Guest guest Posted April 18, 2008 Report Share Posted April 18, 2008 Angie, First let me say that everyone cares here! Yeah, sometimes we all get wrapped up in our own little problems and our own little worlds and one thing is mentioned about another member and everyone pipes in. It's not that they don't miss you any more or any less! Second, I am so sorry for your lose!! I know how it feels to lose someone that is such a good and dear friend to you. On February 12, 2007, my best friend in the whole world, since 3rd grade...yeah, that's 32 years, committed suicide!!! I loved him with all my heart and soul. I understand the lose you are feeling right now. I really don't have any uplifting words to say. Does it get better? You survive!! You survive the days without talking to him, without seeing him and what I miss the most is without hugging him. Losing your best friend is really hard. I still ask myself to this day why he made the decision to do that. I was suppose to drive to Houston to spend the weekend with him but couldn't because I had my gallbladder removed. On Tuesday he was dead and I had called his apartment complex to have them go check on him since the school where he worked had called me looking for him. I was told my his loft manager he was dead. I don't remember much after that. My husband picked the phone up off the floor and finished the comverstion for me. It was a horrible day for me. I often wonder if I had gone to Houston that weekend, would he still be alive? I will carry that for the rest of my life. You will have days that you literaly hate your friend for the choice he made, but HE was the one that made it. You will have days where you really miss your friend and you will cry. There will be things that remind you of your friend and the times that you shared, but you will survive! There will a day that you understand, just a little, as to how he made that decision. I will tell you, I haven't been the same since my friend died. I have a void in my life that will never be filled by anyone else. No one else can ever take the place of your friend or of mine. I would like to offer this suggestion. Please start some type of counseling!!! Where it be with your pastor, another friend, or someone professionally. I didn't do that and my June of last year I was so depressed that my husband called and made me and appointment and took me. I was too the point that he wanted to admit me into a hospital!! Please consider getting some professional help to get you through the first year. It will make a difference. I am so sorry for your lose! Please feel free to email me individually at dirkfan2@.... If you want to just talk about it. I understand the pain you have in your heart and soul right now! I will pray for you and your friend, but I know your friend is looking down at you and he will be with you for the rest of your life. I AM SO SORRY! Debra B Gladewater, Texas NOT that anyone has asked..... where I've been, but I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD shrink eval today. I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN. I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some codeine/vicodin cough syrup. I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm one of those expendable persons. OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school passed away. He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really bad. They wanted to amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he died. So basically, he committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems dealing with it. I'm both very distraught and angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial. I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my blog postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out there and see if anyone cared. Angie Harley Mama Double-D Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded. " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner http://angienv. multiply. com http://www.FamilyLi fePharmacy. com ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _ Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. http://mobile. yahoo.com/ ;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR 8HDtDypao8Wcj9tA cJ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2008 Report Share Posted April 18, 2008 Hi Angie Angie even though we have not chatted in person before I wanted to send you this message to say I totally understand about friends dropping you and not caring guess it happens to most of us as they cannot understand what we go through. Living with the conditions we have can be extremely lonely and many of us find it hard getting families to understand never mind friends. Here though is a different matter you do have people that care about how you are and how you are feeling. I am sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. It must be so hard when a close friend passes and made the choice he did. A similar situation happened to me ( i wont go into details) and I struggled for awhile coming to terms with why they decided to do what they did. Eventually I realized that it was her choice and I had to respect that. I am not telling you that you must do that just explaining how I managed to come to terms with it. Keep posting here as I am 100% sure that people will support you as much as they can. Also rant on your blog... it might help and to hell with what other people think about your rant on your blog. After all it is your blog! Sending a big hug Meachelle From: debra bunt Sent: Friday, April 18, 2008 12:27 PM To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group Subject: Re: ANGIE--I CARE!!! Angie, First let me say that everyone cares here! Yeah, sometimes we all get wrapped up in our own little problems and our own little worlds and one thing is mentioned about another member and everyone pipes in. It's not that they don't miss you any more or any less! Second, I am so sorry for your lose!! I know how it feels to lose someone that is such a good and dear friend to you. On February 12, 2007, my best friend in the whole world, since 3rd grade...yeah, that's 32 years, committed suicide!!! I loved him with all my heart and soul. I understand the lose you are feeling right now. I really don't have any uplifting words to say. Does it get better? You survive!! You survive the days without talking to him, without seeing him and what I miss the most is without hugging him. Losing your best friend is really hard. I still ask myself to this day why he made the decision to do that. I was suppose to drive to Houston