NOT that anyone has asked.....

[Guest guest]

Angie, I do care and I'm sorry that I don't respond to your posts more

often. I'm sorry to hear about your friend. What a terrible way to go. Did

he

have insurance? Maybe that is why he didn't get his feet taken care of or he

was just in denial.

Please cheer up and know that you are loved by us.

Love and hugs,

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where I've been, but

I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD shrink

eval today.

I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some codeine/vicodin

cough syrup.

I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm one of

those expendable persons.

OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school passed away.

He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really bad. They wanted to

amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he died. So basically, he

committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems dealing with it. I'm both very

distraught and angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial.

I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my blog

postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out there and see

if anyone cared.

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing,

camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers

member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

" It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

" While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow

part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious

uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

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http://www.FamilyLifePharmacy.com

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> I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess

> I'm one of those expendable persons.

You know better than that, Angie.

I've given up even attempting to keep up with this group. There are

too many messages, I can't sit at the computer for very long and read

them, and I definitely can't respond to even a fraction of them. I'm

sure I'm not the only person like that and I guess I don't feel so

connected with people here that I feel hurt if people don't ask about

me. But that's just me.

I understand the feeling of expendability, though. My grandmother

used to tell about her mother: when she'd say " Come on, Mom, it's

time for dinner " , the old lady would say " I don't deserve to eat; I

didn't do no work today " . Ever since I went on disability, that's

been running through my head. I never had an easy moment my whole

career, with the fear that they'd figure out that I don't really know

anything and fire me. Now, I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop

and for the disability company and/or SSA to say I'm not really

disabled and can go back to work, when I know I couldn't manage it.

I was raised in a culture that assigned worth to a person's ability

to work and be productive, and I've been on disability for nearly 3

years.

So my nightmares about not being good enough, and about trying to

find food and not being able to, have been increasing. I did food

prep yesterday, and I suspect that if I work on my Java course even a

little, the other will get better. But I've been thinking about

paying my therp. a visit, it's gotten so bad. I have more things

that I want to do, than I have energy to do them, and it's discouraging.

I'm sorry about your friend. What a stupid, useless way to die. Was

his diabetes treated? Was he compliant? It was a friend's death,

mostly from the complications of super morbid obesity, a few years

ago, that pushed me into getting my obesity treated, which allowed me

to get my new knees. It also put my diabetes into remission, which

is a blessing.

Hope your SSD interview went well. I hope your sinus infection

clears up and you feel better.

Z

[Guest guest]

Oh (((Angie))) I am so sorry about the loss of your friend. And you

know what? I'd probably be angry too. Diabetes, no matter what type

is controllable, but it is up to the individual to " want to " . If it

meant living to a ripe old age and sacrificing a limb to do so, I'd

do it in a heartbeat! At least then my feet wouldn't swell, right?

I'm also sorry you have a sinus infection. It's that time of year, I

guess. Make sure you drink lots of water with the levaquin. It will

give you a yeast infection from hell if you don't!

(((Hugs)))

Darlene

P.S. I may not always respond to everyone's posts, but I love your

sayings at the end of yours!

-- In Fibromyalgia_Support_Group , Angie

wrote:

>

> where I've been, but

> I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my

SSD shrink eval today.

> I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

> I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some

codeine/vicodin cough syrup.

>

> I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess

I'm one of those expendable persons.

> OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school

passed away. He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes

really bad. They wanted to amputate his feet and he refused to let

them. So he died. So basically, he committed suicide. I guess I'm

having problems dealing with it. I'm both very distraught and

angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial.

>

> I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with

my blog postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a

whine out there and see if anyone cared.

>

>

> Angie Harley Mama Double-D

> Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats,

snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong

Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent,

opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

>

>

> " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

>

>

>

> " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is

to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our

creativity, or our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

>

>

> http://angienv.multiply.com

> http://www.FamilyLifePharmacy.com

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

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>

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 4/18/2008 11:35:36 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time,

villaridge@... writes:

where I've been, but

> > I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my

> SSD shrink eval today.

> > I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

Hi Angie:

I am fairly new to the group, so don't know everyone's name yet or when they

haven't been posting, but I do remember u, cos I have u on my myspace

friends list...

Sorry i didn't notice u were gone for awhile....I hope u are feeling better

soon...I had a sinus infection as well, last week, but it finally went

away....I know I felt terrible too...

Feel free to email me anytime or send a shout out on my myspace page...Its

_www.myspace.com/bonjovipurplerose_ (http://www.myspace.com/bonjovipurplerose)

.....

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[Guest guest]

I care Angie! I don't post often, but now and then I try to read through

everything that is being put out there. I love to hear your input to others

and about how you have been coping. I can't always remember everyone's

names...fibro brain...but I do remember yours.

Hang in there with the loss of your school mate...it hits hard when people

our own age are passing....but it sounds like he had major health issues. I

m sorry for your loss.

Take care,

Vicki

MN

-- NOT that anyone has asked.....

