributor started by ex's father. That in itself was stressful because I knew it was going under and he didn't do a darn thing to stop it. The salary I gave myself didn't even cover the babysitting costs. I was a high school teacher, not a bookkeeper/accountant. And not a liar who could follow instructions to tell our suppliers "the check is in the mail"

In between there somewhere, I ended up hemorrhaging and having an emergency hysterectomy. I couldn't go to the office so he brought the office to me, even in the darn hospital! I physically went back to work 2 weeks after against dr's orders. Soon after that I had an episode that was most likely an exacerbation. Can't remember what they sugarcoated it as, maybe my 4th time having mononucleosis (sp?). Anyway things got much worse, I felt so sick and out of control that I signed and made the frauds legit.

Then out of the blue I found out he had pulled another one, for over $100,000. I felt trapped because I could never pay off all I'd agree to myself if he ended up in jail so I agreed to cosign again on the condition he declare bankruptcy, get rid of the ridiculous accounting firm he'd started and get a job working for somebody else.

And gave in to the antidepressants trying several but eventually ending up on prozac. In my mind I was taking it for panic disorder because I didn't want to admit I was depressed. Nothing got better; his cheques always bounced, the driveway soon held a Mercedes and 2 Jags,etc. I just felt so trapped; I knew I didn't love him after the trust was gone but it took me until 97 to get the courage up to tell him to get out.

So that's why the antidepressant and the valium for panic attacks and eventually agoraphobic which he fostered to keep me unaware of what he was pulling off. Six months after he was out, I moved to Toronto which apparently shocked the s**t out of him.

And I've been on the prozac ever since. I can go out, travel, etc. and rarely take a tranquilizer. But the experience on Effexor was like one big flashback of past feelings. I've left lots out; as my divorce lawyer said "you can't tell me anything I haven't heard before" and that quickly changed to "if you wrote a book, no one would believe it"

Enough of all that crap, I phoned my pharmacist and he was really angry that the dr had left me in this position. Don't worry Sharon, I started back on my vasotec. And I"m taking diazapam when I'm feeling really badly. I much prefer that to Baclofen for my legs anyway. I don't know whether I'll end up back on prozac or just forget it but we'll see.

Sorry for the melodramatic book and thank you all for being here. You don't know how know you all mean to me .... hugs, Cait

[Guest guest]

CaitI'm so glad to hear you are back on your blood pressure med! You sound much better today. love SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Tue, June 7, 2011 10:26:45 PMSubject: Thanks to everyone who wrote me

I want to thank everyone who wrote to me privately ... I'm doing a lot better altho still some withdrawal effects. I think I could tell the day the effexor left me and my bp came back down to normal a few days later. And the horrible dreams stopped thank goodness. Then came the real withdrawal from 20+ years of Prozac .. crying half the time; anxiety attacks the other.

I realize I confused several of you about taking prozac. I've been depressed my whole life for reasons I won't bore you with. My dr who's now retired and younger than the 85+ yr old one I have now, had tried to get me to try antidepressants rather than relying on valium for several years.

Finally in 1986, my mother died suddenly, less than a yr later my father-in-law died too. And I became aware of how I had supposedly signed all these loans, second mortages, etc. The very day my mother died, my ex went and probably took some female to forge my signature for another $55,000. Didn't find that out til later.

At that point I was running the office of the family business, an electronics wholesale distributor started by ex's father. That in itself was stressful because I knew it was going under and he didn't do a darn thing to stop it. The salary I gave myself didn't even cover the babysitting costs. I was a high school teacher, not a bookkeeper/accountant. And not a liar who could follow instructions to tell our suppliers "the check is in the mail"

In between there somewhere, I ended up hemorrhaging and having an emergency hysterectomy. I couldn't go to the office so he brought the office to me, even in the darn hospital! I physically went back to work 2 weeks after against dr's orders. Soon after that I had an episode that was most likely an exacerbation. Can't remember what they sugarcoated it as, maybe my 4th time having mononucleosis (sp?). Anyway things got much worse, I felt so sick and out of control that I signed and made the frauds legit.