to spend the weekend with him but couldn't because I had my gallbladder removed. On Tuesday he was dead and I had called his apartment complex to have them go check on him since the school where he worked had called me looking for him. I was told my his loft manager he was dead. I don't remember much after that. My husband picked the phone up off the floor and finished the comverstion for me. It was a horrible day for me. I often wonder if I had gone to Houston that weekend, would he still be alive? I will carry that for the rest of my life. You will have days that you literaly hate your friend for the choice he made, but HE was the one that made it. You will have days where you really miss your friend and you will cry. There will be things that remind you of your friend and the times that you shared, but you will survive! There will a day that you understand, just a little, as to how he made that decision. I will tell you, I haven't been the same since my friend died. I have a void in my life that will never be filled by anyone else. No one else can ever take the place of your friend or of mine. I would like to offer this suggestion. Please start some type of counseling!!! Where it be with your pastor, another friend, or someone professionally. I didn't do that and my June of last year I was so depressed that my husband called and made me and appointment and took me. I was too the point that he wanted to admit me into a hospital!! Please consider getting some professional help to get you through the first year. It will make a difference. I am so sorry for your lose! Please feel free to email me individually at dirkfan2@.... If you want to just talk about it. I understand the pain you have in your heart and soul right now! I will pray for you and your friend, but I know your friend is looking down at you and he will be with you for the rest of your life. I AM SO SORRY! Debra B Gladewater, Texas NOT that anyone has asked..... where I've been, but I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD shrink eval today. I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN. I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some codeine/vicodin cough syrup. I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm one of those expendable persons. OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school passed away. He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really bad. They wanted to amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he died. So basically, he committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems dealing with it. I'm both very distraught and angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial. I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my blog postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out there and see if anyone cared. Angie Harley Mama Double-D Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded. " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner http://angienv. multiply. com http://www.FamilyLi fePharmacy. com ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _ Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. 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Guest guest Posted April 18, 2008 Report Share Posted April 18, 2008 Hang in there Angie. We all care about you so much. To lose someone you love dearly is so hard. I lost my oldest daughter to a car accident and she was only 25. I still to this day have some really sad times but I know that she and her daughter are at peace. Over th last 6 years I have lost so many people I love but life goes on. Just try and remember the good times. It will take time to heal, don't think it won't be easy. go to a support group, that's what I did. You will go thru a lot of emotions and that is normal. If you need to talkjust e-mail me privately. God bless. Lil > > Angie, > First let me say that everyone cares here! Yeah, sometimes we all get wrapped up in our own little problems and our own little worlds and one thing is mentioned about another member and everyone pipes in. It's not that they don't miss you any more or any less! > > Second, I am so sorry for your lose!! I know how it feels to lose someone that is such a good and dear friend to you. On February 12, 2007, my best friend in the whole world, since 3rd grade...yeah, that's 32 years, committed suicide!!! I loved him with all my heart and soul. I understand the lose you are feeling right now. I really don't have any uplifting words to say. Does it get better? You survive!! You survive the days without talking to him, without seeing him and what I miss the most is without hugging him. Losing your best friend is really hard. I still ask myself to this day why he made the decision to do that. I was suppose to drive to Houston to spend the weekend with him but couldn't because I had my gallbladder removed. On Tuesday he was dead and I had called his apartment complex to have them go check on him since the school where he worked had called me looking for him. I was told my his loft manager he was dead. I don't remember much > after that. My husband picked the phone up off the floor and finished the comverstion for me. It was a horrible day for me. I often wonder if I had gone to Houston that weekend, would he still be alive? I will carry that for the rest of my life. You will have days that you literaly hate your friend for the choice he made, but HE was the one that made it. You will have days where you really miss your friend and you will cry. There will be things that remind you of your friend and the times that you shared, but you will survive! There will a day that you understand, just a little, as to how he made that decision. I will tell you, I haven't been the same since my friend died. I have a void in my life that will never be filled by anyone else. No one else can ever take the place of your friend or of mine. I would like to offer this suggestion. Please start some type of counseling!!! Where it be with your pastor, another friend, or someone professionally. I > didn't do that and my June of last year I was so depressed that my husband called and made me and appointment and took me. I was too the point that he wanted to admit me into a hospital!! Please consider getting some professional help to get you through the first year. It will make a difference. I am so sorry for your lose! Please feel free to email me individually at dirkfan2@... If you want to just talk about it. I understand the pain you have in your heart and soul right now! I will pray for you and your friend, but I know your friend