[Guest guest]

Angie, I am so sorry honey. I was having problems yesterday with yahoo and also

I had a really miserable fibro day. I do care about you.

It is so sad that you have lost a friend in that way. How heartbreaking. You

go through so much. And all the battles with disability and everything.

Just to let you know, I DO care. I may not respond as much as I should, but I

care. You are a very valuable person in this group and are always there to

listen.

love ya,

Debra V.

Subject: NOT that anyone has asked.....

To: ChronicPainSupportGroup4FamilynFriends ,

Fibromyalgia_Support_Group , " LPS " LUPIES >,

" LSU " lupussurvivorsu >, Place_Vent_Here

Date: Friday, April 18, 2008, 1:06 AM

where I've been, but

I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD shrink

eval today.

I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some codeine/vicodin

cough syrup.

I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm one of

those expendable persons.

OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school passed away. He

was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really bad. They wanted to

amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he died. So basically, he

committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems dealing with it. I'm both very

distraught and angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial.

I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my blog

postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out there and see

if anyone cared.

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing,

camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers

member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

" It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

" While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow

part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious

uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

http://angienv. multiply. com

http://www.FamilyLi fePharmacy. com

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[Guest guest]

Angie I do care about you and everyone else here. Just haven't feel

up to keeping up with all the posts lately. If anyone is expendable

it's me. Like you I have another bad sinus infection. My doctor gave

me Cipro but I can't take it hours before and after my needed calcium.

That's sad your friend died so young recently. Guess he should have

agreed to the amputation surgery. I would be upset if someone I knew

died so young also. Will keep you in my prayers.

hugs,

Debbie L

>

> where I've been, but

> I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my

SSD shrink eval today.

> I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

> I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some

codeine/vicodin cough syrup.

>

> I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess

I'm one of those expendable persons.

> OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school

passed away. >

>

>

>

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>

>

[Guest guest]

>

>> -- In Fibromyalgia_Support_Group , Angie

> wrote:

> >

> > where I've been, but

> > I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my

> SSD shrink eval today.

> > I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

> > I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some

> codeine/vicodin cough syrup.

> >

> > I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been.

Guess

> I'm one of those expendable persons.

> > OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school

> passed away. He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes

> really bad. They wanted to amputate his feet and he refused to let

> them. So he died. So basically, he committed suicide. I guess

I'm

> having problems dealing with it. I'm both very distraught and

> angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial.

> >

> > I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling

with

> my blog postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a

> whine out there and see if anyone cared.

> >

> >

> > Angie Harley Mama Double-D

> > Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4

cats,

> snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong

> Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate,

independent,

> opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

> >

> >

> > " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

> >

> >

> >

> > " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy

is

> to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our

> creativity, or our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

> >

> >

> > http://angienv.multiply.com

> > http://www.FamilyLifePharmacy.com

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> Angie, I am so sorry for you about the loss of your friend. I have

one surviving cousin who was diagnosised with juvenile diabetes at

age 9 and her sister the next year at age 3. The younger one died

accidentally with her boyfriend just before her 16th birthday. But I

do think one reason both my aunt and uncle still fight to live (and

it is very hard for my uncle!), is because they appear to be the only

ones who can really help the surviving daughter. She is on dialysis

several days aweek and at one time in recent years, she was on list

for a kidney transplant which I offered to donate if I qualifited. I

had always said that anything I could do, I would. Unfortunately,

doctor said because of high blood pressure I was not a good

candidate. I do realize that some of the reasons she is in the

condition she presently is, are because by the time she started high

school, she did not do (eat) the things she should have (not a

problem during grade school, as she could get home so easily) And

however many pregnancies she had, had to have taken a big toal on her

body. So I can understand how you can be angry because your friend

refused to have the surgery which might have helped him. I know it

would have been so wonderful if K could have been healthy enough to

use her Ph.D. in music theory, and perhaps would have been given her

more reasons to take better care of herself.

So, I do understand that you do feel anger that your friend refused

to have the surgery, but at the same time, I can perhaps see that to

him that might have caused him more difficulty in being mobile.

But we do care and you, of all people, should know that you can vent

here when ever you need to!!

I have been so caught up in recent weeks trying to prepare our taxes.

I realized late on Tuesday afternoon, (after repeated calls to the

IRS, the company where I have some funds, and when I finally made one

call and connected with someone I had originally spoken to years ago,

that I had misread statements on two forms the company had sent. But

I also thought Monday was the 15th and I worked on those taxes all

day. Then when I realized that Tuesday was actually the 15th, I

closed the computer and went to bed. Tuesday, I was up and back down

here working on the same problem until late in the afternoon when I

spoke to the person who had originally helped me set up the accounts

and while talking to someone who could understand what my question

actually was, I finally realized that for 2 weeks, I had missed one

statement on 2 forms --- this is for your information only!! Each of

those nights I started out with half a percocet and when that did not

take care/relieve the pain the stress had triggered, I took the

second half. But were it not for the fact that I had an appointment

yesterday, I would have been in bed all day yesterday. May have to

go back again to day, because that was very stressful on my body.