Then out of the blue I found out he had pulled another one, for over $100,000. I felt trapped because I could never pay off all I'd agree to myself if he ended up in jail so I agreed to cosign again on the condition he declare bankruptcy, get rid of the ridiculous accounting firm he'd started and get a job working for somebody else.

And gave in to the antidepressants trying several but eventually ending up on prozac. In my mind I was taking it for panic disorder because I didn't want to admit I was depressed. Nothing got better; his cheques always bounced, the driveway soon held a Mercedes and 2 Jags,etc. I just felt so trapped; I knew I didn't love him after the trust was gone but it took me until 97 to get the courage up to tell him to get out.

So that's why the antidepressant and the valium for panic attacks and eventually agoraphobic which he fostered to keep me unaware of what he was pulling off. Six months after he was out, I moved to Toronto which apparently shocked the s**t out of him.

And I've been on the prozac ever since. I can go out, travel, etc. and rarely take a tranquilizer. But the experience on Effexor was like one big flashback of past feelings. I've left lots out; as my divorce lawyer said "you can't tell me anything I haven't heard before" and that quickly changed to "if you wrote a book, no one would believe it"

Enough of all that crap, I phoned my pharmacist and he was really angry that the dr had left me in this position. Don't worry Sharon, I started back on my vasotec. And I"m taking diazapam when I'm feeling really badly. I much prefer that to Baclofen for my legs anyway. I don't know whether I'll end up back on prozac or just forget it but we'll see.

Sorry for the melodramatic book and thank you all for being here. You don't know how know you all mean to me .... hugs, Cait

[Guest guest]

CaitI'm so glad to hear you are back on your blood pressure med! You sound much better today. love SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Tue, June 7, 2011 10:26:45 PMSubject: Thanks to everyone who wrote me

I want to thank everyone who wrote to me privately ... I'm doing a lot better altho still some withdrawal effects. I think I could tell the day the effexor left me and my bp came back down to normal a few days later. And the horrible dreams stopped thank goodness. Then came the real withdrawal from 20+ years of Prozac .. crying half the time; anxiety attacks the other.

I realize I confused several of you about taking prozac. I've been depressed my whole life for reasons I won't bore you with. My dr who's now retired and younger than the 85+ yr old one I have now, had tried to get me to try antidepressants rather than relying on valium for several years.

Finally in 1986, my mother died suddenly, less than a yr later my father-in-law died too. And I became aware of how I had supposedly signed all these loans, second mortages, etc. The very day my mother died, my ex went and probably took some female to forge my signature for another $55,000. Didn't find that out til later.

At that point I was running the office of the family business, an electronics wholesale distributor started by ex's father. That in itself was stressful because I knew it was going under and he didn't do a darn thing to stop it. The salary I gave myself didn't even cover the babysitting costs. I was a high school teacher, not a bookkeeper/accountant. And not a liar who could follow instructions to tell our suppliers "the check is in the mail"

In between there somewhere, I ended up hemorrhaging and having an emergency hysterectomy. I couldn't go to the office so he brought the office to me, even in the darn hospital! I physically went back to work 2 weeks after against dr's orders. Soon after that I had an episode that was most likely an exacerbation. Can't remember what they sugarcoated it as, maybe my 4th time having mononucleosis (sp?). Anyway things got much worse, I felt so sick and out of control that I signed and made the frauds legit.

Then out of the blue I found out he had pulled another one, for over $100,000. I felt trapped because I could never pay off all I'd agree to myself if he ended up in jail so I agreed to cosign again on the condition he declare bankruptcy, get rid of the ridiculous accounting firm he'd started and get a job working for somebody else.

And gave in to the antidepressants trying several but eventually ending up on prozac. In my mind I was taking it for panic disorder because I didn't want to admit I was depressed. Nothing got better; his cheques always bounced, the driveway soon held a Mercedes and 2 Jags,etc. I just felt so trapped; I knew I didn't love him after the trust was gone but it took me until 97 to get the courage up to tell him to get out.

So that's why the antidepressant and the valium for panic attacks and eventually agoraphobic which he fostered to keep me unaware of what he was pulling off. Six months after he was out, I moved to Toronto which apparently shocked the s**t out of him.

