Re: Unable to sleep and venting

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Well, I slept ok last night, but that is all I have done today except go to

Sams. That did me in. Barely able to walk out of the store. I just woke up.

Hurting worse today. Guess I spoke too soon about the new med.

The Zanaflex is mainly used for MS. We will see soon if I actually have it.

Hope you are getting to sleep. I am up now and hurting like crazy. Gotta fix

dinner and watch a movie. Weekends are for hubby and me ;-)

Hugs,

Annie in TN

magicaldream411 magicaldream411@...> wrote:

Annie-

Lord knows I sure need something to help me sleep.

I wasn't able to go to bed until 5am today, and looky--now it is 9:00

am. Resting is absolutely something this beast doesn't let me do.

I will lay back down in a few minutes, and I guarentee I will be back

up at 11. Is sometimes pain that will wake me up..but then again

sometimes,, my eyes just open..either way..I sleep in two hour

intervals. I have kept a journal and everytime I wake up, I write the

time down..and if I can sleep three hours straight, it is a

miracle-usually it is within two hours.

The frustration overwhelms me, I want to hit something I am so

tired..tired of feeling like this. Is it any wonder why I have

anxiety attacks? I sit with my face in my hands, and keep quiet, but

I just wanna scream, cuss, hit, kick, throw something!! However, I

know it won't do any good..I am just-oh--I am sure you all know the

aggravation, the aggitation that goes along with not feeling yourself.

I have always been a person that when I see something that needs

doing, I do it..no problem. I have always been active, hyper..happy

to just be blessed enough to do things, help people-and now..if I

do..I have to do slow, I have to stop as not to over-do..but I over-do

alot...even through my pain, I try to push on through..just to feel

like me..and accomplish something..making some old lady smile, is the

light of my life..making my hubby grin or laugh..yeah..that is the

ultimate..but it is too much for me anymore.

I need help with anything I do, planting flowers in my flower

bed..yep, I need someone to help me, because I just cannot do it.

MAKES ME SICK! MAKES ME MAD! The " me " I used to be, I can't be now,

and I will not be in the future either...so not only am I fighting the

pain..and Lord it is bad today--but I am having a big fight with

depression..and I just refuse to let this take over my life-but what

can I possibly do to stop it?? Pain meds..have never been one of my

favorites. They make me feel like a zombie or something..for sure

they make me unable to focus,and so NOT alert, and now, seems like I

am being forced to reach out to my doctor for them. I literally have

no control over this evil thing that has just welcomed itself into my

life uninvited....and took over. ::cries::

Well now..bitching surely doesn't help, I think it kinda makes me hurt

more. Think I am laying on couch under blankie with My chichuahua and

try to nap again.

Until later..

T

>

> Hi !!

>

> Any way we can get the word out will be a blessing for us all. If

we have to stand and sit on a street corner with placards saying " We

are being ignored and we won't take it anymore " or " Wake up Congress

and Feel our Pain " .

>

> I am hoping that I get a response from the television show

producers. I would like to gather as many of us as possible to appear

on the show. I like the clothespin idea too!!

>

> , my doctor just put me on Zanaflex for night. It has

helped me sleep and wake up not hurting as much.

>

> I will have sleepless nights and if I see you on yahoo messenger,

we can chat until our eyes get blurry and we are ready to sleep.

>

> Hugs,

> Annie

>

> p.s. the offer to chat is always open, but just like all of us,

sometimes I have to go lay down to slow down the pain!!!

>

>

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