And to add to that, I discovered that my younges nephew is in a manic

state and is so bad that his foreman called his father Monday night

to come get him! He is and adult --- 29 years old, but his mother

does not believe he needs to be taking pharma drugs but rather

supplements and vitamins, so I don't know if he went off meds

recently or what but, father did take him to see a pyschiatrist on

Tuesday and he was given samples and the doctor hopefully, also

signed the paper work declaring him disable so that he can get into a

program that he can relate to and will be able to resume his ability

to work. Father said he had been healthy, no self medicating and

supporting himself w/no help from father for 2 and a half years!

What I do not like is that his mother said " He's going to loose this

job!! " I did not find that very supportive and do hope she did not

say that to him.

Sorry to wander off topic, but you know this group does care about

you, Angie.

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[Guest guest]

Debbie,

You are not expendable either! You are an important part of this group and I

know everyone feels that way too........I don't think there is anyone on here

that wants to see you leave the group since you need the support and we need it

from you!

Jill

Re: NOT that anyone has asked.....

Angie I do care about you and everyone else here. Just haven't feel

up to keeping up with all the posts lately. If anyone is expendable

it's me. Like you I have another bad sinus infection. My doctor gave

me Cipro but I can't take it hours before and after my needed calcium.

That's sad your friend died so young recently. Guess he should have

agreed to the amputation surgery. I would be upset if someone I knew

died so young also. Will keep you in my prayers.

hugs,

Debbie L

>

> where I've been, but

> I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my

SSD shrink eval today.

> I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

> I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some

codeine/vicodin cough syrup.

>

> I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess

I'm one of those expendable persons.

> OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school

passed away. >

>

>

>

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>

>

[Guest guest]

hey Debbie don't feel like you are not important and don't get asked what's up.

I too feel like you do to alot and i understand that some only post if it is

directed at them. but i know how you feel when days go by and no one seems to

email you . i guess as we are on the group longer things get better as people

get to know the newbies. and I just came on the list in Feb. after seeking a

group to learn more and to see how much i am simular to others with our

problems.

So don't worry things on lists always get better and friendships grow.

Diane    

>

> Subject: Re: Re: NOT that anyone has asked.....

> To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

> Date: Friday, April 18, 2008, 12:54 PM

> Debbie,

>

> You are not expendable either! You are an important part

> of this group and I know everyone feels that way

> too........I don't think there is anyone on here that

> wants to see you leave the group since you need the support

> and we need it from you!

>

> Jill

> Re: NOT that anyone has asked.....

>

>

> Angie I do care about you and everyone else here. Just

> haven't feel

> up to keeping up with all the posts lately. If anyone is

> expendable

> it's me. Like you I have another bad sinus infection.

> My doctor gave

> me Cipro but I can't take it hours before and after

> my needed calcium.

>

> That's sad your friend died so young recently. Guess

> he should have

> agreed to the amputation surgery. I would be upset if

> someone I knew

> died so young also. Will keep you in my prayers.

> hugs,

> Debbie L

>

>

> >

> > where I've been, but

> > I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the

> doctor; AND I had my

> SSD shrink eval today.

> > I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

> > I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus

> Leviquin and some

> codeine/vicodin cough syrup.

> >

> > I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders

> where I've been. Guess

> I'm one of those expendable persons.

> > OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from

> high school

> passed away. >

> >

> >

> >

>

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> >

> > [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

> >

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I tried to respond before, and I'm glad that lots of people have

already responded to how you are feeling Angie. I just wanted to add

my voice to the others. I do hope you do well, and I'm sorry for your

loss.

Vicki

MN

-- In Fibromyalgia_Support_Group , Angie

lovinglifeinnv@> wrote:

I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been.

[Guest guest]

Angie,

Of course we care!!!! I wonder at times where people have been, but half the

time, I can't remember names. It's hard to keep track of all these folks on

here!!!

I'm sure you are upset and rightly so about your good friend. That is very sad.

Diabetes is a scary thing and who's to say what we would do if we were in that

situation. Did he have family? That is wonderful that you are going to the

memorial. It will help you come to grips with it and grieve.

Come whine again if need be. You take care.

Hugs,

/Mi

NOT that anyone has asked.....

where I've been, but

I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD shrink

eval today.

I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN.

I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some

codeine/vicodin cough syrup.

I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm one of

those expendable persons.

OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school passed away.

He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really bad. They wanted to

amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he died. So basically, he

committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems dealing with it. I'm both very

distraught and angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial.

I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my blog

postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out there and see

if anyone cared.

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow

skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong

Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open

minded.

" It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

" While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow

part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious

uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

http://angienv.multiply.com

http://www.FamilyLifePharmacy.com

__________________________________________________________

Be a better friend, newshound, and

know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now.

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