And I've been on the prozac ever since. I can go out, travel, etc. and rarely take a tranquilizer. But the experience on Effexor was like one big flashback of past feelings. I've left lots out; as my divorce lawyer said "you can't tell me anything I haven't heard before" and that quickly changed to "if you wrote a book, no one would believe it"

Enough of all that crap, I phoned my pharmacist and he was really angry that the dr had left me in this position. Don't worry Sharon, I started back on my vasotec. And I"m taking diazapam when I'm feeling really badly. I much prefer that to Baclofen for my legs anyway. I don't know whether I'll end up back on prozac or just forget it but we'll see.

Sorry for the melodramatic book and thank you all for being here. You don't know how know you all mean to me .... hugs, Cait

[Guest guest]

CaitI'm so glad to hear you are back on your blood pressure med! You sound much better today. love SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Tue, June 7, 2011 10:26:45 PMSubject: Thanks to everyone who wrote me

I want to thank everyone who wrote to me privately ... I'm doing a lot better altho still some withdrawal effects. I think I could tell the day the effexor left me and my bp came back down to normal a few days later. And the horrible dreams stopped thank goodness. Then came the real withdrawal from 20+ years of Prozac .. crying half the time; anxiety attacks the other.

I realize I confused several of you about taking prozac. I've been depressed my whole life for reasons I won't bore you with. My dr who's now retired and younger than the 85+ yr old one I have now, had tried to get me to try antidepressants rather than relying on valium for several years.

Finally in 1986, my mother died suddenly, less than a yr later my father-in-law died too. And I became aware of how I had supposedly signed all these loans, second mortages, etc. The very day my mother died, my ex went and probably took some female to forge my signature for another $55,000. Didn't find that out til later.

At that point I was running the office of the family business, an electronics wholesale distributor started by ex's father. That in itself was stressful because I knew it was going under and he didn't do a darn thing to stop it. The salary I gave myself didn't even cover the babysitting costs. I was a high school teacher, not a bookkeeper/accountant. And not a liar who could follow instructions to tell our suppliers "the check is in the mail"

In between there somewhere, I ended up hemorrhaging and having an emergency hysterectomy. I couldn't go to the office so he brought the office to me, even in the darn hospital! I physically went back to work 2 weeks after against dr's orders. Soon after that I had an episode that was most likely an exacerbation. Can't remember what they sugarcoated it as, maybe my 4th time having mononucleosis (sp?). Anyway things got much worse, I felt so sick and out of control that I signed and made the frauds legit.

Then out of the blue I found out he had pulled another one, for over $100,000. I felt trapped because I could never pay off all I'd agree to myself if he ended up in jail so I agreed to cosign again on the condition he declare bankruptcy, get rid of the ridiculous accounting firm he'd started and get a job working for somebody else.

And gave in to the antidepressants trying several but eventually ending up on prozac. In my mind I was taking it for panic disorder because I didn't want to admit I was depressed. Nothing got better; his cheques always bounced, the driveway soon held a Mercedes and 2 Jags,etc. I just felt so trapped; I knew I didn't love him after the trust was gone but it took me until 97 to get the courage up to tell him to get out.

So that's why the antidepressant and the valium for panic attacks and eventually agoraphobic which he fostered to keep me unaware of what he was pulling off. Six months after he was out, I moved to Toronto which apparently shocked the s**t out of him.

And I've been on the prozac ever since. I can go out, travel, etc. and rarely take a tranquilizer. But the experience on Effexor was like one big flashback of past feelings. I've left lots out; as my divorce lawyer said "you can't tell me anything I haven't heard before" and that quickly changed to "if you wrote a book, no one would believe it"

Enough of all that crap, I phoned my pharmacist and he was really angry that the dr had left me in this position. Don't worry Sharon, I started back on my vasotec. And I"m taking diazapam when I'm feeling really badly. I much prefer that to Baclofen for my legs anyway. I don't know whether I'll end up back on prozac or just forget it but we'll see.

Sorry for the melodramatic book and thank you all for being here. You don't know how know you all mean to me .... hugs, Cait