is looking down at you and he will be with you for the rest of your life. I AM SO SORRY! > > Debra B > Gladewater, Texas > > > NOT that anyone has asked..... > > where I've been, but > I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD shrink eval today. > I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN. > I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some codeine/vicodin cough syrup. > > I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm one of those expendable persons. > OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school passed away. He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really bad. They wanted to amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he died. So basically, he committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems dealing with it. I'm both very distraught and angry. I'll be going to L.A. next week for his memorial. > > I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my blog postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out there and see if anyone cared. > > > Angie Harley Mama Double-D > Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded. > > " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner > > " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner > > http://angienv. multiply. com > http://www.FamilyLi fePharmacy. com > > ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _ > Be a better friend, newshound, and > know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. http://mobile. yahoo.com/ ;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR 8HDtDypao8Wcj9tA cJ > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 18, 2008 Report Share Posted April 18, 2008 > > > > Angie, > > First let me say that everyone cares here! Yeah, sometimes we all get > wrapped up in our own little problems and our own little worlds and one > thing is mentioned about another member and everyone pipes in. It's not > that they don't miss you any more or any less! > > > > Second, I am so sorry for your lose!! I know how it feels to lose > someone that is such a good and dear friend to you. On February 12, > 2007, my best friend in the whole world, since 3rd grade...yeah, that's > 32 years, committed suicide!!! I loved him with all my heart and soul. I > understand the lose you are feeling right now. I really don't have any > uplifting words to say. Does it get better? You survive!! You survive > the days without talking to him, without seeing him and what I miss the > most is without hugging him. Losing your best friend is really hard. I > still ask myself to this day why he made the decision to do that. I was > suppose to drive to Houston to spend the weekend with him but couldn't > because I had my gallbladder removed. On Tuesday he was dead and I had > called his apartment complex to have them go check on him since the > school where he worked had called me looking for him. I was told my his > loft manager he was dead. I don't remember much > > after that. My husband picked the phone up off the floor and finished > the comverstion for me. It was a horrible day for me. I often wonder if > I had gone to Houston that weekend, would he still be alive? I will > carry that for the rest of my life. You will have days that you literaly > hate your friend for the choice he made, but HE was the one that made > it. You will have days where you really miss your friend and you will > cry. There will be things that remind you of your friend and the times > that you shared, but you will survive! There will a day that you > understand, just a little, as to how he made that decision. I will tell > you, I haven't been the same since my friend died. I have a void in my > life that will never be filled by anyone else. No one else can ever take > the place of your friend or of mine. I would like to offer this > suggestion. Please start some type of counseling!!! Where it be with > your pastor, another friend, or someone professionally. I > > didn't do that and my June of last year I was so depressed that my > husband called and made me and appointment and took me. I was too the > point that he wanted to admit me into a hospital!! Please consider > getting some professional help to get you through the first year. It > will make a difference. I am so sorry for your lose! Please feel free to > email me individually at dirkfan2@ If you want to just talk about it. > I understand the pain you have in your heart and soul right now! I will > pray for you and your friend, but I know your friend is looking down at > you and he will be with you for the rest of your life. I AM SO SORRY! > > > > Debra B > > Gladewater, Texas > > > > > > NOT that anyone has asked..... > > > > where I've been, but > > I've been under the weather AGAIN and to the doctor; AND I had my SSD > shrink eval today. > > I have a severe sinus infection AGAIN. > > I've added Topomax to everything I take; plus Leviquin and some > codeine/vicodin cough syrup. > > > > I'm feeling unloved cuz no one ever wonders where I've been. Guess I'm > one of those expendable persons. > > OK, truth is; a very, very close friend of mine from high school > passed away. He was a year younger than me and he had diabetes really > bad. They wanted to amputate his feet and he refused to let them. So he > died. So basically, he committed suicide. I guess I'm having problems > dealing with it. I'm both very distraught and angry. I'll be going to > L.A. next week for his memorial. > > > > I'm basically at a loss for words. I've even been struggling with my > blog postings. But I figured it was time to at least throw a whine out > there and see if anyone cared. > > > > > > Angie Harley Mama Double-D > > Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, > snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High > Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, > outspoken, and open minded. > > > > " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner > > > > " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to > allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or > our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner > > > > http://angienv. multiply. com > > http://www.FamilyLi fePharmacy. com > > > > ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _ > > Be a better friend, newshound, and > > know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. http://mobile. yahoo.com/ > ;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR 8HDtDypao8Wcj9tA cJ > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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